I was Disappointed in God and Lost My Faith with Jason Gray

In this video, Jason Gray shares his story of how he lost faith in God. He talks about what led him to the place where he felt abandoned by God and why it was difficult for him to regain faith after that point.

[xwaazes]

Life was so much easier before becoming christian. Tribulations are non stop. I'm depressed all the time. I'm deeply hurt on a physical, mental and spiritual level where all three bleed into each other. I've been praying for God to deliver me from them but He never has. I'm drowning on dry land.

[shespeaks]

I've believed in God all of the days of my life but I've lost my faith to a great degree. I'm tired of the constant pain, loss and suffering. I don't even have a real prayer life anymore. I don't want to talk to God because it doesn't matter because He is going to let things happen to good people. Everyday I wonder when I open my eyes what new tragedy awaits me.

[Brizzo_-nqzi]

This last year within a three month period I lost my father, my wife had an affair on me and my cancer became very severe when I caught covid. It’s hard to hold faith in the darkest of times. It confusing to think about why god allows these things to happen. It’s the hardest chapter of my life as I am only 23 years old. I have to just continue to pray and live the best life I can.

[matthewj]

Losing my trust in God, has to be the most painful ordeal of my life.

[barbarasparks]

I am more miserable waiting for God to show up then I was before I was saved and I wonder what’s the point of having faith

[reneecrotty]

people don't realise how painful this experience is.

[DKMM]

It's very hard to see people who don't even acknowledge God live beautifully while you suffer as a born again Christian, nothing seems to be going well, career, finances, your overall well-being is a mess yet you pray, you trust and obey.😢

[Ready-ForTheEnd]

I've stopped praying. Just a week ago I lost my faith like breath blowing out a candle. Just sudden and abrupt. I convinced myself that this time would be different, that even after all the no's, God was going to bless my family with an income that was substantial to say the least. That God was just trying to teach me patience and hope. It would have helped us greatly with our child, a vehicle, food. And it didn't happen. Instead we were yet again skipped over for someone else. I cursed and cursed saying all sorts of vile things, that i wish the person who was chosen would just drop d*ad on the job. I am slowly but surely turning into a bitter person, a person who doesn't have love for their fellow man anymore. A person who doesn't even care for God anymore. It's not that I don't believe he exists, its just that i am convinced if he does exist he certainly doesn't care about any of us.

[DivinePurpose]

I am losing my faith right now because before I got saved, I was alot happier. I was a free spirit who was generally a happy person. Once I got saved, Ive gone through so much spiritual warfare and there is just alot of restrictions on my life I feel like once I got saved. Can't listen to specific music, can't do this, can't do that. It is very hard but what really was a breaking point for me was a group of people betrayed me when I did nothing wrong and here they are, living there lives happy, while here I am miserable. It's like I feel like Christianity is all about breaking you down where you feel you lost control of your free will.

[kemreaktion]

I am reading through the comments. It looks like a lot of people are hurting. I used to be on fire for God and served in many church ministries, even leading a Bible study class. I used to pray daily and many times I have followed a program to read the Bible (OT and NT) in one year, so I have read it from cover-to-cover numerous times. However, I have lost my faith due to a series of terrible and sad events in my life, but I still go to church looking for that one thing that will turn my faith back on, like he said in the video. So far, I have not been successful, and I was hoping he would share which psalm did that for him. I cried when I heard the song On Fire (Sanctus Real) the first time, because that was me. Pray for me is all I ask.

[LadyJpraiseunbound]

Finally, someone who is where I am and knows the depths of just no longer having faith. Built your life around it, hope in it, yet find yourself very disappointed with the outcomes. Church, small grpup, prayer, sozos, but nothing. I've been here for a decade now. Just dead on inside

[themusicpluspodcast]

I was full of life.. until i lost my dad and my young brother on the same day.. its been 4 months and my life is miserable.. i have no hope left in life anymore.. i pray that no one goes through the amount of pain I'm passing through.. i still have my faith in God but i feel like i have lost hope in life.

[nwadi]

I can’t feel God any longer. I never thought I’d feel this way. God has broken my spirit.

[AndiSchneider]

That hit home right now. Things are so hard, and I feel like I'm drowning. Its so hard to keep holding onto your faith when your world is crashing down, but I always keep fighting.

[ttimnok]

I've been seeking God for years. Despite my seeking I feel empty. I'll continue to seek so but I'm very discouraged about it all.

[GermanGonzalezV]

I never knew darkness as I’m experiencing it now. Still looking for direction, but your words shed some light to my way. Thanks bro.

[pottersfieldmusic]

THANK YOU!! I’ve been through this but we Christians don’t share..sharing HEALS others. We need more transparency like this, thank you for stepping out and sharing

[beekeeper]

It's comforting to know I'm not the only one who's felt that way... thank you for sharing.

[Itsjustbritt]

This helps me so much. I’ve been in such a dark season for some time now. I’ve been depressed and anxious and ultimately just sad. Sometimes I get discouraged because it feels like I don’t have the Holy Spirit anymore. Then from there I just spiral into thinking that God is done with me and has thrown me away because I’ve sinned and been disobedient too much. It feels never ending but this gave me hope.

[leejones]

I’ve been very ill. Doctors are worthless. I always believed God would step in when I really needed him. I’ve prayed so many nights to be healed or let me die. I just have nightmares and wake to a nightmare. I still have faith. God works in his time. Blessing to all.