My Worst Crush on a Straight Guy

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[scdobserver]

Black eyes and white white skin? He's a vampire, dude!

[Davaglieo]

I 100% relate to this… literally down to the “girlfriend” drop. I cried so bad that night. So embarrassing. But I know a lot of people go through this. I’m so glad to hear people, especially other gay men, opening up about it.

[Robsav-yxvi]

Matt, so true . You definitely deserve a decent human being.
Thank you for your honesty.

[nabuchodonosormcgalapatram]

That time I got a crush on a straight guy who was the first person irl I told I was gay, it was pretty early in our friendship too. Turns out he's a great, kind and supportive guy and nowadays, I'll consider him as one of my best friends.


Years later, I'm still not over that crush, I might even be in love...
That sucks...

[calvindavis]

Hell, I've had so many crushes on straight guys and it does drive you crazy. One guy that I worked with used to come by my place a lot after work. He was so damn good looking. He came by so often that my crush started getting worse. I knew he was straight but also single. He knew I was single but not about me being gay. But another friend of mine who he slightly got to know assumed he knew I was gay and blurted something out about my previous "boyfriend". It was out. He said nothing and even came back the next day. But then, I had to have that conversation with him. He assured me that it didn't matter. But as he came more and more often, he would ask me questions. Questions about gay sex. That went right to my head. I was happy to answer all the easy questions that he wanted. Then eventually, I asked him if he ever had an experience or thought about it. He said no. But he kept asking me sexual questions and at some point, they became uncomfortable to answer, but I did anyway, to satisfy all of his curiosity. And of course I thought be was hinting that he wanted to try something and I ask. I told him I'd be happy to try sometimes with him. He said mo, no, in a shy way. It was not clear he meant mo, never. His tone always left a hint as if he was really wanting to do this. I would get more excited with each conversation thinking he's going to say yes eventually. He never did though even though I asked multiple times. It never scared him away though which was impressive and curious at the same time. Nothing ever happened and eventually I got another job at a different location and never saw him again. I suppose that since we were no longer working in the same area, but the same company I might add, he didn't think it was OK to visit and never called again. But for some reason, I still to this day think that he really wanted to and it simply scared him somehow. Who knows. But I hated that we stopped having our visits.

[jimmurray]

Man I've been there, I feel your pain! Keep strong! Huge crush on my grade school best friend....until is wedding!

[nicholasb]

It's happened to me about four times. They're always the most intense crushes. And I'm going through it currently, lol. It's worse when they know you're gay and are either really dense or intentionally try to play with your heart. And it's amazing you can hold out hope against every clear indication when they're nice to you, like you as a person, and give you attention.

[toddgray]

Going through the finishing stages of this rn it’s been 2 years I understand the deep sighs so much. Literally understand so much!!! All we can do is keeping our head up kings 🤞🏾

[kbqwdyt]

Honestly, having a crush on a straight guy seems much less complicated than having a crush on a gay guy who's playing hard to get, which is my situation ATM.

[llllll]

THANKYOU so much for sharing this - I have struggled so much with a crush I’ve had on a guy from my last year of high school (1993), so it’s great hearing someone who has gone through the same thing.

[fortegac]

Going through this thing and it’s definitely heartbreaking.

[symin]

My crush lasted 4 years. We met one winter and ended up living together after 6 months of knowing one another. Everyone at work were convinced we were a couple...even his mom, brother and grandmother thought we were a couple. We lived together, worked together, traveled together and spent holidays together with his family. When I decided to move out of state, he was planning to move with me, and the “kick in the chest” was when he said, “once we move, we can find girlfriends!” I moved and left him behind...

[kennethkauzlaric]

Nice to see you again. Unfortunately, most of us have been in that position. I had a heartbreaking crush on my straight best friend, in college. When he realized what was going on he stopped hanging around me and transferred to a different college. Thanks to mutual friends, we reconnected and are now friends again. Everything works out the way it's supposed to, if they are meant to be in your life.🏳️‍🌈

[DanTowey]

The unattainable butch masc bad boy. We've ALL crushed on one... at least once

[ginoqt]

I truly appreciate your honesty and this video hits home. Shit, the truth hurts.

[marth]

First Matt I’m just so happy to see you again. Looking great man. Don’t overthink that crush....it was pheromones....and pheromones know no sexual orientation. It’s happened to me so often in my life I’ve lost count. Usually the straight guys I fell for were actually ok guys and sometimes I even told them how I felt and it was cool even though it was a game changer. But once (about 6years ago) the same thing happened to me like it did with you and Brandon. The guy was everything. Super fit and good looking, outgoing, intelligent etc. but 1) he was straight and 2) he was totally self-centred. He was fine that I as gay but he played on flirted and drew me in and used my time and my energy always getting me to do stuff for him (in short, he manipulated me). I was 100% hooked and I’m no dummy. The very thought of him made me weak at the knees and when I was with him, well, let’s just say it was like being under a spell. I thought I was in love with him (maybe I was) but he was a user and self centred and manipulative and I actually knew that all along .... so I think it was mostly pheromones. I know that now (he started seeing a woman but never told me so he could keep me as a soft touch for him as long as it suited him. I found out and he was cocky and cruel about it). Do I feel like a fool? I did but not any more. What I felt was natural....it happens. I came through it. But I’m not sure I’ve let go of my thing about straight Keep posting when you can Matt. I love it when you drop by (and break my quarantine lockdown blues). ❤️❤️👍🏼

[lpforever]

Yup, so well known as a process and situation ... maybe some of the meanness from his side was because he was attracted to you. Good take away is that you do have a heart and can relate emotionally, maybe Mr. B. was not able to emote. Great to see you again here.

[oquefizhoje]

Hi. Welcome. You were obsessed. Most of the time i feel something strong and end up feeling some source of depression. I know that feeling. But you know what? We are feeling this way cause we are alive. Very good story telling. Thank you Matt for cheering that.

[ncrouch]

Needed to hear this. Definitely put some things into perspective for me. Currently trying to get over a crush and like word for word I can relate to your experience. Sorry you had to go through that. Trying to refocus my feelings somewhere else, but its really tough sometimes. I think Im almost there though.

[jojozozo]

This guy is making a video about his staright crush, when he looks like many people's straight crushes