My Experience With Depression & How I Overcome It

Have you experience depression? What was your story? Are you looking for how to overcome depression?

VOICE: Amanda Silvera
Animator: Rina C.
YouTube Manager: Cindy Cheong

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[Psychgo]

Do you want more story format like this? Comment yes or no.

[jennyneon]

As a person who lived with depression, depression is so hard to describe, it's like you're feeling like a ghost in a human's body. It's just horrible.

[Apollo_]

Depression really sucks, I do not wish this kind of pain to anyone. Even to people I dont like.

[ThirtyVirus]

Up until I was about 19 I hadn't ever known depression. I led a happy and fulfilling life, had lots of interests and amazing friends, got good grades, etc... Life kind of hit me all at once when 2 years into my college degree I was dumped by my first girlfriend, losing my 3 year relationship just before I was scheduled to move into an unfinished basement 5 hours away from home (stupid).

I isolated myself, would only go outside to go to class and get groceries. To drown out the sadness I would work 16+ hours a day on classwork and content creation, which kicked the can down the road for the time being. I put my life into work, neglected making new friends or reconnecting with old ones, didn't take care of myself (gained 30 lbs). I knew the carbon monoxide detector wasn't working properly and didn't bother replacing it despite the fact that my desk was 10ft from the home's furnace. Even during times like spring break I sat inside for an entire week without speaking to a single person, online or otherwise. I never went to parties, was never invited to anything since I made no connections. The loneliness was crushing.

I finally had enough when my depression started to effect my work ethic and productivity. I hated my classes, had no passion for work or school, didn't care about anything. One night I sat staring at my keyboard for ~18 hours. Didn't eat, drink, sleep the whole time. I dropped out that next week, then moved back to my hometown. I'm 23 now, it's been over a year and just being above ground and getting sunlight again has made all the difference. I am eating home cooked meals now instead of the unhealthy garbage I ate at school, I have been trying to salvage the friendships that I neglected these past few years, been trying dating again. In a few months I am moving to a place that should be close to family, and have lots of potential for meeting new people.

Don't forget to treat yourself, even if you don't think you deserve it.

[_WingedWolf_]

Depression isn’t a fun thing and I really hope that anyone who suffers or suffered by it can overcome it. I would never wish this upon anyone. With that said I find it very brave that you wanted to share this! It isn’t easy to admit your darkest times and let others know or just share it in general. Be strong and stay safe! :)

[musicmamma]

I have had depression since about age 14. At 55, I have learned that pets, physical activity, & even going to the local dog park helps. Keep your mind focused on something other than yourself. I even started a new sport this summer: kayaking!

[omnid.slayer]

Honestly the thing that scares me the most about depression is the fact that you don't understand if you have depression till a specific age or something..
Then overcoming it is really difficult as well

[sofiathelast_]

To anyone who’s fighting your own silent battle right now, please stay strong. This too, shall pass. ♡

[GrandmaCathy]

When are just too overwhelmed to get out of bed, when you are angry for no real reason, when you want to stress eat, when you can't sleep or your days and nights get turned around. Don't wait. See a doctor before angry thoughts become delusions, hallucinations, or self harm or lashing out. If you've been depressed basically your whole life, you will be amazed at what it feels like to feel normal or balanced, and not triggered or crying all the time.

[energeticstunts]

Since people are sharing their personal story of depression, let me charm in as well. My depressing isn't over yet, however it's getting better. For about 2 years I've been in constant sadness, mostly because I lost my self worth and started hating myself, the exact reason I don't know. I used to be a very socialized person and would talk to everyone but these two years I slowly started isolating myself, and in class I would act all fine and happy even though I was in a lot of pain. I fell love with a girl during my depression and that made me happy for a while but keeping my feelings for her to myself for a while started weighing down on me and soon my depression used my feelings for her as a way to put myself down. With thoughts like: "I'm too ugly for her" "I'm not good enough and she hates me". Every time she ignored me or felt bad, it would be a validation that I as a person suck and nobody will ever like me. While many people gained weight, the opposite happened for me. Some days Id only eat a slice of burnt pizza with bottle and bottles of alcohol, some days I didn't eat a single thing but only shit amounts of alcohol to numb myself. When I didn't manage to get my hands on alcohol I slit my wrist to punish myself for being a loser. That's when I finally told my best friend about what I have been up to, regardless she hugged me and told me that I am one of the most amazing person she knows and she made me promise to her that I'd stop cutting myself. That's when I confessed to my crush and got rejected. That's when my depression peaked and I really really wanted to slit my wrist but I kept my promise and wrote songs about my feelings instead. I took a break from school for about a week to get myself together, started being more open about my depression to friends I trust, regardless everyone supported me and helped me out. My self loath isn't entirely over yet, but I'm trying my best, I hope this story motivates someone else to get better and well

[heywhatsnew]

The worst part of depression is not being able to share with anyone!
You want to tell someone but you can't and you don't know why

[quixbrix]

You should do a series like this but you could have viewers send in their stories. You can pick the ones that are the best, write the script and narrate it. I think it would show that so many people go through this and would help so many people. Like if you agree so they can see this :)

[phillipminer]

I’m glad that you described depression as a “dystopia.” I keep hearing the term tossed about in relation to our current society/current events, and also plenty of fiction. But hardly anyone knows that those with depression live in a dystopia every single day. Just because this dystopia is in our heads doesn’t make it any less real. Or any less oppressive.

[evanseptya]

7:08 being accepted and expected like that is really mood-making. Just hearing the words "I'm glad you came" or "it wouldn't be the same without you" is already making me happy

[A_Random_Pigeon]

My best friend was diagnosed with anxiety this year and seeing them like that was heart breaking. Nonetheless, they are doing much better now. Always remember to look out for your loved ones

[ComicalRealm]

"Sometimes, life will kick you around, but sooner or later, you realize you're not just a survivor. You're a warrior, and you're stronger than anything life throws your way." - Batman

[angelie]

I'm happy that you overcome Depression and then you shared it with us. This is actually helps us . I Wish you have big blessings you are really strong and amazing! ❤️

[Abbagium]

I've had depression, got rid of it and got it again. The second time was worse but managed to get rid of it, I'm now a little over 4 months depression free :D

[stephvandykeozzy]

I started having Depression when I was 14, around my high school years. It was hard. Having it is like a ball of chain that cuffs you all the time or a dark cloud that stays above you. Now that I’m in my 30’s, I did overcome it by working my passion for writing novels. Once in a while, though, the memories still haunt me. For anyone who is currently going through it or anyone who did fight it, I recommend to listen to music and be with your loved ones. I understand that it’s hard to talk about but sometimes you need to.

[corn]

When I was 11-12, I was at my worst. I cut off my family and friends, I starved myself, i stopped trying in class assignments, i had suicidal thoughts everyday, i stopped particpating in my hobbies, I drowned myself in gaming and tv shows and it eventually led me to cut four lines across my arms, two each arm. I was planning to do more until my family found out. When they did, they were devastated and wanted to know the source. Turns out it was the cause of subconscious bullying from my peers. I was so deep into my depression I did not even notice that what my classmates were doing was wrong. I remember having a talk to my teacher about the bullying and it stopped. This was the start of my recovery.

My parents stopped neglecting me, my father did his best to stay off his alcohol and they all made sure I didn’t cut myself again. I reconnected with my friends and hobbies. I worked harder in my studies. I started getting into physiology and I’m doing a lot better now.

However, just this year, my grandpa died and my other grandpa received brain damage after a nasty fall. Both my parents are in a severe depression but whenever I try to get them to help themselves they refuse. They are to stubborn. It has gotten to the point my dad attempted suicide while was intoxicated and my mother was thinking about slitting her wrists. How do I help people that do not want it and are to stubborn to get professional help? I don’t want my parents to do the same thing I did.