Borderline Personality Disorder

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it's “BORDERLINE BILL'S MERCHANDISE” SHOP!
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Thank you ! hoping of one day being able to tell these stories for a living

Attention! the new, 2017 easier to follow version:

Created by: ofir sasson, 2010

a bit of an intro:

My name's Ofir Sasson, I was diagnosed with BPD, yet i don't give that much of a regard these days. the struggle is what it is, be it with a definition or not. this short was made back in 2010, at a time i felt understood by the definition, bordered, and at home with it. i do believe the symptoms shown by Bill are universal to any human, but their aggressiveness and weight on functionality can make a very significant difference between common human traits and a serious disorder. i find great compfort and pride reading those of you who found comfort in this, and i thank each of you.

regarding the text, i have not fixed this blaring issue of the text passing by way too quickly, since it's an old short with life of its own by now. i am thinking though of maybe adding a new upload of the short with a solution to the titles issue.

[doe]

My favorite way of looking at BPD is very simple. It originates because you were born a highly sensitive individual. This is a GOOD trait. As a child, you experienced something traumatic (sometimes longterm trauma, abuse or neglect, often from a parent) and this affected you deeply, more so than the average due to your innate sensitivity. This is obviously terrible. As a result of this combination, your nature (GOOD) and trauma (BAD), you now have a problem regulating emotions. Instead of working at a 3-5 emotional level (relatively steady), you bounce from 1-7 all the time (in a 1-10 scale). Your highs are HIGHER than the average, your lows are LOWER than the average, but you are still experience emotions that all people experience. The unfortunate part is that you feel intensity about things (good or bad) that don't merit the intesnsity, and often wear yourself out. You grow up feeling confused, peopel may think you're difficult or hostile or moody. You don't understand what is wrong with you and often have other issues such as depression, anxiety, sometimes autism. By the time you find out, you feel pretty confused, and it's normal. But the good thing about BPD is that it's treatable through DBT. People usually can manage completely with it within 1-3 years. And the skills needed aren't hard or complicated. They're skills that really everyone could benefit from, but BPDers really need. So don't be in that space of hating yourself for having BPD and dont be in that space of being afraid because others try to demonize the condition. Please accept that you can't control others and BPD is under researched and many people have misconceptions about it. You need to focus on YOU. Get better. Adopt coping skills. Change. SOmeone said "you can never be cured, only improve." Look, take it. Take improvement, and betterment. Don't get stuck in the detail of seeking a perfect solution and the creation of a perfect life. It doesn't exist. Take treatment.

[phabiansoto]

The end with the ball and then thinking and accepting that the ball will be happier with someone else is something I go through alot

[pringlebingle]

I didn’t expect the “they can be very kind people” to make me as emotional as it did

[tokaku]

I remember watching this years ago and wondering if I had BPD because I sure acted that way, but I was young and it's normal to be irrational and high on hormones because you're experiencing intense emotions for the first time. And then I found out I had autism.

[lofkii]

crazy how something about a mental illness and was made at least 12 years ago isn't calling people with BPD "insane" every two seconds

[cjsmith]

I’m a male with BPD. I’m married to my beautiful wife and thriving in my career. Did not think I would make it this far. I still fight the battle of “angels” and “demons” everyday. My wife is very social. She has a personal friend group and a professional friend group. They are always coming around my house and it makes me territorial and angry. Y’all know what I mean. But I look at her and something stops me from having an episode. I don’t know what it is, but I’m in control. I don’t think I’ll ever really love people outside my very small circle. But the little stability I have is a victory I suppose.

EDIT: I want everyone to understand that my wife is ALWAYS welcome to have people at OUR house. The struggle is entirely on me and how I manage my emotional regulation, which comes with knowledge and practice. I still remain a very private person with a select group of people I keep close. My wife and I are happily married and she is my best friend in the whole world.

[Eni_Las]

My husband who had BPD committed suicide last year. I still miss him a lot. He was the kindest person I knew.

[ilianam]

Oh that vicious cycle of discarding someone when they hurt you so deep... Then when they're gone immediately idealizing them again and creating every excuse in your head to win them back. Even if they hurt you, its not worse than the abandonment or loneliness.

[marley]

As someone with diagnosed BPD, we’re always labeled as being evil. You look up BPD and the first things you see are articles, “How to Survive BPD Abuse.” You see and hear this enough that you start to wonder, am I that awful? Is that how I am? So, the ending where it said nice things made me, a grown adult, tear up a bit. Thank you.

[joqueen]

That was the saddest video I have ever seen in my life. Spent his entire life fearing the ball... when at the end of the day it's all he wanted.

[bungo]

"They cry a lot"
Whole comment section filled with people crying from this video (me included)

[SirMorganD]

I saw this video years ago.
And I still feel like im about to cry with the last sentences.
"They can be good to babys
Or good artists

They are very kind people"

Sometimes I remeber those words, in the middle of the street. And feel a little bit better.

Thank you.

[Jay-uoof]

Whenever my BPD is spiraling, and my thoughts get really dark.. I come back and watch this. I plan to get a little red ball tattooed somewhere when I can as a gentle reminder it’ll be okay. I used to work in childcare, I love to make art, and I’d like to hope I too can be kind at least.

[joanacroft]

It’s funny how I always thought these traits were just signs of immaturity and lack of emotion control.
So I forced myself real hard to not cry or feel anxious around other people and avoid saying my thoughts out loud.
To repress the feelings of abandonment to the point of feeling nothing at all.
And then praised myself for growing so much emotionally when in reality, I’m just stuck with a disorder I didn’t even thought I may have.

[richie-]

as someone with Borderline Personality Disorder, i've never seen informational material with such a kind and sympathetic tone. most resources talking about it see us as demons or leeches or unstable freaks, impossible to get along with or care for without being run ragged and sucked dry. this is so important, thank you. bless. 😭 💞

[Loulo]

Then end where it said “they can be kind” etc made me so emotional bc I feel like I always have to prove I’m a good person and constantly fight with myself to not have bpd bc of the stigma that comes with the disorder

[pip]

The ‘nice’ changing to ‘slut’ after she waved omfg 😭

[minecraftoverlord]

Its the rapid flashes of anger that irritate me the most. I know they're irrational, and I have exelent control over them, but they're always there, simmering in the back of my mind.

[corvisangel]

that BPD feel when you cry at the end when he kicks the ball away

[repaeu]

The end with the dog kicking the ball away and immediately being struck with loneliness and wanting the ball back, imagining some other person finding the ball. I teared up a bit. Only a BPD can understand that bit and oh God, so true, so real.