How I healed after the death of my best friend

If we view grief, death, and loss as a mountain, our healing can only truly begin when we realize that grief is a mountain that, no matter how hard you try, can never be summited.

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[MorganSolo]

Happy Halloween, everyone! I hope this video reaches the person that needs to hear it. If you are trying to navigate the mountain known as grief, please know my heart is with you and I hope this video can help to assist you on the road to finding peace and healing. <3

[prisonmike]

Just found out that my friend of 13 years passed away in a car accident a few hours ago. I’m in denial, shock, disbelief. I haven’t shed a tear yet but I know it’s coming. RIP Dave

[flynnhikes]

You've made a difficult choice to move from surface-level vlogging to this deeper content, and it's worth it to the people you touch.

[hayleybayley]

Approaching the 2 year anniversary of the death of a close friend who died in a freak accident. Your mountain metaphor is so helpful for accepting that I'll never be "okay" with the fact that he died. It's true that I'm one of the luckiest people on earth to have gotten to know him for the brief time that he was here. Thank you so much for making this.

[BartBourg]

Everyday you're breathing and moving forward. Is another summit reached.

Got me cryin' over here bro.

[jessicalochner]

Thank you for your words. I just lost a best friend...and the pain is extreme. Your words brought me comfort. Thank you

[stephaniemartin-boyce]

Thank you for this video. I just lost my best friend. My kindred spirit. I really needed to hear this message today. RIP Joey 😢

[somasen]

May all the souls of the dead people rest in peace 🙏🙏

[cynthialewis]

You have reached me, and i definitely needed to hear this. I lost my husband of 33 years in August of 2022. I am in pain every single day, but remembering him and how simply amazing he was, and that he chose ME is helping me to heal and be able to continue my life. For the first couple of years, I blocked it, pretending that I was fine, and that was torture. Remembering him and us is glorious. I was very lucky to have him for many years, , , not enough, never enough, but this will do

[CPEquestrian]

I lost my friend almost 9 years ago.. I still think about her all the time.. I still get sad.

[goodsoupfreesoup]

I lost my best friend 4 days ago.. I miss her so much

[PauloVasconcelos__]

Thank you... I lost my father, I needed to hear you. Although I'm still mad, your message was very important

[AnfecsIan]

I lost my oldest and closest friend this last Tuesday in a motorcycle accident. I've never experienced pain like this, I haven't stopped crying. He was like a brother from another mother. I don't even know where to start with my emotions.

[Sad-leviathan]

A week ago I lost my best friend. My soul mate. I still don't know how to make sense of it, and I cry everyday knowing that she's not physically here anymore. Her suitcase and her things are in my house. She came for winter break. Things were finally going really well for her too. She was one semester away from graduating university. She had a fatal asthma attack on my livingroom floor and all I could do was compressions until the paramedics came. It felt so unfair. It happened so suddenly. The night before we were listening to music and making water color paintings. The next morning, her heart stopped. Her breathing stopped. She is still on life support in the hospital but she is braindead. So many people flew out to come see her. Her brothers and her childhood best friend. Ex lovers and rave friends. So many people. She had touched the hearts and lives of so many people, and she was so special. I still feel like any moment now she'll give me a call or a text asking where I am, or I'll come home and she'll be sitting at my desk smoking a joint and getting ready to go out.

I heard a quote somewhere saying that grief is all of the love that has nowhere to go. That's certainly what it feels like. She was my soul mate. I will never have a friend like her. Her family and friends encouraged me to adopt her bearded dragon, and deep in my heart I know thats what she would have wanted. So I did. And everytime I look in his eyes, feed him a carrot or a dubia roach, give him a warm bath, sleep with him on me, I think of her smiling down, knowing her boy is taken care of and loved.

I still don't know what to do with all of this grief, and time has slowed down consideably. I regret not spending more time together, not spoiling her more, not blowing off work to go to a party with her. I regret thinking there will always be next time. I regret not holding her more, not kissing her forehead more, not hugging her more. I wish I could go back in time and really sit with her.

And it's so shitty that this is life, That this is how life is. That I just have to go on, now.I don't know how to go on without her. I am so tired of looking at her body on the hospital bed, begging her to wake up with no response. I am so tired of waking up in the middle of the night and mourning her at ungodly hours.

I miss you, Gia. I love you, Gia. You will ALWAYS be in my heart. Nobody could ever replace you. I hope you at least have some peace, wherever you are,

[echotheLiz]

I've lost one of my best online friends last week, and sadly couldn't attend his funeral. I've never felt so emotionally wrecked before, since the last time I've lost someone, I wasn't able to fully comprehend the concept of death. He was a great guy, and I miss him. Hearing this today is helping me cope, even if just a little bit. Thank you, I really needed to hear this.

[charliejohnson]

Hello Morgan, I subscribed to your channel today. In January 3, 2014, my mom passed away by suffering to heart failure/heart attack. My mom just adopted me, and my 3 brothers. I missed my mom so much.🙏

[stephaniethelander]

I lost both my Dad and brother within 6 months of each other. Not a day goes by that I don't miss them and wish I could talk with them. Grief is never ending and it changes us.
Plan for tomorrow but live for today. Always say I love you even when your mad.
Love you Morgan! Love this new style of video too.
It's been a pleasure to watch you grow and I can't wait for more❤

[Tonysaprano]

Eddie from Toronto 🇨🇦: I Lost my Only Friend 10mths ago im 40, Never been married no kids and my friend was Life I Completely Loat my Identity I had no idea who i was i spent every day with "Carlos" i Put him under my wing and sobered him up and i took care of him and i need to tell every this There is No Time Limit! On Greving! Do not feel Ashamed to Mourn The pain Never goes Away u just have good days and bad ones but u always hurt.

[jmbtrain]

Great subject. Over the years with CF at my age of 57. I have lost almost all of my good friends with CF. I feel for you Fibro, normal people just don't understand the kind of depression we feel. I have been to more funerals then I have ever been to weddings, and I used to photograph weddings for a living.
One day at a time we step through our life and pain, just keep moving forward.

[flowerpower.]

My best friend passed away a week ago. She was 27, had CF and was waiting for her new lungs. She got into the hospital with pneumonia. I wanted to visit her but I had to say goodbye to her on the phone instead. I've gone through hell but the grief is teaching as you said. She was really strong, never complained and lived her life as fully as she could. I wish her carefree breathing and clear air where she is. I've suffered with depression, anxiety and other things before this happened and her loss made me realize how short this life is and that I have to live and do the things I love. I read somewhere that grief doesn't get smaller, life is what will grow around it.