BPD & feeling empty: how to combat emptiness

In today's video I wanted to discuss emptiness as a whole... when we feel numb/ empty/ dissociated but mainly the link between bpd and emptiness. Let me know in the comments if you related to anything that I said, really hope this helps!xxxxx
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[LawrenceChung]

oh god. It's such a pain. It's especially the night-time loneliness that consumes me so much

[Evanescenceever]

i was diagnosed with BPD and to me emptiness is being always bored, or nothing to fulfill me, like never feeling whole. i don't know who i am, i have no purpose in my life and everything i start, i quit, like schools, college etc. i feel like i don't have an identity, so always having an issue, like an eating disorder, or doing drugs, or self harming, gives me an identity. i'm the girl with anorexia, the girl who is on drugs, the girl who cuts. currently i've quit drugs and cutting, but i'm finding hard to let go of my anorexia, because without it, who am i? i have to find something else to substitute this with, but i can't deal with the void that will be left. so i always do stuff that give me something to focus on so that i don't feel that empty.

[taylorwatson]

This video was perfect for today. I feel like personally with BPD when I feel empty I want to do absolutely nothing, but then feel overly guilty for not getting things done. So all day I over exhausted myself, and after dinner came across this on my allotted free time. I now know tomorrow I need to pamper myself with activities that will serve me, and not drain me yet still make me feel productive. BIG thank you, Maddie!💞🦋

[alisoncooper]

Allowing yourself to actually feel the emotions is such a big step but sooo important! <3

[Shayranae]

It’s good to know I’m not the only one struggling with this.
When I feel empty I usually lay in bed and do nothing. I feel so numb and I like to think of it as a powered down robot. My body is physically there but my mind is shut down. It usually last a few hours sometimes all day.
Writing in my journal helps. Also this explains why I want to drink all the time. It makes me feel something. And I never put a correlation between the two. But that makes sense to me now.

[LIZZYBANKSS]

I swear having BPD is the absolute worst! feeling empty is the worst feeling to get rid off!

[samanthahacker]

This has almost made me cry because i feel awful right now, have recently been diagnosed with bpd and don’t understand it at all. This has helped me to start to understand that emptiness is what I’m feeling.
Thank you for the tips on what to do when you feel like this xxx

[zaynabzkh]

As a BPD patient, this was very helpful. Thank you.

[annly]

10000% whenever i find myself broken up/ no relationship and in an environment where i'm not accepted, i go into a self-destructive downward spiral. and I worry even more about being rejected

[senti_mental]

Thank you for sharing this, I think I speak for many when I say this made me feel less alone. I love to hear that you're practicing self-compassion, you seem like such a genuine and kind soul and you deserve the world.

[suzannemackenzie]

i can't even begin to explain how much this has resonated with me. having bee recently diagnosed with bpd

[jonnynoakes]

It really does help hearing someone describe the emptiness, I always assume it's a horrible phenomenon that's unique to me. Thanks x

[xfreyawatson]

‘Having few/no meaningful relationships’ called me out 🥴

[larshansen]

Super professional, Maddie... only difference is there is more warmth and kindness here than you see with most mental health professionals

[yaroslav.ryndyk]

Thank you for sharing 🖤. I find this very helpful, especially in knowing that there are people like you, honest and brave, who share the same issues and painful experiences, particularly those feelings of emptiness and dissociation. Watching your video makes me feel much more grounded and not alone.

From my own experiences:

I've discovered that journaling has been a life-changer. BPD often involves a constant barrage of 'bad family critiques' in your head, and it can feel nearly impossible to win the battle against all of these inner 'voices.' So, when I feel like I have no motivation or energy to do it, or even a right to do so, or when I'm wrestling with overwhelming emotions and thoughts, – jotting down just a single small sentence about how I'm feeling can be enough to improve my day, sometimes even for a few days.

Additionally, I've incorporated a small DBT-inspired template into my daily journal. It consists of a few questions, intentions, and gratitudes for the day.

As you've mentioned in the video, journaling also helps with pattern recognition, which is incredibly important for individuals with BPD due to the presence of maladaptive patterns and behaviors.

And, it's all about the path. Sometimes, I will slip into maladaptive patterns, but what's more important is that I will return to the healthy ones. 🖤 Cheers.

[nkanyisongwenya]

I have bpd and constantly feel empty and numb, I didn't even watch your video but it was on my YouTube recommendation..I can't wait to relate😭❤

[therainbowhippy]

Thank you so much I've just been diagnosed with bpd and theres no one out here making videos about it have found you and it's so good to feel like you're not alone

[tracychalmers]

thank you yet again for this upload maddie ❤️ you have helped me understand my bpd better than any mental health team out there. thanks again xxx

[staceyg]

So helpful to hear of other people that feel similar. I describe that empty feeling like a jar with a hole in and no matter how much you put in n put it it just doesn't get full. It's like I'm never complete. Me and my life is a jigsaw puzzle with a piece missing and I try so many things that are a temporary fix and fill that void for a short time. When I find something I enjoy or that just takes my mind off things then I get obsessed with it and it just consumes me. I can't have a few interests in life. It's one thing until the next thing comes along that sweeps me away n I forget about the last thing and all the time and money I've put into it. Rarely 'finishing' anything. Applies to eating aswel. I have ate nothing but cereal for months, only the odd meal here n there, before cereal it was fruit! Before fruit It was biscuits with a cup of tea, I was going through a pack a day! My interests at the moment is drawing pixel pictures, I found a website with patterns and will sit n scroll for hours at a time. I've done about 4 pics! I tend to spend so much time planning/researching than doing. So wierd. Sorry that was a long random message!

[heyitstiff]

I always love these videos of yours, was feeling super empty this morning but decided to pull myself out of bed, have a shower and watch mean girls! It’s not much, but definitely made me feel like the day had purpose ❤️