a life update ❤️‍🩹 my breakup, a new beginning, + am i recovered?

thank you so much for watching, I can't wait to get back to YouTube properly!!

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📚 f a q
⤷ how old are you?
22 years old :)
⤷ where are you from?
south west england 📍
⤷ what do you film with?
canon g7x mark ii, canon M50 mark ii, and iPhone 15 pro max
⤷ what is Ro short for? / how do you say it?
my name is Roisin (Róisín) and it's pronounced Ro-Sheen, but i shorten it to Ro

music: epidemic sound

[rocketgirlie]

Aww, Ro. I'm so encouraged by your inner strength. You're an inspiration for anyone trying to grow and recover.

[ladybird]

I swear to God you are the baddest bitch out here. To have gone through dark times, continue to struggle (because life, not for lack of effort) and still be brave enough to be honest and vulnerable about it all in the interest of helping others who are also struggling is a testament to your strength and compassion. I’m am going through it right now and the way you speak about and frame your own experience is really encouraging to me. Thank you so much.

[chlobobass]

Can we repeat for those at the back that didn’t hear RECOVERY IS VERY RARELY LINEAR!
Wish my mental health team would recognise this. Actual quote from care coordinator and senior mental health nurse: “Why have you chosen to go backwards again when you were doing so well?” The same reason I don’t choose to have a cold, I can’t control my brain chemistry, Doris. (Not the actual person’s name obvs.)
I have been relapsing in my mental health recently. No trigger, just something that happens every now and then. Despite the relapse, I’ve been a lot better at dealing with it this time round than three years ago. Taking a social media break has definitely helped. So glad you are looking after yourself, putting your needs first, and you’re reunited with beautiful Bea! 💜💚

[kristenscaife]

Thank you for sharing your eating disorder recovery. My daughter has watched you for the past year and it has helped her overcome. It has blessed me so much since with my wife passing away that you made this easier for me. Forever grateful! Steve

[LilaDanielle-nc]

Dear Ro, I wanted to tell you that you are so not alone regarding education delays. I found your channel during my senior year of high school. Due to anorexia + depression I took a gap year and after that, a year of taking online courses to ease myself back into school, switching schools and majors, etc. Currently studying to become a nurse. The road to get here has been super messy, the antithesis of a clean, perfect slate. I lost long stretches of time being nonfunctional, spiraling with the most self-degrading thoughts, beating myself up over how things 'went wrong, ' everything I should be and wasn't. It was a special kind of h*ll to compare myself to others online, along with my own failed expectations. It's ok. My dad even went back to graduate school in his late 50's. You are doing great and you can come back to education in your own time and in your own way. I think we are far stronger because our 'perfect paths' were ruined; we cultivated the strength to survive some incredibly dark and isolating places. That knowledge can't be taught in a course. Sending all my love to you & your father.

[psychic_rose]

Despite the difficulties, it’s important to remember that breakups can also be opportunities for growth and self discovery.

[Temperance]

i’m doing an Open University course after missing multiple years of education due to mental health and it’s been the best thing i’ve ever done as someone who loves learning, i’d highly highly recommend it if it’s something that calls to you still! 💕

[Leighreadsalot]

Aw you have been dearly missed Ro❤ I’m sending you love (:

[catherinehawkins]

Just because you chose, so courageously, to share your recovery journey with us doesn’t mean you are obliged to share one iota of any aspect of your life if that isn’t what you want to do. You and yours (including exes😅) are entitled to privacy wherever you want or need it.

Break ups are hard enough without the eyes of all the world upon you.

I wish you and yours well, take care, take time, you know really well how recovery works.. a lot of that is transferable to recovering from a break up. You’re fabulous, hang in there, I, a total stranger really, quite genuinely believe in you.

[maisymcadam]

If the big thing is a book, please do an audio book cos I’m blind but would love to read it. You should be mega proud of yourself managing all this and staying on track xx

[solitarymisfit]

Sending lots of love. I just ended things with my fiancé of 7 years, I was devastated and I’ve been struggling, but I had to put myself first and I am proud of you for your strength.

[kamillakuronya]

Dear Ro, I've been rewatching your old ED- related videos as they help me in pushing me and eating properly. Though I follow you on Instagram, I've really missed your videos here on Youtube, they seem more personal to me bc of their length, and I sort of feel as if we were friends. You're really an inspiration for me, I believe you have the inner strength to get through these difficulties and take as much time as you need, I'll be here waiting for your contents. Sending a big virtual hug❤

[EarlyJuly]

Hey Ro, I just got you on my for you page after more than a year of not seeing you. When I was 12 and had an eating disorder, you helped me through it so much and now I am fully recovered. This was always a safe space for me. Thank you Ro!! Apologies for everything that happened, you are so strong and you're strength is giving everyone strength too.

[ryanboselowitz]

I'm 32 and I now have a masters degree (in the US it's 4 years of college and then 2 years for a master's degree) and am a social worker. It took me about 3 years longer to graduate undergrad than most people because I had to work and go part time for most of it. I felt so much shame at the time but the second I graduated, I realized it didn't matter. This is your life, on your timeline ❤️ it's SO hard in the moment but you are doing amazingly regardless of where you're at in life.

[kat]

I am sorry for your breakup. I've gone through some pretty horrible breakups at a young age and I know it's so hard, especially if you were in relationships mostly as a teen/early young adult like I was. BUT being single as a young adult for a while I feel is so important for our individual growth. I chose to stay single for quite some time in my mid/late twenties and it was the best decision ever. I truly learned who I was as the adult version of myself. Now in my 30s I know what I want and what I deserve out of a relationship and it's the best ever.

[selinablondeli]

hey Ro, I’m 26 and recently also had to move back to my parents house into my small room next to my brother, I’m so very thankful for having them but I also feel exactly what you said, you’re not alone and you’re definitely not a failure, kisses from Switzerland, Selina💘

[mia.luca.k]

Ro, how can you bring so much hope into a video where you share so much suffering. this is beautiful

[chelseydixon]

The education part was so nice to hear. I'm 32 next month and lost 12 odd years due to anorexia and depression. We don't give up, we focus on what's more important at the time. If we have to spend years focusing on our health and mental health, inevitably, it's only going to help our future selves seek those goals. We can't pour from empty cups! We will potentially be working until 70 so my mindset is always 'get to your best self and work from there' there's still 38 years of my working life so 4/5 years of training to do a job ill love, is nothing. Couldn't be in a position to learn if we didn't take time out to focus on our recovery first!

[kirstiepea]

Sending virtual love, hugs and solidarity your way. I really hope what's left of 2024 is more gentle with you.

[wyatt_wickright]

Hi Ro! I’ve always been too nervous to comment but I’ve been watching your videos for years. I’m now at a place in my recovery where I don’t return to disordered behaviors when life gets hard, and you’ve helped me see that this is something to be proud of! I am so inspired by your inner strength. Sending love in this difficult time ❤️