BPD and Lack of Identity: My Personal Journey

Join me on a personal journey through the challenges of Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) and the struggle with a lack of identity. Discover how I overcame the confusion and frustration of not truly knowing who I am, and gained insights that can help you navigate your own path towards stability and authenticity.

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[ronmills]

So great to see you, Aldean. Great video here. I have never heard anyone address becoming other personalities to try and be "normal" and to fit in. I also can remember at a very early age trying to be someone else just to get people to like me. The reason we did this is because we are such gentle, pure souls brought into this lifetime. It is like being the deer in the headlights. We never saw the darkness and evil of this world coming. It made me a people pleaser too. At times, I feel like I have multiple personalities, multiple layers over the real me that is buried deep inside. This has come about from trying to fit in this society. The real us would have been trampled, tortured, etc. if we had not developed these other layers. Remember, we will return to the real us on the other side. You are such a blessing to try and help others like us. God Bless You, Aldean.

[Nyma]

Your videos have helped me so much through my bpd! Thank you so much for sharing.

[LizzyDidntDoIt]

I didn’t get my BPD diagnosis until I was 35 almost 36 years old and it felt like freedom. I finally had a starting point to try and understand myself and why I was the way I was. I met my one true ride or die friend at 31 and she stuck around. Here I am at 39 and I credit her support and her encouragement to go to therapy and to really figure out who I was. Even if people didn’t like me. I feel less alone when I meet others that understand the struggle. It’s so hard to just feel grounded, so hard to figure yourself out when you’ve never known who you are or that you were doing things just to feel accepted.

[kellievasquez]

I just to want to give you a hug. Thank you

[poeticmindshifttv]

I have had Bpd episodes throughout my life but I am not officially diagnosed. Talking with a therapist at the moment. But when I am feeling empty or dead inside. I find ways to release my emotions in a positive way. #peaceandblessings

[garydeacon]

You explain so clear and well thank you for sharing and helping.

[SixOG]

Brother, I just want to say thank you. You opening up to the world has helped me in more ways than I can ever show. No, I'm not drastically better, but you've helped me move in the right direction. I just wanted to thank you, from one broken soul to another, thank you. 👊🏼

[TIFF__]

I am really enjoying your videos. I have had all 9 symptoms for most of my life. Thank you for helping!!! 😊

[arlenekilbride]

Thank you so much for your videos addressing BPD.

[Zorobbabel]

You remind me of my brother. For the 1st time of my life, I am starting to understand him. Could this be his inner struggles?? You even sort of look like him.😮‍💨😪

[kazbah]

I think elevated histamine levels contribute to the rage attacks. Licorice tea and cooling agents help.

[Huntington]

Hello, Aldean. I hope this message finds you well or at least getting by okay.

I just found your channel, because I'm trying to help myself. I can't remember a time I didn't feel mentally ill. I don't even know who I actually am. I'm just a pile of pain, fear and anger. Those are the only emotions I truly feel in my soul, anymore. My brain is broken. My heart is broken. My soul is broken. I am broken. I cannot remember a time I was not f***ed up in the head.

If you feel up to it, please, give us a video update. If not, I truly understand. Thank you, for making these videos

[leiurus.]

I always thought bipolar disorder and BPD were the same and im glad i found this video because you mention being honest with our own selves things that dont feel right or go against youre own morals is great advice thanks

[AlibraMentality]

I know I struggled but worked on it slowly now I’m finally at a place where I identify with my inner self not my outer self.
I ask my inner self questions, should I do this, should I do that. I quiet and get to know my intuition- you gotta learn to surrender and trust your inner dialogue.
Even if it’s “you are worthy” well that’s a simple phrase, it usually starts out small-

Just some advice from someone who has been diagnosed with npd and bpd

[cherr]

Thank you for this video. I can relate to all the things you mentioned. It's a real struggle 😢 but gotta push on through.

[lilys]

hi Aldean, this is the first video of yours that i've seen and i want to say thank you for sharing your story and your strategies to cope with bpd. i struggle with it myself, especially recently - i moved out of my hometown that i lived in for 22 years just a few months ago, and readjusting to the new environment has been tough. i was wondering if you have any tips on impulse control - it's something i struggle with very much, as i tend to just do things that aren't good for me (drinking, smoking etc) on a whim because it's an alternative to sitting with the intense unpleasant emotions i feel. i want to care for myself more, but in the moment of the impulse decision i just think "i don't care that this is bad for me."
thank you again for this video. i look forward to seeing more from you!

[LuceoNonUro]

I just found this channel and you have no idea how this has helped me. We need more content creators with our disorder talking about this and breaking that stigma. I’ve felt so alone recently and you genuinely have made a difference. So thank you for that. I hope to see you post again in the future. (I see that it’s been a while.) until then, you gained a new subscriber. I hope things are going well for you.

[moiaena]

Hi! Thank you for posting this, I haven't watched it yet but I was just thinking about it this morning: How I'm not sure of who I am, that I don't think I know myself and maybe truly no one does. Which is, as you might know too... A really scary thing to feel or realise, in my case. So yeah, thank you, I'll be back when I'm ready to understand and work on it, truly.
Sending lots of love and good wishes, x.

[DamonCason-ckbj]

Your channel has really helped me man ❤ Thankyou