why am I afraid to be happy? kati unfiltered...

I often ask myself, am I afraid to be happy? And the truth is sometimes I am. And I think many people are. We may think we're not worthy of happiness, we don't know how to find happiness, what does happiness look like in our life, happiness versus joy, or simply... we may not know how to break the patterns. In this video, I talk about my journey in finding how to be happy in life, and how I handle set backs. Can you relate? Let me know in the comments.

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[innominategamer]

As an extremely lonely, socially isolated 35 year old woman I wish I could give you a hug and be your friend. Your videos help me realize my feelings are okay I'm not so alone.

[groofay]

I definitely relate to the hyper-vigilant "when will the other shoe drop?" response to happiness as a result of repeated trauma, to the point where I'm just kind of resigned and not trying to find happiness anymore.

[cassidyrsieder]

I definitely relate to the “when will the other shoe drop?” My childhood was always living on edge, walking on eggshells shells..few years went by I got older and I met my bf at 19 and I moved in with him, he is the best thing that’s ever happened to me (: he treats me so well and I wasn’t used to that at first. I’m so used to being yelled at, manipulated, guilt tripped etc.

[buttons]

Yes. This is what I have told my therapist once the antidepressants started to really kick in. I was scared to be happy, because that would allow me to actually "shoot for the stars", actually get sh*t done, stay at my next job for the long haul, make long lasting friendships....and that is scary to me. I am so used to "failing" or starting over again and again, that the idea of happiness allowing me to succeed would be a new habit I'd have to learn.

[lisamarie]

You really nailed it. It is so uncomfortable to be happy and it's hard to get out of that comfort zone of being sad and traumatized. Sometimes I feel it is just easier to be depressed because getting past trauma is so hard.

[benjaccard]

This is so timely for me. Just self sabotaged a whole relationship I was developing just to stay in the comfort of sadness.

[ididbadthings]

I will often break into tears when I feel someone has given me a genuine compliment or when my counsellor gets me to admit do something I’m proud of. It’s like I can’t handle the feeling of good about myself.

[markmalinowski]

years ago I always said "If I let myself feel happy, something bad will happen" as if I was cursed. I was sabotaging myself. It took lots of work and therapy to change my mindset and realize that even if something bad did happen, better to go into it feeling happy than in constant dread.

[megpwnedyou]

Being sad or unhappy is my way of getting my emotional needs met from others. I have found that they care more when I'm struggling, so when I'm doing okay, I'm afraid they'll leave me. Working on this in therapy. I hope to be truly happy and secure one day.

[montanagirl]

This was one of my biggest issues. It’s tough to get past.

[marisac]

I grew up in a pessimistic home and that feeling of waiting for the other she to drop and a development of self sabotage has always been part of my personality. I’m 56 now and I’m still fighting this. Thank you so much for your videos, they make me feel not so alone.

[vincentmessink]

We as people are emotional creatures. We act based off how we feel and can tend to be nervous or anxious with things such as people places and certain situations with things that are unfamiliar with . Previous events also shape how we react to new or similar things happening.

[thevansickelherps]

As someone with BorderlinePD, I believe much of my fear of being happy and "okay" stems from my struggle with fear of abandonment - if I'm okay, people will think I don't need them anymore, I'm all set, and will leave. This has been a core belief of mine for as long as I can remember.

[kateybarnett]

I have never had anyone explain the purest and clearest way of how I function on a very regular basis like I just can’t believe that I’m not the only one.

[catesc]

Im afraid of not being happy in the rest of my life. So i keep worrying about "searching" for a happy life. Im obsessed with trying to not make the wrong choices or carreer path.

[nm-conceptfilms]

You wonderful human being..
I was literally asking the universe for a sign to tell me, what the hell ist wrong with me, and opened up Youtube, in the hopes of getting an answer.
Never saw your videos, it was the first time, this popped up.
I´ve been through very rough times and an even rougher healing process, but lately, life responds with so many goods and all I can see is pain..
This hit me like an anvil. Thank you

[JimGalbreath]

Kati, sometimes I am just trying to survive the day… I haven’t looked for or desired to be happy for years now…I would be blessed to have people to provide real support but that’s just not reality for everyone. I appreciate and value your content and maybe one day I can relate to this video.

[dahlw]

People tend to remember and feel a loss much more than a gain. So while finding happiness is great, the fear of losing it can interfere with your ability to get or stay in that state of mind.

[aynilaa]

whenever I’m happy, ecstatic, proud of something etc. my parents and/or sister find something to criticise. they struggle to be happy when other people are because they’re unhappy with themselves. this led me to always expect that either good things won’t happen to me, or that they’ll eventually turn out bad. so in order to avoid my happy bubble being popped, I only tell select people about my accomplishments, love life etc.

[joshuabullard]

When struggling with addiction our false sense of happiness is based around my drug whatever it may be. When i became sober and worked through my feelings i uncover what it truly means to be happy. Discovering my new self is scary and I sometimes don't like the change because it's uncomfortable but I know it's worth it. I hope this helps someone today.