What It’s Like Living With Depression

It’s not easy, but you’re not alone.

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[AngelinaStyles]

You know what is the worst? When you're having a perfectly normal conversation and out of nowhere you start having this feeling like you're going to cry .

[aldos]

What makes it worse is when you stay up all night just thinking, not wanting to go to school/work, never feeling confident, feeling completely alone when surrounded by people, being extremely paranoid, and just wanting to curl up into a small ball and just vanish.

[Cake]

"I don't even know why I am crying"
I relate to this quote way too much

[FirstNameLastName-qkiv]

You know whats worse? That people don't know your depressed and then... You slowly are dying inside even more and even though your smiling it doesn't mean you are happy....

[alienMarz]

depression: i want to die
Anxiety: but what if you die
the struggle is real

[jameslogan]

"No one know you like I do" 
That line hit me hard..

[taylorwolf]

There was this quote I found which really helped me realize what and how to get over my depression... "Depression is like an abusive relationship with yourself."

[NONLUV]

This looks more like a pretty accurate representation of an abusive relationship.

[GtaRockt]

the "you always act like I'm not around when you are with friends" part hit me the most..
Pretending to be happy and avoiding at all costs that someone may notice... :(

[homie]

Depression is like being at a beach. Everyone around you is laughing and you are too and then suddenly you are pulled under the endless, cold, dark waves. You scream so loudly, but all anyone around you sees is little bubbles popping happily. Every person you reach out and touch shrieks and runs because they didn't see you, they didn't see what was underneath your smile. You sink deeper and deeper and you are suffocating. People say you're only seeing yourself, but when you're in the depths, you have to ask if anyone else is really there. You ask if anyone ever will be.

[OdayakanaLPS]

everytime I cry I feel like someone is grabbing me by the neck and squeezing
then I get so angry for no reason

[hendrikfranss]

When I was depressed, even people that I love were just like "Just be Happy"






And somehow, it hurts..

[agcupcakelover]

i've got depression and social anxiety. i hate when i'm sad or empty/emotionless and then feel guilty for feeling that way because other people have it worse. ugh

[SandlingShay]

I have depression, and to me this video just seems to be about someone who has low self esteem and confidence. Depression is a lot more intense than that, darker, and more hopeless.

[piggyninjagamer]

Honestly depression is a lot worse than this. This video kind of takes a "childish" approach on how it is... it's a the worse feeling in the world. I'm 15 and I've dealt with depression for quite a while now, I know I'm young and it seems silly to think a 15 year old could struggle with depression, even to me it seems silly, but I finally came to face that I have depression a couple months ago. Depression is the worst feeling ever... you feel useless, like there's no place for you, you don't want to wake up in the mornings NOT because you're lazy but because you simply feel worthless and like you're a waste of space. And yes I know, it's normal for teenagers to feel some of these things... but depression is so difficult to describe... you just know how it feels. I have extremely low self esteem, I have REALLY bad social anxiety to the point where I skip school just because I feel like I can't talk to a teacher otherwise they'll hurt me in some way. Even to me this sounds crazy! It does get better, there are days where I'm happy but usually by the end of the day I just feel the same way... I feel like I'm useless, like I'll never find anyone who I feel comfortable around, I feel like I should die sometimes to be honest. It gets so bad that I will spend the whole day in bed just thinking about the ways I should end my life, how life is meaningless and I'm a useless part of society. If anyone else deals with depression... just talk about it with someone! That's what has helped me... talking to people. I only have 2 friends and they're on the internet. So if you're like me and have no friends in real life but you need someone to help, please talk to me on skype. my username is piggyninjagamer. I'm not saying this to be an attention whore or to make people feel bad, I just want to help from experience.

Keep being strong! It'll be okay ^_^
And please! PLEASE PLEASE! If you feel like you need to talk to someone feel free to add me on skype. Username piggyninjagamer.

<3

[alexanderzex]

I thought they were a couple at first and I thought their toxic relationship was causing her depression xD

[ok-kvpm]

I'm not diagnosed, but this describes how I've been for the past two months perfectly.

[careyannesh]

As someone who's been suffering from depression since I was eight (that's twenty solid years now) I can honestly say that this video is not helpful or representative of my experiences at all... it really makes depression seem much more manageable than it actually is for some people ... like a background annoyance that can be ignored. For many people that is NOT the case, it's far more intrusive and debilitating than this video makes it out to be.

Literally, the day in this video would be an extremely good day for me, I would be delighted with it, and I'm by no means alone.  
I think that's the danger of saying 'this is what it's like to live with x' as opposed to 'this is my personal experience'.

[idkrandom]

The sad part is how accurate this video is..

[daderps]

I wish I could just kill my depression. But its there, haunting me.