11 WEEK MISSED MISCARRIAGE | MY EXPERIENCE

this was a lot more difficult to share than i thought it would be, but it was also more healing than i thought too... i started this channel the month after baby July would have been born in 2013, so thank you for being a part of my life & if this helps even 1 person then it's all worth it -- 2 Corinthians 1:3-4 "Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God."

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[Divine_ness]

im 11 weeks pregnant & I dont know why I watch videos like this but im so fearful of this happening to me because whos to say it wont im no different from the rest, right? that was so emotional for me to watch & I think your so strong to be able to share that. at least you have two beautiful healthy children & you seem like a wonderful mother

[That.Girl.Kyle.]

So sorry for your loss. no matter how far along. There was a baby that had a beating heart. you have every right to mourn. You're so strong. 💜

[noahsark]

No matter how small it was still a baby and a life.

[AntoinetteEmily]

I'm so sorry for your loss sweetie. Miscarriages are so incredibly painful and my heart goes out to you. I am watching this with tears running down my face as I'm just recovering from my 2nd miscarriage this year and it's all still so raw. You are so brave for sharing your story and by doing this you are helping so many women going through the same thing. xx

[Tahiya]

I am so sorry for your loss. My husband and I just lost our first baby at 7 weeks after trying for several years. Your video brings me comfort and helps me to know that I'm not alone in how I feel.

[TheShuiligans]

it takes so much strength to talk about things like this cos when you go through a miscarriage you feel completely alone, you just have to surrender because nothing you did or didn't do caused this little jellybean to pass! I had double miscarriage few years back and like you look at two yr olds I look at twins the exact same way....always the what if!!! But I am so grateful for the two healthy  little hooligans I do have they brighten my days so much. Fair play for being so open, honest and strong xxx

[ShellysShares]

Although I wish this journey upon No one I have found comfort in hearing others stories... thanks for sharing!!!

[DainaG]

I think those lil momentos you have from baby July are beautiful. a loss is never easy...but they will always be a part of your family

[mariethatsme]

I really appreciated hearing this. Thank you for sharing it.

[TheStaufferLife]

Aww this story totally made me cry reminded me of my two losses :/ Thinking of you regardless of how far along it was or when it happened:/

[JonesFamilyTravels]

We went through this too, it is tough but I agree it is important to share with others not only to help them but to heal yourself. Hugs to you <3

[elizabethanne]

Thank you for sharing. I don't think that your grief can and should be compared to another's mama's. A loss is a loss. I feel like each situation is individual, just as each child is. God is good! And He is looking after your Baby July and you will all be together one day!!

[skyluna]

big hugs. your story made me cry. you do not need to apologize for your feelings, or ramblings, or emotions. it was real and heartfelt. I've had 3 losses, after my first and only child and can completely understand the complex emotions. we are currently discussing options with our OBGYN and trying to figure out if a fertility specialist is the right way to go. thank you for sharing this often taboo and secretive subject.

[ShayleeDaily]

so sorry mama. Thanks for sharing your heart.

[LadybugGirlShow]

My mom lost my little brother. His name would have been Taylor. I grew up as an only child and remember my mom crying, missing my brother. My mom mourned him and probably still mourns him. A few years ago, my mom bought a tomb stone and had his name and dates engraved. She has it on her doorstep. I feel like it was her way of remembering him and creating a memorial. She always felt like she worked too hard and it was her fault. We lived on a farm and she blamed herself for working too hard. My mom even put a new roof on a house when she was pregnant with me. Very hard working lady but she should not have blamed herself.

[jenandzoe]

Oh Heidi, i totally get the whole feeling like there are people worse off and that maybe you shouldn't be as upset as them ( i feel like that about myself just hearing your story), i think it's an incredible thing sharing these stories that we don't always talk about (sometimes not even in our private lives), so thank you for sharing all that, even the whole what actually happens in the process etc, it's very brave putting all your thoughts and feelings out there like that. I have been so slack commenting these days, but really felt the need to write something on this video. So sorry for your loss, it'll be forever in your hearts xox

[kayleenweaver]

Heidi - you are so so so strong, and such a wonderful mom. To share your story in such an open and vulnerable way is so hard - I can't even imagine - but I know you will reach someone, touch someone's life that is going through a loss as well. I have been blessed with two pregnancies, and thankfully both are with me today. My mother, and several of my close friends have gone through losses as well - and though time does help, your feelings, the memories, the grief and the love that you had for baby July will still be there. It is ok to feel whatever you're feeling - let your emotions in and don't be afraid to talk about them. Sending you love, strength, and a blessing for your family xox

[deseraeward]

I know how you feel. They told me wk9, but my body thought I was still pregnant, I had all my symptoms. Then week 11 horrible pain and cramps. Went to the ER, and they did a pap and said I think we see the sack, then they scrapped and got out my baby and some clots. But the best thing that the doc did was ask me if I wanted to see my baby, and I was at peace looking at my gastational sack holding my precious baby still protected inside. I said a prayer and was able to start healing. It's weird hearing a doc say that you aren't pregnant anymore when the baby is still in you, or that the baby passed cause there's no heartbeat but the baby is still in you. My baby is named boba, it was the nickname my hubby gave the baby💕❤️

[silviamurillosalmeron]

Thanks for sharing your story. Im going through the same thing right now. and totally get every word and emotion that your saying. I am heart broken. My body is still havnt processed it through and it is hard each day. Praying yoy find healing over time. even though i dont think you wont get over it. im sorry for your loss!!

[Jackert]

just found this video and seeing how yoz have 4 instead of 2 kids now is proofing all the amazingness that's possible even as a miscarriage. thank you so much 💖💖💖 and all the very best for your future life together as a family 😊 💖 👪 🙏 🙌