Rebuild your worth after narcissistic abuse - Reclaim your rights

Rebuild your worth after narcissistic abuse - Reclaim your rights
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[chocolatecookie]

You know, it really makes me angry and sad that I am left broken behind watching video’s like this mourning over the losses and destruction while she is partying in the widest sense of the word as if nothing has happened. She feels undestructible, untouchable, in control without any shame or regret. I know deep inside she is insecure and lost. I know she puts on a mask to run away from the truth. One day the truth will be running after her!
I wished, I really wished she would had changed her evil ways and stopped the madness she created and continues to do so. She is on a suicide mission but she takes everyone down with her. I am furious but also deeply wounded, traumatised for life. Many things happened to me not only with the narcissist - I wished! - but events and people besides that. It is trauma upon trauma from left to right, from this person and that person, from selfblame - yes, I did things wrong as well - to blaming others. It is a lot. The drama has still not ended. How the next years will look like I am not certain about that. I do take good care of myself now as much as I can but inside I have rage. Some of it I will be able to process it in a healthy way but the scars are there for life on top of old scars. I still cannot accept my situation. That is the hardest thing. I am working on myself. This time a bit more serious and more honest to myself than ever before. I had to start my life from square one. I cant talk too much online. Many things happened that only I have know of and that I can understand. The dissapointments are a bitter pil to swallow. The unimaginable events that took place is even for Hollywood simply too much. I could write a book. Not that I will, once I am finished I would have died of a heart attacque.