Do narcissists understand what they are doing to you? Narcissist do know that they are gaslighting

Do narcissists understand what they are doing to you? Narcissist do know that they are gaslighting you, manipulating you and lying to you. Before I became aware of narcissistic personality disorder i knew exactly what i was doing, I just didn't understand why I was doing it at the time.

I lied, and manipulated people constantly in order to protect myself, my ego and my reputation. Self awareness does not mean better or cured, it just means aware. Some narcissistic people become aware and still don't make any kind of changes to better themselves.

Welcome my channel! If this is your first time seeing my face or hearing my voice, my name is Lee and I am a self aware narcissist. I have narcissistic personality disorder ( NPD ) and I've been in therapy for my personality disorder since 2017 and it has definitely changed my life because without it, I would have lost everything.

The point of these videos is to help bring awareness from the other side of the narcissistic *buse spectrum. All my videos give perspective on why many narcissists do what they do and the possible different reasons behind them. The victims and survivors get validation and the Narcissists (those that are willing) get to see that you can get help and that you are not alone.

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Click the BEACON up top for direct links. Thank you so much and lets HEAL together

[Breakingfreefromnarcissism]

The "I'm sorry you feel that way". Translation: An attempt to avoid admitting blame.

[lynnemelcombe]

"They're not aware of their narcissism, but they are aware of their behaviours." My ex actually bragged about how good he was at being passive aggressive. He bragged about collecting information about people and tucking it away until/in case he'd one day it would serve his purpose. He'd be so happy and pleased with himself when he pulled off a successful manipulation. He knew exactly what he was doing.

[Nancy-ywrr]

My ex always denied he was doing anything to me- he constantly told me I was "nuts". Anytime I tried to call him on his B.S., he'd start calling me names, yelling, and making threats. I think he actively worked to deepen his denial instead of ever even trying to do better- as he claimed he would. I got so sick of listening to his phony promises. It's impossible to respect anyone who acts this way.

[SassyDiva]

Health issues, psychological damage, I leave, come back. Leave, come back. I finally have to walk away. Otherwise, the toxicity will kill me. Too many times I left feeling drained, confused, angry, depressed sickly. You name it, and it's what you feel after leaving an argument with a narcissist..it's too much. Better is out there. I will be ok...

[Mea_DS]

I tried so hard to stay in the fight until I had no more fight and filed for a divorce. It was affecting me mentally, emotionally, physically, and spiritually. Nothing was ever good enough and being told I'm 85- 95% wrong all the time for even having my own opinion and mindset amongst other things was too much to bear. I had to make a change for me my son. I have never experienced this before and never knew what narcissism was. The gaslighting, invalidating, and questioning my own reality is truly real. I wish experience didn't have to be the greatest teacher in life at times. This divorce has cost me 1 year of struggling to settle and 75k and counting but greater is COMING and my peace and joy is returning!🙏🏽🙌🏽

[dejna]

Selflessness is more attractive than selfishness though. I know narcs can be quite giving, but it’s all for a purpose.

[realericalynn]

I want to confirm this is a narcissistic behavior: he invited me to meet up with him at the bar with his friends. I showed up and he didn't even acknowledge I was there. I called out his behavior and his response was "this is who I am. Take it or leave it." Keep in mind, this man has Stage 4 cancer and I've spent the part 6 months researching cancer treatments outside of chemo and have bent over backwards to take care of him, while also holding my full time job.

[katceeee]

My H absolutely clings to the "me first" mentality. His happiness is above all else, no matter how much emotional pain and mental anguish his selfishness causes me.

[daniellekennedy]

You have beautiful children and I think that it's great that you choose your family to better control your impulses God bless you ❤

[triciamckague]

I appreciate you Lee. You have cleared up so many things for me. I don't wanna feed into the narcissistic supply, but you are amazing for what you are doing. Thank you so much!!! And, your children are beautiful.

[kristinak]

I told a narcissist once that he was hurting me and he said I’m sorry. I’m just surviving. I was very confused but it makes sense now after learning more about this disorder 🤷🏻‍♀️

[rxy]

OMGGG Through therapy i started to catch on to his double standards!! I was able to respectfully call him out on it. And i remember the conversation so vividly. He would validate why he could do it but not me!! He said “i can be jealous and dm the guys who follow you and try and talk to you and tell them to stop and back off because i am actually a jealous person. You aren’t actually jealous you told me so before you werent born jealous and so when i get jealous it’s different than when you get jealous”. This was the most confusing thing bc he would also do things to provoke my jealousy and when I would get jealous hed like it bc it made him feel cared for. But when i wouldn’t get jealous hed gaslight me and tell me i have issues with jealousy

[aprilvaughn]

Lee you open my eyes even more to let me know I'm not crazy I'm not bugging. Thanks yo

[lilmoma]

They absolutely know something isn’t right and what their behavior is.

[leorashirley]

You may be aware of your actions, obviously, and you may be aware to a degree, in a most practical sense, of the consiquences as evidenced by the results, but you are NOT truly aware of the affect, the impact on others IF you are unable and/or unwilling to Empathize with them.

[onedayatatime]

Beautiful children. Thank you for helping all of us

[PetraINTERIORDESIGNER]

Thank you Lee for your courage to share your story. My husband and I experienced the behavior you describe in the videos, our family fell apart, I'm so sorry, I couldn't go on. I oscillate between compassion and my defense, he still can't see what he's doing, I wish he could do it like you. He desperately seeks a sense of happiness, succumbs to addictions. If he could look at himself, I would stand by him and help him. This is how I have to stay distant, his presence is dangerous for me.

[Mea_DS]

1st You're kids are so beautiful! 2ndly thank you for this . I truly needed to hear all of this today.

[lovelylife]

I respect you're trying to fight against it I will give you props on that. I kind of knew my husband had traits bc his mom is highly Narrasict ..the give away with her was every conversation was strictly about her and one time she went 3 or 4 hours talking about the same thing and at first I thought my mind was playing tricks on me .. then later in the relationship I noticed with him he started with the silent treatment then went to the discard then went recently since last year withholding sex mixed with completely ignoring me .... I prayed bout it and going on with my business life too short that's my Mantra I live by . Sad part is I called out all this behavior before I even knew what a narcissist was I was mind blown when everything matched ... I wish we could change people like this but it's no good, it has to be a personal choice. Unfortunately

[flaviafreiresph]

Narcisistas são péssimas pessoas para se ter por perto. O afastamento e contato zero são as únicas soluções.