How do narcissists feel inside?

how do narcissists feel inside? do they hate themselves or really love themselves deep down?

Welcome my channel! If this is your first time seeing my face or hearing my voice, my name is Lee and I am a self aware narcissist. I have narcissistic personality disorder ( NPD ) and I've been in therapy for my personality disorder since 2017 and it has definitely changed my life because without it, I would have lost everything.

The point of these videos is to help bring awareness from the other side of the narcissistic *buse spectrum. All my videos give perspective on why many narcissists do what they do and the possible different reasons behind them. The victims and survivors get validation and the Narcissists (those that are willing) get to see that you can get help and that you are not alone.

Thank you so much

[Libbyloukrtc]

Because, of you, Ben Taylor and Dr. Les Carter I haven't went back and have no intention of going back. I've remained in "No Contact. " I'm Forever Grateful to you!!

[pamyuhnke]

My life has included some horrible experiences bc of my narcissistic parents and close friends. I was hesitant to watch your video as you have been diagnosed with this. I’m very glad I watched your video. Thank you for your perspective. I’m definitely subscribing.

[shelleyd]

Lee I hope you have at least got to the place where you can celebrate the little achievements every day. And smell the roses. 🌹Because 6 years is an incredible milestone to celebrate

[lovemaster]

Thank you for all you do. I listen to your podcast everyday and watch YouTube videos and its help me understand I'm not alone. Thank you Lee

[lanitabaxter]

I will say the person I knew absolutely loved themself. He often joked that if he was ever accused of committing suicide I would know it was fowl play. I think his high was getting what he could get away with doing. But thanks to you Lee my eyes were opened and I’m no contact a year and so over it. Your videos helped me understand everything I questioned and I was able to learn from it and move on.

[Succulentnsuch]

You have helped me have patience with someone who deserves to be loved dispite not being the kindest ! They can be made aware of the difference in perception and reaction to constructive information !

[RubyWilson]

I just wanna hug you, what you've done with yourself and for other people is so amazing, I'm sure God is so proud of you

[owenmestackz]

Thanks for sharing your experience, and you’re not alone on this planet!

[mouradeedouard]

Yes its not hate but dissatisfaction and thus self-sabotaging behavior.. Great video, thanks for taking a huge leap and acknowledge narcissism.

[wms]

When my narcissist ex got frustrated, he would pull his hair out of his head. He would keep his stuff from the garage scattered throughout the house, making it continuously cluttered.

[LaniSnowTheLeenieBeenie]

I honestly think it’s pretty normal to want to do something after the next big thing ends. Not everyone does that everyone is different but it’s not uncommon. I’m like that! After a big thing in my life ends on to the next thing! With or without NPD that’s normal. And I don’t have NPD but I love learning all about it. And it’s true you can’t save them all. You can only do the best you can. It’s understandable when someone doesn’t listen to you and you know you can help them if they took your advice. But unfortunately people have to learn for themselves and go through whatever it is and then seek help. As they say you need to learn bad to learn good. We are all learning something new each day. Tbh I think society is extremely overrated. NPD or not you’re helping so many people and that’s phenomenal. Keep it up you’re doing amazing!

[graceb]

I once had a glimpse in to the inner vulnerability of a narcissist (she was a life long 'friend') and she very emotionally communicated her deep dissatisfaction and unfulfillment with her life. It was bizarre, as she didnt get emotional often (well angry yes) and i thought it explained her avusive behaviour towatds me...But she was one of thee most abusive people I have ever encountered, and I now have zero shits to give about her. I went no-contact 3 years ago when I realised how abusive she was. She adopted a little girl just a few years before I realised what she was and what she does, and that absolutely breaks my heart 😥

[StewARTist]

Is it common for narcissistic people to engage in self-harm? I appreciate you and all the insight you offer us! My mother is narcissistic, and I’ve continued with that trajectory in adult relationships. It’s my responsibility to heal my attachment trauma so I can break that cycle.

[ParoArtPixie]

As a narcissist, I do hate myself. I constantly do things that I do as a defense mechanism that are harmful

[andreaberryman]

Mmmmm....it's self-loathing. Deep inside, the shame is SO huge, your soul has been darkened. The life force is gone, so we have to constantly FEED-hence the term "supply", folks. We were beaten down from a very young age by a PARENT. My mother would beat me into submission with her mouth. I won't get into it, but she did some horrific things. Yes-rage at being beaten down so a PARENT can feel GOOD about themselves by having absolute power, control and compete with their child to prove their superiority. It was pounded into our brains for decades. We have to DISCOVER which event or series of events made us snap-we all had one. The soul-crusher. The spirit snuffer. Then, we MUST forgive ourselves, and understand that some BODY let a child know, as my mom yelled, "I'm DISAPPOINTED in you, GIRL!" If I fought back, yelled she was WRONG...then she put her hands on her hips, put her head in the air and literally looked down her nose at me like I was garbage and would say, "You OWE me an APOLOGY, young LADY." Because I defended myself. My father was no help either.

[ao]

Lee great insight into the mind of a narcissist. I have a question. You say you will never feel fulfilled or enough. Why do you feel that way? Why do narcs feel like this? What will it take??

[ibrudejude]

I have been been watching you thank you dude you're a good egg.

[amycurry]

I don’t know. This sounds like a normal reaction. Nobody wants a bad review. We all want purpose.

[danadd]

A third of the way through the video, so you may answer my question later in the clip. But where do you think that dissatisfaction stems from? My husband comes from both a broken home and one where he was given material things growing up, but no substance from his parents. Absolutely no life lessons and he's really done a lot on his own but I'm still surprised at some of the things he doesn't know. It makes the gaps in parenting obvious and I know he absolutely hates that but will never admit it due to shame and embarrassment. But I definitely see his parents rearing, or lack thereof created such a deep wound and void that really planted the seed for his innate feeling of unfulfillment, dissatisfaction and fleeting happiness.

We all have a bit of imposter syndrome from time to time, but the fixation on perceived inadequacy is so strong in my husband it goes past the regular checks and balances. And the most terrible thing about it is he lives in it and others from the outside may probably never know because of his Teflon facade. But I truly feel it came from the neglect in his home of tending to his developmental needs and nurturing him outside of material things.

~DDH~

[barbaranewton]

There was an episode you did, where you described the emptiness you felt inside growing up... do you know which one that is?