What Life with Borderline Personality Disorder Feels Like

Life with borderline personality disorder is so emotionally intense it makes you want to "crawl out of yourself." Learn what goes on inside the heart and mind of someone living with BPD. Watch.

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[thegallivanter]

The phrase "I want to rip off my skin" really, REALLY hits home.

[josetrevino]

I call It "the void". After an episode of anxiety or an intense emotional blast I feel nothing just emptiness. As if I were an empty container.

[adolfohernandez]

For me, living with quiet BPD feels like you are stuck in purgatory, and there is this veil that keeps everyone from understanding you and pushes everyone away.

[mariewilliams]

It's important that people with borderline personality disorder don't draw attention to themselves in Public by losing your cool. Because I was humiliated and laughed at by strangers. Its best to be polite and classy and avoid drama in public. People want to control you and embarrassed you and act morally superior. Have a keep calm and carry on attitude. Take deep breaths and calm down. Don't give a way your self to strangers. What I mean is Dont give people a reason to humiliate other people by drawing attention to ourselves.

[suzsiz]

...«Crawl out of my skin....» Very accurate description of how intense it can be sometimes.

[KMS_]

I always say I feel like I’m drowning in a dark pool with cement blocks on my feet and everyone is watching but can’t understand why I’m sinking. I either feel nothing or anger and sadness. I’m not sure I’ve ever felt truth happiness.

[chrissilver]

People call me selfish when I am triggered and want to self-protect. I know I can be selfish, but calling someone with BPD selfish, seems like a disparaging, invalidating, oversimplification of what is going on in me. Does anyone else feel this?

[maureenseel]

It's like you're trapped on an emotional rollercoaster. And people who love you also get stuck on the ride. I've worked a lot on myself and try to see when I'm playing the victim or my reactions are disproportionate. But it's taken a LONG time to get to where i am.

[nikkiwatson]

I refer to my black hole as the darkness. The dark voice. My dark place. And yes, makes me wanna crawl out of my skin as well. Thank you for sharing your story.

[anotherranger]

Its SHIT.
I fucking hate it, i can't control my emotions and i unconsciously create moments of complete despair to fill the "void", and it feels like im fucking drowning, and i emotionally attach myself to anyone that shows me any form of kindness.

[hbhtcr]

It’s really bad when your mom and sister who you trust the most say “just look at these inspirational quotes or take these vitamins and you’ll be better” I just had a horrible fight with my sister because i went off on her for saying those things and now I’m stuck with it.

[thefarecom]

Woww... the black hole was accurate as well as the shame and feeling bad about impulsevly getting rid of the way people and thing had made me feel

[floridaLise]

An excellent definition without being scary. You did a wonderful Job!

[katiebrooke]

I recently just found out I have it on top of major depression and anxiety. It's nice knowing there is explanation for my sudden mood changes and so much stuff I can't write out

[PegOwens]

I call it the rabbit hole because I feel like Alice in a Tim Burton wonderland.

[kathryndemille]

Omgoodness. The part where you need to get rid of the emotion but can't. And that's like yawning only part way, but worse. Much worse. I'm so glad to be in intensive therapy.

[Teeminator]

I’ve watched a lot of videos about bpd and this is the only one that I can completely relate to 100%

[alexb]

I call it "My demon is taking control. Help."

[andrewlampe]

Thank you. You utterly tell the truth. This was my February exactly (without the impulsive behaviour) but everything else

[mrbard]

I see people are naming their void or dark pits, but I come from a place where I had no idea this was actually happening to me or it was a clinical condition. People were actually aware of this and here I am just seeing it happen as if were normal. I sucks.