3 months of depression, documented

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[Amnah_Umar]

Even while stressed depressed lemon zest you continue to rock that flawless shampoo commercial hair

[MUSAFIRBEFIQR]

Feeling numb is the worst, today I cried for no reason and you know what crying is much better than not feeling anything.

[jzohqcv]

When I search up videos of people dealing with depression to try to feel not so alone, I end up feeling even more alone. Even other people with depression seem happier than me. People can see my depression on my face and my body language and they treat me differently because of it. I try to hide it and it still comes through. I hardly have the energy and motivation to fake a smile. I feel so alone.

[BrownGeorge-pwxo]

I was severely traumatized years ago as a teenage, got diagnosed with cptsd. Spent my whole life fighting cptsd. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until my mom recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.

[anon]

The thing about hurrying is an American mentality. Yesterday I saw there was a line behind me at self checkout but for once I decided I didn’t need to rush to finish as quick as possible and could do the task calmly. It’s not rude to slow down, it’s about giving weight and energy to the right things. Despite what American society tells you, you don’t need to be exceptional at anything, you can just vibe your whole life and it will be a great one! ~lessons from an Italian expat

[just_shhh]

I cried so hard while watching this video. I genuinely know how BAAAD it feels to feel empty. During the peak of my depression, it felt so scary and disgusting to wake up feeling empty, fall asleep at night still feeling empty, and going through the day and facing people with a smile, ALL while still feeling empty. I'm just really really happy that you have found even a glimpse of light in that dark cave you are currently in, Kaiti. I also thought before that there is no end in what I'm feeling.. but I'm proud to say that I am here, after almost 2 years.. present and alive. Not fully happy, not fully at peace, but still breathing and existing. Love you so much, my Kaiti Yoo. 💗

[zoeunlimited]

So incredibly proud of you Kaiti for being brave and vulnerable. Hope you feel better soon❤️‍🩹🫂

[eykyra]

I relate to this video so much. The pressure and guilt to work but you just can't. It's so hard to explain because life goes on but you're just paralyzed and can't move along with it so you feel worse as you miss out on things, events, deadlines... Despite we've been improving as a society in terms of raising awareness about it, this is a disease that's impossible to truly understand unless you experience it. So glad you decided to make a video about it. And so happy that treatment is working for you. We got this

[tsunami]

she is one of the strongest. the fact she took a risk and shared this with us, filmed it, and realize what she was going through. Take care, lots of support <3

[BreMue]

This is 100% how i felt the last few years. Went from a job i worked overtime becauase i was passionate about it to barely able to get anything at all done in a day.
Cycle of exhaustion, guilt, shame, fear

[yung_Latios]

It all sucks. I hate my job, I hate my life, no one wants to hangout, my family hates me, I have no time for myself I'm just a wage slave still struggling to get by. I do everything alone. I go outside everyday but it reminds me of everything I don't have. Seeing so many people enjoying themselves with tons of friends and then there's me, just some nobody no one cares about who's been completely left behind. I can relate to you so hard. Whatever days off I do have, I don't even get out of bed. My life is a complete regrettable waste. I wish I was never born.

[rosieee]

The scariest thing is that you seem so okay. People can not see what happens within a person if it is not an obvious wound. So much healing has to come and it will.
My dad died on this Christmas Day, I was only 14. My mum’s had serious mental health problems and has been unstable my entire life. I have been struggling so much and people can’t see it. It makes you feel helpless and invisible.
I just want to let anyone out there know that you will get through this. You can and will. Even though you have a lot to get through, the light is always lurking somewhere in the dark, you just have to find it.
Thank you Kaiti, for being vulnerable and sharing your experiences, hopefully everyone can grow and support each other. Smile at someone next time you see them, you never know how much they need it. ☀️

[whithehearthro]

Been there girl. I was also superwoman until I got depressed and realized I was a normal person. Gives you a lot more empathy!

[Galadhwen]

You say that you can’t even count on yourself to save you, but Kaiti, by turning down that brand deal, that is absolutely what you did. You followed your gut to do what is best for you right now, and that takes hella courage. Don’t believe everything you think. I’m proud of you! Be well.

[bellablack]

as someone who has depression, struggling and fighting tooth and nail each day, hearing that "roots grow deepest in the winters" literally made me cry. thank you.

[simonesquared]

aw my love you have so much support behind you, and a community and friends that love you. i hope you feel better soon. always here for you.

[katieweaver]

Kaiti, I’ve been following you for a while and I love your tiktoks, but this in incredibly refreshing and personal and as a person with chronic illness and mental health struggles, you are helping me feel less alone. I hope this comment helps you feel the same 💜 it’s so, so hard, and I have no advice for you, I respect you too much to do that. But I believe in you and your ability to make it through.

[murielf]

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest" - Matthew 11:28. Thank you for being vulnerable with us Kaiti, feel better 🤍

[kcd]

You spoke into what I'm going through. Thank you for your vulnerability Kaiti, you've been such a blessing!

[dancingbiologist]

proud of you for seeking help and getting on the meds! they saved my life. 2 years later i am now coming off of them. It gets better❤❤❤ lots of love