the desire to not exist (and its solution)

(this video was recorded a year ago lol)

do you sometimes yearn for non-existence? why is it that the desire to not exist is so common in our day and age? here, i offer an alternative perspective - one of connection rather than separation from existence.

Music by: @joshuastclairmusic @Chillpeach @stephonpiano

[ozratarot]

whenever we judge people we are close to learning why they are that way. fortunately you’re intuitive and intelligent and think it
through. ❤

[pronerd]

I love your candid approach to this, it does more than you know to speak to someone's soul no matter where in life they currently are.

[nathanmaoah]

I have TOTALLY felt the desire to not exist, really makes me feel better to see other people experience this as well. Such a weird feeling, like I don’t want to live but also thinking of killing myself or just dying also doesn’t feel right. Like I never should’ve been. Love how you speak and describe things, thank you for this video much!! ❤ I love you because I love me

[SpaceOutlaww]

We really are all abstract data points on the same set like the mandelbrot, aren't we? The seahorses, the spirals, gradients are all part of the same one existence

[NatevonNida]

This may sound odd but thank you man. You definitely changed my perspective on a lot of things. I’m one of those people you used to not understand. Sometimes I wish I just never existed or that I could just disappear. I want to be more whole and feel better but i didn’t know how. But I’m really listen to what you’re saying and I’m gonna truly try and become one with certain aspects of my life and try and coexist with everything. I have been off social media for awhile at least most except yt, but I deleted all my social media accounts due to me feeling kind of bitter to people as a whole. I made a new google account to make this comment, I just felt that you deserved a thank you for making a video like this because i needed to head this at this time.

[Isaac_the_Seeker_of_Truth]

9:42 - 10:06 this is actually very good. I have a physics background, I'm currently on the last year of my PhD. I was relating what you said here back to quantum field theory, and yes, we really are fundamentally wave excitations in the quantum field. This made me wonder if it's actually correct to equate existence with the quantum field, and I think it may be. Fascinating insights, thank you!

[nikeshgupta]

Too beautiful. I remembered what I felt as a toddler.Thank you.

[cleancarasmr]

My daughter committed suicide four months ago, and I feel the same now. I’m so glad I got this video right now.

[Luvmarmar]

I needed this today. I wrote down today in my journal that I wanted to not be here. I didn’t know what that meant but you guided me right where I needed. Thank you

[AnimaMundiCanal]

Thanks, that's beautiful actually, the ego longing to... desappear. For more soul to appear. It's a kind of healthy feeling in a way, as long as it doesn't last for ever and the needed change happens. Much love <3

[LambdaTF]

I’ve had this thought a few times in my life. I’ve had thought so real and genuine that maybe it actually happens, who knows. But then all of a sudden there’s that moment of realization. It’s real. No matter how much I hate reality I keep coming back for more apparently 😂

We’re all just a thing that’s happening and wishing ourselves the best. Just combing through the noise, and finding meaning where we can and for some reason we’ll keep doing it, forever!

[Meo_don]

I understand this and I love the way youve framed it. Yet I still have the deep desire. Its the undercurrent to all things.

[Which-Way-Out]

Your making a lot of sense Steph', very deep and profound wisdom mate, and very helpful, thank you.

[ChristinaUniverse-lqex]

I really appreciate this video, thank you ❤️

[TheTricksterCalv]

I recently got to a dark place where I was like damn I felt the fear and presence of death and it was empty. It was hard to shake but I came to the same conclusion. Existence itself is the gift and from that perspective how can everything not be beautiful

[aimee.h]

Thank you so much for this. I hoped to find an email address or a way to reach you. I have been going though something heartbreakingly profound and reached this conclusion. Except ive been in this feeling for about two weeks since i lost the love of my life. Like you its just a desire to become no thing, having had enough with existence itself. This video has literally saved me. from myself, from the all, nothing and existence simultaneously. Thank you so much. I love you!

[cadenluke]

thank you for sharing this video!! it really resonated with a lot of thoughts I've been having recently :) I've been playing with the idea that we, as well as all things, exist in our varied forms as manifestations of beauty in different macro/micro levels (Like the leaf, the tree, the forest, etc.) I have a number of thoughts on the subject, but I'll keep it brief here lol

I just think this idea of oneness and unity that you're touching on really clicked with me, particularly in that the "tapestry" of the present moment would take on a more literal semantical meaning by this conception. Our consciousness (in an ego-self sort of way) is defined and limited by our knowledge, especially in the sense of our understanding of concepts and words, and I appreciate you bridging the gap between these higher cognitive concepts and everyday life.

I really liked when you said "when you hear a chord, a triad of notes... it creates a whole greater than the sum of its parts, " because I initially heard it as "accord"-- I think the entendre was also powerful for my understanding of the video, and I think that's harmonious in a way :)

[kazzamaiztristanatung]

I needed to hear this. Thank you bro. ❤❤

[nickyjhames]

Why can I save this video to watch later?

Thanks for the great work brother, very insightful message.

Its great to see that I'm not alone with this thoughts.

[dotaisnotdead]

I don’t wanna be here either watching you but I liked, commented and subscribed coz I want to.