Where does Narcissistic Personality disorder come from? How Did I become a Narcissist?

Where does Narcissistic Personality disorder come from? How Did I become a Narcissist?

Welcome my channel! If this is your first time seeing my face or hearing my voice, my name is Lee and I am a self aware narcissist. I have narcissistic personality disorder ( NPD ) and I've been in therapy for my personality disorder since 2017 and it has definitely changed my life because without it, I would have lost everything.

The point of these videos is to help bring awareness from the other side of the narcissistic *buse spectrum. All my videos give perspective on why many narcissists do what they do and the possible different reasons behind them. The victims and survivors get validation and the Narcissists (those that are willing) get to see that you can get help and that you are not alone.

Thank you so much

[emanuelarangos]

I feel that the narcissist is more fragile than us. They've got so hurt at one point in they're life, that it turned them into a fortress full of loaded weapons. They've closed themselves in such a way that no one can enter.

[creating_c]

Narcissism is usually the defense mechanism of protection against trauma but can also be grafted from excessive unearned praise. The key connection between the two is the absence of accountability for ones actions.

Protect children
Validate their trauma and get them help.
Allow them to experience safe age appropriate consequences for their actions which will build character.

[sonyab]

Hypnotherapy is what you need. I am diagnosed NPD and BPD. A year ago I found out that my father sexually molested me for 11 years and I have no memory up until the age of 15. Hypnotherapy helped me to uncover this. My father also was physically abusive to my mother and brother. Constantly walking on egg shells. My mother was emotionally unavailable and she is NPD as well as my father. NPD is born out of a severe trauma and you are totally right. Is a defensive mechanism to keep us safe. I know many will say that not everyone turns into NPD after trauma but that's because they somehow processed the trauma either during the event or later on and their brain didn't swept it away in the subconscious.

[hilaryjoseph]

This is the video we've been waiting for

[tangatawhenua]

Pretty amazing to hearing someone talk about narcissistic personality disorder that is an actual narcissist

[venuspsychicmasseuse]

Its funny cuz 'I will never let that happen again' is like an auto immune response in over drive, Hyperdefensive, and starts to sabotage rather than simply protect. Thank you for your transparency Lee, its very illuminating to walk thru this stuff that has been destroying humanity. Abuse has consequences Intelligence can save us Save our hearts

[stephaniemckie]

My ex was sexually molested as a kid. He may never admit it, but I believe that is where his narcissism stemmed from. I want to thank you because before I started watching your videos I had no conformation on what his problem was. I read up on gaslighting and found all this stuff about narcissism. When I told him about it, of course he didn't accept it. But now it's scary how right I was!

[blazeme]

I am so proud for you!
Please keep us posted with "the narcissistic side" of your journey if you are comfortable.This is amazingly insightful video!
I have a child that has showed some narcissistic personality disorder symptoms

[stefblanco]

I’m pretty much over hearing about narcissism as if it’s some type of disorder/disease. We’ve all experienced trauma at some point in our lives. There are even some worse than others who don’t grow up hurting and using people for their own selfish gain or pleasure. I’ve been raped and molested as a child and in adulthood and I’m an empath. Please heal and grow so that you can break generational curses and don’t continue harming other people. I’m still healing from childhood trauma in addition to narcissistic abuse trauma. What makes it even worse is I told the narc my trauma and he’s the one who encouraged me to heal and supported me thru a lot of it, only to ghost me in the end. It’s a poor inexcusable trait for a human being. Period & respectfully. God bless 🙏🏽

[brandycarpenter]

I have lived with a narcissist for 30 yrs, last year was my awakening to this. What I really believe is that I gave up denying who he was. Thank you for the video. I have been watching your tik toks and videos for a long while to try to understand my husband. I appreciate all your work and effort to understand yourself and share it with the world. You are making a difference. ❤️🙂

[brezzyFbaby]

I’m sorry people don’t interact with this type of content. Thank you for existing Lee🙏🏾

[irkenxingenuity]

I'm so glad to see you're opening up about this. You have so much courage and drive--recovery isn't easy. I have one of the romanticized and more acceptable illnesses, depression, and even just that is a lot to deal with and get through. Recovery is such a difficult process every day. I'm very proud of you. And I'm so glad you're making narcissism more visible so people can more readily spot the behaviors, and so that others with the disorder might be inspired to get help and know that both help and acceptance are out there for them.

[melaniea]

I’m a recovering addict, just celebrated 29 years. I can relate to the childhood trauma. Nobody just wakes up one day and has a personality disorder or becomes an addict. It protects us, let’s us check out & bury memories that hurt us. It takes a lot of inner work to find inner peace. My ex narc made me realize I always chose men who needed “fixed”! Never again! I spot red flags instantly now! Been single 3 years & I’m just fine…better actually! Lol! You’re inspiring & courageous, Lee! Thank you!

[godessunivers]

Seems like, you got yourself a very good therapist, which is very important, and the fact, that you go to the sessions, that is already is improvement 👏Not many admiting to this personal disorder. I believe, you will become better, think you improving already. I believe it's a choice, either you grow/ involve, or stay toxic! This was good video. Had this question for a while.

[valeriemaltais]

I asked myself about my abuse in about 2008, and the 2nd-grader me told me all about it. It is an experience out of this world.

[Nanukie]

Thank you for sharing. Even non narcissists can't remember their early abuse. So... I can relate to what you shared. I have also been abused by narcissists in my family. Thanks again. Please do more videos like this. It helps you & others.

[leeboo]

It's ashame people are less interested in this topic, but I'm glad you made the video anyway. Early prevention is key. If we can here from people like you with this disorder what environment factors may have contributed to their Personality Disorder, it can help prevent it. Keep making the videos like this, and about your therapeutic journey. It's great.

[therealkoolaidandkale]

As a PsyD student studying NPD, you likely developed an insecure attachment style in response to abuse, neglect or some significant trauma.

You are right in that NPD is typically developed as a response- you could refer to it as a coping mechanism.

The problem is that the behaviors of people with NPD are generally unproductive and typically sabotage everything that they touch, yet most of the afflicted individuals lack the emotional intelligence and discipline to recognize this and put in the work to have better life results.

It truly is an interesting, amazing phenomenon. It's almost like individuals with NPD all read a manual somewhere. Many of the people, as you state in this video, don't even immediately know why.

I often think of these individuals as being internally trapped at whatever age their childhood was fragmented, hence the often childish behaviors (tantrums [aka narcissistic rage], silent treatment and other immature behaviors usually observed in children). We see the grownup exterior and expect them to act as such, but internally and mentally.... many of them are still those hurt children that never recovered.

[felixmae]

Reminds me of conversations I've been having with my therapist about Internal Family Systems (IFS). Helps me make sense of how there can be multiple concurrent versions of myself present, and how they interact with each other. I have started looking out for my inner child and it has really changed my relationship with myself. It's wild stuff.

[Sunshine-pvzv]

If your parents are still alive would you ask them about the 1st 7 years of your life since you’ve blocked it out. You mentioned having a twin brother, have you spoken to him? He might have more insight… & perhaps might help you remember… when you ready. Or perhaps your therapist might suggest it. Just remember, you’re brave… you got this!💪🏾