LIVING WITH DEPRESSION (Major Depressive Disorder)

If you struggle with depression, you have probably had people tell you to "just be happy." I want you guys to know that you should never feel bad for not being able to turn off your symptoms like a switch. I have tried over and over to seek help through my loved ones, and failed each time. I want you to see that it is not easy to get professional help. It is not easy to talk about this. But you cannot do this alone forever, take it from me. If there is anything I want you guys to take away from this video is it that you ARE NOT ALONE. I am here and I understand and what you are feeling is valid. I also need to tell you to get professional help if you haven't already. I love you guys.

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[valueinyou]

Having severe depression/anxiety is like being terrified and exhausted at the same time. It’s the fear of failure, coupled with no urge to be productive. It’s wanting friends but hating socializing. It’s wanting to be alone but not wanting to be lonely. It’s feeling everything bad at once, yet being paralyzingly numb to anything good. Wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. Also a former Catholic School kid who was abused by a neighbor multiple times. Have no idea how I found this channel but you articulated so extremely well it scared me....so well my stomach hurt and eyes welled up relating to it. It's indescribable...yet you did.

[michelleleuch]

You’re the reason I’m here today. You’re the reason I left my toxic & manipulative boyfriend over a year ago. You’re the reason I found real love. thank you.

[mystic_tacos]

Everything you described at the beginning of this; the depression, the anxiety, hopelessness, why am I here, what's it all for. I've felt all of that since I was 7 years old, and I'm now 47 years old. So many therapists, meds, and books, and still in the end I just say "I'm okay".

[katiemiller]

This is kind of an interesting observation. I notice that most people with any type of depression only find happiness in making others happy (including myself). It seems as though because we know our lives aren’t enjoyable, we like to make others lives enjoyable, even for just a moment. The only time I ever feel joy is seeing my dog get excited when I get home or help someone at my work. I can see how much those things mean to them.

[kbear]

You’re extremely intelligent, it’s often the smartest people that have the most demons to fight. This video is more important than you know. ❤️

[srebrenkabrecevic]

My tears just starting coming off every time she described every feeling she had. I felt that finally someone understood how was like to feel nothing…

[AnamIqbal]

"I'm hiding such a huge part of my life. I'm literally hiding everything." So frikkin relatable. Pretty much how I feel about every single interaction that I have whilst living with depression.

[sydneyfregozo]

I cried so much when you said “there is something that someone has said to at one point in your life and it still bothers you”

[crandonborth]

I know you’ll probably never see this, but I felt that video deep inside me. I pride myself as a big strong guy but damn when you teared up… I lost it. I found myself looking into your eyes and I could feel your emotions as I know exactly what you’re describing. You’re not alone and neither am I… We got this!! ❤❤

[ella]

The fact that you said you feel numb 50% of the time and that no one reached out to you when you told them how you were feeling made me tear up. I am genuinely so proud of you telling us this and giving advice! You are telling us that we are not alone, but I just want to say that YOU are not alone either! We all care about you!

[swagecca]

Man I needed this so bad. I can actually feel the wave of the depression coming on after having random glimpses of “happiness” it’s suffocating. It’s all the breath getting sucked out out of life and just the feeling of doom coming over me. I appreciate you for being real about your feelings

[gregaiken]

you are a light in a dark world. and an old soul. your wisdom will help many. you make thousands of people feel 'proud'. my hope and prayer is that one day you look behind you to close a door, and you see the positivity, hope, and love that lies in front of you. and you never look back.

[aimlessweekenders]

It’s important to also note that depression and anxiety can develop at any time in a persons life due to extreme circumstances. Some people can have depression for years and others for only a period of time. Some it’s hereditary and for others it’s not. The important part is to GET HELP, whether it’s family, friends, or a professional, even strangers sometimes understand is better than those close to us 💞

[DrOcelot]

You are amazing for posting this. Thank you. I was diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety today which led me here. Simply the tone of your voice sounds familiar to me, because it is how I sound. The numbness is exactly where I end up each week. Your point about people asking about how you are doing is so critical. I noticed a distinct change in my Father's voice today. Once he learned that I got this diagnosis he completely changed his stance, I think he is apologetic because he's been pushing me to get over it and maybe instead, should of listened to what I was communicating. I don't know what I want out of life, I am tired of being constantly pushed to set goals, hit the goals, and set new goals. I feel like I am having a existential crisis because even after achieving more than I could have ever imagined, I am not happy. Money doesn't mean anything if you aren't happy. The goals are all around superficial profession gains and to making more money. You really hit the nail on the head there too. The general way we live is arguably depressing by nature. I don't care if I have a Masters degree and all this experience and certifications if I am an anxious mess from day to day. My general plan is to try to get a work leave situation so I can have time to heal (something they said is strictly regulated). If the docs don't help with that, I am gonna quit my job and enjoy my first summer off in about 16 years. I don't care too much for medications, I am determined to use meditation, good food, exercise, and time off to start the process. Thank you for the video. It's helpful to know I am not alone and I am not crazy. Honestly that's really how I have felt for a while, like I'm just slowly loosing my mind.

[happytrails]

You sound just like my son. It has been going on for years. He says he feels nothing. Not sad, not happy, and sometimes feels suicidal. Feels dissociated and is very irritable. It is very hard for boys because they rarely ever want to talk about how they feel. Makes it twice as hard. Very difficult to deal with. I feel so sorry you are dealing with this. It is hard for both the person going thru it and the family that loves them.

[stevefrench]

Social media has absolutely manipulated, if not destroyed, our sense of self-worth. I hope you, and everyone out there who might be reading this understands that you ARE enough and that you ARE going to be okay. Our world is lacking love and transparency, so thank you for taking the time to open up to your audience. Just remember, the sun is behind *every* cloud. Things do get better ❤️

[protonman]

Serving others is one of the few things that actually brings about happiness.

[Mojooobrooke]

I’ve been struggling really bad lately and needed this. we hear you, we are here for you sweetie. Praying for you 🤍

[Ashley-nrod]

This hits do close to home for me I have anxiety depression and thyroid issues that affect me everyday
Edit: you guys are not alone if you read these reply comments you will see that ❤️

[EliBrink-dtdv]

Was recently diagnosed with chronic depression. Im exhausted, angry and this video is EXACTLY how I feel