What It's Actually Like Living With OCD

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[heart_goes_doki_doki]

it's painful to hear people saying that ocd is just being organised. it's not. so many people have life threatening moments in their life due to their ocd.

[melzordtv]

People who talk openly about their mental health are so brave. Sending lots of love 🤍

[MerleONeal]

Rachel, you are quite simply the best. I learned a lot from this, so proud of you for helping others feel less alone. I LOVE YOU, DEAR FRIEND

[shayladaw]

There are so many misconceptions about OCD I constantly hear "You're so lucky to be so organized! I bet your house is immaculate!" So content like this is very helpful in educating our loved ones! Thank you for sharing

[johannapenry]

I've never seen such an authentic description of this experience. So proud to call you my friend Rachel <3

[ocdandanxiety]

OCD is so so difficult to handle. Thank you for bringing light into something that can fee so dark. 💜

[kings]

When she said OCD is exhausting, I totally felt that. And true, OCD is not limited to people wanting things clean and organized all the time; they can come in different form. My OCD developed when I was at work. I just suddenly found myself double checking things like crazy. I will count the money left in my cash box multiple times (and I mean, MULTIPLE TIMES). I would double check the items I segregated multiple times. Double check everything before I leave the branch multiple times. If I wont I will have extreme anxiety.

It can be very time consuming that would finish late at work and go home very exhausted physically and mentally because of it.

Living in a country were mental heath disorders are not something being taken seriously and being shrugged off makes it hard for me to explain myself to people or made it hard for people to understand me as well and makes it even harder for I cannot get help.

[BrownGeorge-pwxo]

I suffered OCD 18 years ago as a teenage. Spent my whole life fighting OCD. Also suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.

[LibRoseITM]

I told a friend today that I have OCD and they said "I wish I had that, I'd love to have a clean house.". It's incredibly frustrating to hear that from someone. They wouldn't call it a mental health disorder if it didn't negatively impact your life in some way.

[whyhihigh]

I’m not gonna self-diagnose, but most of these things she’s mentioning are habits I currently have. It’s like forced actions

[Louisiana]

“It’s like I’m trying to make it harder for myself” hit the nail on the head, girl 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻 I’m struggling lately and this has helped to make me feel more ‘normal’ so thank you for this

[oregonquadskater]

"I'm spending hours upon hours of my life touching and counting, so that bad things don't happen.... but really the worst thing is that I'm just wasting my life".
It's 1:26 am, my wife and daughter are in the house asleep, I'm sitting in the garage with tears streaming down my face, reflecting on the mass amount of life I have wasted with I can't waste anymore of this life. Truly thank you! Thank you! Thank you!

[jessicainthekitchenrecipes]

So proud of Rachel and grateful to her for sharing about this. I was diagnosed with a type of OCD known as pure O. It's exhausting to live with, but therapy and just being able to give it a name and identify when it's happening has helped so much. ❤️ Sending so much love to anyone suffering from/with a mental illness.

[rrrahmdni]

One of my friend has OCD. Her's is about cleanliness. Not for things, but for her body. She would takes hours just for taking a bath. When the pandemic hit, she rub her skin until it's raw. Thank God she got a bit better now.

[Ritaaw]

I have intrusive thoughts. I’ve had them so long it feels normal but this is a reminder for me that it isn’t

[valeriapacheco]

thank you for sharing this, i’ve been having ocd symptoms since i was 12, i’m 19 now and i haven’t had the guts to talk about it with my parents, but i know i need therapy, this video encourages me to talk about it.

[Wrah]

OCD representation!! I teared up hearing about all of the struggles. OCD is so misunderstood and minimalized.
Not only are compulsions so debilitating and take away from you, taboo obsessions especially can destroy your self-image and fill with so much shame that you slowly forget who you are and sink in self-loath. Thank you for sharing your experience.

[Tvshownerd]

Finally someone said it right. I’m tired of people fancying OCD like it’s a cool thing... Thanks

[PRDreams]

Last night I had a silent win. I was able to stay in bed even when I wanted with all my might and open the windows* in my room "just right". I was even able to fall asleep eventually. It feels great.

...Even if when I woke up I open my windows "just right", I take that small silent win.

Thanks for opening up.

[lailakamaldien]

You just described how I have been feeling my entire life..