Self Love Journey: How I Healed My Self Worth 💖

This is my self love glow up story - how I learned to love myself and heal my sense of self worth. Learning to truly love and embrace yourself is a process. There were levels to cultivating my self love & confidence, and each year I continue to unravel more old stories and wounds that I need to heal. There’s so much more I want to share about healing your self worth - so look out for the next video, an in-depth Healing Workshop.

I hope my story encourages you to heal what you need to heal, to find the love and beauty you have within. You are so worthy, beautiful, and lovable. I truly wish for you to be able to see it fully and completely. You are a gem. And I’m so grateful you exist. 💖

As you can see, I’m so passionate about healing our self love & self worth because the quality of your entire life stem from these things - how you feel about yourself, how others perceive you, how likely you are to succeed.

It’s time to let go of all that holds us back (most of the time it’s ourselves & our own minds) and truly live as freely and authentically as can be.

// more self love videos

- this is an online version of breathwork meditation that you can do at home! I've done it since coming back from Bali & love it so much.

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// ABOUT

I’m Aileen, a lifestyle blogger sharing knowledge and inspiration on creating your dream life.

Lavendaire is my blog about personal growth + lifestyle design. Follow along and learn how you can create a life you love.

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Disclaimer: This is NOT a sponsored video. All opinions expressed are wholly my own.

[RababAlhunaidi]

I cried watching this. I am going through my self love journey too and let me tell you there is a lot of sobbing and emotional tearing, thanks alot for sharing your personal journey beautiful. love you

[bloominglune]

There's just something about you I love so much. Your voice soothes me, your smile energize me, your words motivates me. 💛

Please continue to inspire us through your life and lessons.
I love you. 🍊

Edit: 👀👀thank you so much for all the likes🍋🍋 I love you all.

[janalex]

"I wasn't making an effort, I was expecting people to make an effort with me."
This is so true. All throughout high school, and even my first two and a half years of college I managed to ruin so many friendships and relationships that could have been beautiful because of this way of thinking. I tend to be the person that accepts an invitation, and then the entire time I won't socialize with anyone. I stay in my own little corner and convince myself that no one wants to talk to me and that I made a mistake by showing up. I realize how damaging this can be to my self esteem and the effect it can have on people around me, and your videos have really given me a chance to reflect on myself. I appreciate everything you do Aileen. Thank you <3

[aurora]

Seeing this video as a shy 14 year old with strict asian parents, this rly gives me hope. i can relate so much to pretty much everything u say, and it rly helps me :) ty

[lelyguti]

I teared up when you talked about feeling invisible/ feeling like nobody wanted to be your friend. That's exactly how I felt the first 18 years of my life. I'm 23 now but I've grown so much mentally the past 5 years. I am so happy I stumbled upon your channel today. I definitely needed this.

[beckabronstad]

You're such a beautiful, old soul! I'm 43 years old and still see my friends struggling with this! I myself have been healing since I was in my early 20s and I can tell you that the process never stops - its a lovely flower that continues to unfold, if we dare to try!

[lavendaire]

Thank you all for the amazing feedback on this video. I'm so grateful we could connect and remind each other that we're not alone in any of this 💕 Sending you all my love & seriously wishing you all the best for your growth. What I said at the end of the video, I meant it!! 💖

P.S. Click the bell to be notified of the Healing Workshop when it comes out!

[femmenistas]

Girl I totally understand. I am still on this journey. Cause I still feel like I am not worthy when I don't get the results that I or others expect from me. thank you for sharing this. <3

[LizzAngelus]

Ive been feeling this more now in my mid 20s more than i ever have before. Its true what they say, you are youre worst enemy. Ive always been the FIRST one to tell myself im a failure and im not good enough. Ive had a mental breakdown everyday for the past 4 day. And im just so exhausted from myself. Im constantly having 1 thought lead to another lead to another etc until i just break down... thanks for this video its been so helpful

[leae]

IM CRYINGGGG, all the time i just really feel i have an older sister in you :'<<

[Rithuramesh-os]

I'm a teenage girl who is trying to achieve my big dreams, and I actually feel so lost. And when you said these words, I was shocked. Because this is who actually I am right now. I'm stuck in that negative cycle. And I am quite lucky that I found out this video. Thankyou sis for creating this channel... 🥺🥺❤️

[ossen]

*The world begins within*
Great editing

[lavendaire]

French, Indonesian, Portuguese, and Spanish subtitles are available! Click "CC" and check the video settings. Thank you to the contributors listed in the description 💕

[Brken_tv]

Omg how many hair colors you have on the past few years? all the colors looks so pretty and pastels love you so much Aileen

[ايماننبيل-شظ]

My story is similar
I feel invisible and that people don't want to be friends with me
And I am in the journey of healing and self-love
Thank you for sharing that you are inspiring

[MarielaMerino]

I can relate. To have friends it takes effort both ways. I just always feel like I wish people would reach out to me. Like I’m the only one ever reaching out to others. I’m always make the effort and it’s draining and it makes me feel like somethings wrong with me. I’ve also been trying to reconnect with a friend and I keep reaching out but they’re not making an effort back and it makes me give up and think I’m just not worthy of having friends.

[heatherhanninenfairbairn]

Aileen, I can identify with feeling my parents’ love was tied to my achievements. I pushed myself very hard in sports because that’s what my dad loved until I totally burnt myself out over many years. I distinctly remember thinking, Nothing I ever do can make this man proud of me = loves me. I’m 50 now and it’s only after a lot of years of self destructive behaviour that I am whole, sober and taking care of myself. Bless you for realizing this crucial truth at such a young age. I get it. Blessed be.

[EmilyHanka]

3 minutes in and I'm already ugly crying because I can relate to this so much

[jh]

This video made me realize that "I'm not alone". I'm not the only one dealing with similar problems related to friendships and self-worth. I always felt like it's me against the world.

I can so understand and relate to wanting to be wanted by others, expecting others to make the effort to talk to me while I don't try to make the effort to talk to them. And when they don't make the effort probably because they sense that I'm not giving an equal amount of effort in return, I think they simply don't want to be friends with me. So I distance myself. Feeling unworthy to make the effort; insecure. I never knew that side of myself and always wondered why I never really had a stable friendship.

Thank you so much for sharing. It's so hard to heal and grow and change and be confident when you feel you don't deserve it. And to want to prove to others that you've changed because you're that insecure, questiong -did I really change? But it can be a rocky process that'll take time and I'm working on it!! Love 💛

[natrideout]

this is exactly how i feel now. thank you for showing me i'm not alone - healing seems like such an overwhelming task and i feel like i almost have a comfort zone in the story i have created because it's all ive ever known.. even when its years later. i still cling to who i was, not quite ready to let go because i feel like im almost afraid of who i could be.. anyway! this video helped me see that even though letting go of your story is uncomfortable and painful, its worth it.