6 HIDDEN SIGNS OF COMPLEX PTSD (CPTSD)

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[WenchInTheTinfoilHat]

1) forgetful memory spacing out dissociation
2) feeling something is wrong with me defective
3) emotional flashbacks triggered
4) relationship issues
5) living in hyper vigilant mode
over analyzing mode
6) chronic physical health issues

[indranikeiki]

Becoming nervous, fearful and restless in groups of people because it unconscioualy reminds you of your family/home environment and how unsafe it was.

[BlackCoffeeee]

Many of us can't hold down a job because being 'out' in the world is too stressful. Being out of my own little space can make me so adrenalin tired that I think I'm going to die. I'm a grown adult who can't leave my house in case someone wants to interact with me. It's debilitating.

[lollipop]

I’m 48 and I still today can feel myself revert back to childhood feelings of shame, guilt, the feeling of being so wrong embarrassed and humiliated when someone is annoyed at me. Hence constantly abandoning myself to try and keep the peace. I didn’t even know that’s what I was doing as learnt so young to be that way I legitimately believed all these years I’m here solely to keep everyone else “happy” which is an impossible task. In the long run no one was happy (short term yes). I’m happy to be learning about myself and how I can reclaim my voice and power. To be loving instead of fearing.

[analozada]

I def have CPTSD, yet my childhood memory is quite sharp. Sometimes I wished I didn't remember the bad things that happened to me.

[amiek]

I’ve been diagnosed with PTSD but it’s really CPTSD. So many from childhood. Male babysitter, uncle and stepdad molested me before age 11. Gang raped by 3 men at 19 while date rape drugged. Plenty more trauma…. At a young age. 60 now and still suffering mentally. Sad life.

[steamer]

I was broken by my mother, nuns and priests (notice the lack of capitals, I have no respect for any of them) when I was young beginning in the early '60's. I have suffered from PTSD all my life and never understood or realized it. I was also born with a cleft-palate. All my life, I've had complete strangers tell me that I'm ugly. In high school, for a couple of years, I had to be mindful of where I went at which parts of the day because there were 3 guys a few years older who made my life miserable. I'd hear "hey lip buddy" then get a smack in the head or where-ever they felt like. A teacher saw that happen once and just walked away. I once asked a girl if she'd like to go out with me and she looked incredulous and said "with you?" I've ony had one girl-friend and she died after about 3 years of complications from an illness. I didn't realize or understand that for most of my life that I was broken spiritually and mentally.

[Trentonsmommy]

I have picked my scabs and acne excessively my whole life.

[deedeedoes]

Thank you, so helpful. I have noticed a symptom being regression, dissociative distraction obsessions, displacement attention activities, to help 'by-pass' a traumatic incident without dealing with it head on.

[margyrowland]

Yes, I live with chronic pain 24/7. I hardly ever feel peaceful because I’m always trying not to fail. I don’t remember much of my childhood or when my kids were young. I had regular nightmares of me gtrying to save them from “the enemy”. Looking after my youngest grandkids now 3 1/2 and 7 months really helps because I have to be “in the moment” if I want a real relationship with them. I’ve learnt a lot and I try to listen more and speak less. My malignant narcissistic mother abused me from infancy in every way. At least I went no contact about 25 years ago and she’s dead now. Her attacks behind my back have ceased but many important relationships are ruined. I can live with that. It’s their choice to believe what they want. I’m a genuine Christian and that’s the most important thing about me 💟✝️💟

[sgrannie]

I have so few memories that don’t reinforce nearly 70 years worth of shame I can count them on one hand. I actually just recently asked myself to find a memory where I didn’t “spoil” the moment or situation. It took a while but I finally did find one, and promptly did something that doesn’t happen often: I cried.

[kirtibajpai]

I feel I have symptoms of CPTSD.. Though they developed after emotional abuse in a relationship with a friend. Not necessary it comes from childhood...

[knitpurl]

When I'm at work and get stressed, which is often, my mind goes back to childhood abuse. I see my mother raging at me, kicking me, her words repeat in my head over and over. I tell myself silently what a POS I am. All while I function normally outward. I'm exhausted.

[fraiser]

I took cognitive behavioural therapy for 2
Saved my ❤

[norismendoza]

thank you for the videos. it helps to understand. unless it's an exagerrated response, where my emotions are to strong for the circumstance, it can be tricky to see things as a 'sign'. a lifetime with these behaviors and it just feels like that's who you are -rather than fallout. there are highly triggered moments where i understand my response and the origin. feeling powerless is a clear component. the flood of feelings is almost intolerable. When outwardly you present well (for the most part) and you're a great pretender you never feel understood or known.

[stephenclayton]

I have all these issues going on. The physical aspects are becoming more profound and causing many physical symptoms. I'm so anxious in relationships and never feel able to accept someone may like or even love me.

[lorrainejames]

Wow, I never knew why I did that and used to feel so bad about it but it was almost overwhelming, a compulsion. I’d be in a good mood driving home and would tell myself I wouldn’t be horrible and moody/angry. It was like a switch flipped, I couldn’t explain it! My poor family must have dreaded me coming home, so very sad. But what you said (one of many things), ties in exactly with my childhood. I mothered my mother, I felt responsible for everyone and everything. At least it makes sense now, thank you.

[Flyingrabbit]

I agree that shame and low self-esteem induced by parental abuse and neglect are very formative. But what is seldom discussed is the part peers play in our development. Society, especially that of children, does not value introspection and contemplation. That we spend an inordinate amount of time trying to figure out why we aren't loved and what we have to hide or do in order to be loved, creates a mindset that other children don't have or appreciate. We can easily be seen as "downers". Many of us are completely excluded from exploring others in an innocent manner. Then there is what we do to compensate for all that "time on our hands" spent not being loved in infancy. Do we, like baby monkeys, cling to a stuffed toy and a bottle when deprived of a mother, creating a stronger need for things than people? Do we return to the dream state of the womb alone in our crib, maybe laying the groundwork for a solitary life as a writer or poet? Do we learn that we will never be what others want us to be and simply lose interest in other people?? It all depends on temperament, intelligence and the kinds of rejection we were exposed to. These traits are later described as attachment styles. Are they really detachment styles and with good reason to stay that way??

[Serena]

Kim, when I first saw your videos, I didn’t want to trust or like you. You just seemed too pretty, fashionable and gentle to be seriously focused on healing trauma in others. I don’t think that anymore -- you now seem amazingly real, intelligent, kind, and you’re a great communicator. Thank you for what you do.

[gailbrack]

Every time I see one of your videos, I understand myself more. I have already commented on this video and I had a lot to say. Even at that, I have no commented nearly as much as I need to. I understand what you’re saying about health issues. I had a traumatic childhood and it has affected me with numerous ailments. I have been under psychiatric care almost all of my adult life. I have had GI problems since I was 18, IBS, GERD, etc. I take a lot of meds and supplements. I have a heart condition and all of my adult life I have been under treatment for depression, anxiety and bipolar disorder. Considering how I grew up, I am proud to say that I am a very even tempered person. My mother was a narcissist and my former best friend of 65 years was also a narcissist and I finally put her out of my life two years ago. Since our 30 year high school reunion, she had become absolutely unbearable. I can’t believe that I kept her in my life for so long. She spread a horrible, untrue rumor about me to all of our friends, so I am left with no friends. However; she didn’t call one of my lifelong friends, so I now have that friend and one other friend from school, as well as 2 friends in California. They are all wonderful people so I feel like I got the cream of the crop! I’m so sorry to write so much but I find it somewhat therapeutic. Forgive me for leaning on you.