Why I Left The Pentecostal Church | Destiney Ivy

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HEY EVERYONE! So I know you're coming across this video and have remarks and opinions on it...that is totally fine! Just know that this video was made almost a year ago & my views and confusion have been put to rest and I finally have peace in my decision. I took sabbatical from this independent Pentecostal church in July of 2015 and for good in April of 2016 and have never looked back. After years of distancing myself, I see how wrong so much of the doctrine was. I have sought counseling from multiple pastors of different denominations as well as professional help from licensed therapists and they all say the same. The church i was attending was subliminally brain washing and manipulating of emotions through demonstrations of the Spirit. While i do believe every adult has their own choice when it comes to these matters, my heart does break for the youth I left behind and the children being raised in this "message". Religion was the very thing Jesus came to overthrow and it is disappointing that churches still fall into the mess of Pharisee religion. If my newer videos do not show the true life and love of Jesus overflowing from my heart, then I do not know what will."

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[lizzierufo]

Wow! Thank you for sharing this with us. It's a great reminder that we don't do ANYTHING to save ourselves and that we don't have to follow rules in order for God to love us. We should serve and worship God because of everything that he's done for us in saving us and making us righteous. We should want to love him because of who he is, not because of the things we do for him. Praying for you girl!

[Courtneyhuggins]

When I first joined the Pentecostal church I loved it, I did had some questions about it, like why do the women and young girls wear skirts? why don't they not wear pants? jewelry? makeup? what is this speaking in tongues thing? I had all these questions, but yet I thought the church was pretty interesting, I love the worship and the preachings. One day I experienced the Holy Ghost, I started to speaking in tongues, in wayyy back in my mind I was saying whoooa what is this? What am I say? Why am I crying? It felt light, it felt like not having control over my tongue haha, I was yelling out. I didn't understand it, but I was in peace when I experienced it. Then after that I was baptized, then I wanted too join the choir. When I told the pastor that I wanted to sing, because a little after I joined the church I sung amazing grace and everybody knew that I sing, and that I should join the choir, so after I told the pastor that I wanted to sing, we had a long conversation, he was teaching me what bible says, about how we should live, he taught me the word holiness meaning being "set apart" from the world. We talked about clothing, jewelry, & makeup. The most questioning I had more about was women not wearing pants, this whole topic got me questioning a lot, I did a lot of research on it, I look for bible scriptures, I couldn't find it, only thing I found was Deuteronomy 22:5, it doesn't really go into detail like how they explain about jewelry and makeup about how women shouldn't adorn themselves with these things, which i understand that 100%, it's just the only thing I didn't completely or fully understand was Deuteronomy 22:5. It's didn't specially says women shouldn't wear pants it just states a women shouldn't wear anything that pertains to a man, so I still did a lot research, I started to read how did the people dress way back in biblical time etc. fast forwarding, I went ahead and started dressing modest, no makeup, no jewelry, and I joined the choir, I build strong relationship with Christ. I've been in the Pentecostal for 6 years, then maybe about a year ago, I stop singing, I went back into the world meaning wearing fashionable pants, a little makeup (wasn't a huge fan of it), wearing jewelry and I lost my connection with god. I told myself I don't this is not the way how I see it, the way how they see it, My auntie was criticizing the church she THOUGHT this was not the way, she THOUGH the Pentecostal wasn't right etc. so began to listen to her, and agreeing with her, and I stop going to church a long time back when I was in my senior year (2013) until I decided to get into it this year. My whole point was that I was wrong, I listen to people on what they think, I begin to pray a lot, I asked god to show me the way, and I felt like he leading back to the Pentecostal, I felt like he was telling to live in that lifestyle that what I call it haha. Everyday I prayed, I read the Bible (still learning to read it). I knew what had to do, I had to build a relationship with him, it's like before I let go of Christ and realized he never let go of me. so I repented, I was always filled with his Holy Spirit. I didn't no longer felt lost. I love worshipping Jesus. I'm back in the choir, I love living in holiness, I knew wearing makeup and that stuff wasn't who I am, we are beautiful without those things, we are beautiful when we have Christ. God bless love!

[AlexisKamille]

wow congrats on your journey!! I left the pentecostal church in my late teens and the journey of knowing Gods grace is so incredible. No more emotional breakdowns, searching for feelings. Just a journey of assurance of Gods love for me.

[MorganTracyJ]

This video touched me so much. Yes, the ending hit home. Our relationship with God isn't a crazy to do list. It's literally being an open vessle and have and ear that hears! Thank you for this video!

[shaianne.d.p]

The Bible talks about hair, dressing modesty, etc.. but God works on the inward of us not outward first then inward...

[AJTramberg]

Charismatic/Pentacostal chaos leaves many exhausted and confused.

[niamhnidhalaigh]

True spiritual growth comes from spending time alone with God seeking him with all your heart, spending time in his Word. We really shouldn't rely on our feelings but to lean on the truth in God's word. Seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness and all these things will be added to you.

[austino]

Thank you Father for delivering her from every type of oppression! We just lift her up right now Lord, and plea the blood of Jesus over the entirety of her being. We thank you for the miraculous restorations that you have and will bring upon her life. Show her the abundance of your love and grace. Speak to her Father and show her your might! In Jesus name amen! (Let every like be an amen.)

[aaron]

I think this could've been less about the Pentecostal Church and more about spiritual warfare.

[christinelinder]

girl. I am currently 21 yrs old and I go to an apostolic church and felt the exact SAME thing. I began going at the age of 18 and loved loved this new lifestyle. Years went by and literally everything started falling apart. I had no friends i had to leave my family and I felt completely alone. Like you said it just became the SAME thing over and over again. I would wake up go to work and church and just repeat. And my anxiety became worse my depression . I even became extremely suicidal. I hated life. I let these feelings become bigger than God. I wanted to quit church because I also worked with some Christian co workers and they looked happy the way they were. Even co workers that don't even believe in God looked happier than me. When you said that one song or sermon would help you get by or get you back on track again (can't remember your exact words)it hit home!! Now I ain't going to lie when it comes to me praying, fasting,and reading my bible i completely fail at that. But girl I learned a that YOU need to keep that feeling going . Don't let that fire burn out. Remember the devil is a LIAR he would do anything to let you get out of God's will. You know what you need to do when you start battling in your mind? You tell the devil he is a LIAR and he ain't going to take your victory . You throw scripture his way !!! Remember that God is by YOUR side. You have to evaluate yourself and say well have i been faithful to God? Have i had a good prayer life? Prayer seriously changes everything. Just become an open book to God and give all to him sis. It's not easy but it'll be worth it at the end. Well done good and faithful servant! Heaven is going to be my home. I pray that God leads you the way! God bless :D

[barrycalaway]

Hi Destiney. My name is Barry. I was in the Pentecostal Cult for six years. At first I thought it was the true church. After awhile I felt like an outsider. The hierarchy of the Church broke my spirit every chance they could. Me my mother and younger sister were the only minorities in the church. After six years I left broken.

[RainbowCalamity]

I'm so glad that you've done what you needed to for yourself :) I'm working on my own personal journey with God dealing with some of the same issues. Sending lots of love and prayers your way! <3

[duchessandmariedisneycrewv]

Been there done that Destiny. But, but, If you choose to be a part of Gods Kingdom it ALL ABOUT HIM. Not a crowd, not about this world, not about clothes, not about a church, or culture, Its About Jesus Christ. I know where your at, but theres more Destiny, so much more in store. I suggest just focusing on Him the rest will fall into place.

[night_owl_sadness]

When you have a relationship with God you're supposed to be happy and smile at least most of the time I've been to an United Pentecostal church and I know people that are United Pentecostal and I have noticed a lot of them don't smile

[aliciaj]

This honesty is refreshing and inspiring. Thank you for sharing. Many, many of us have had (similar or not similar) struggles with our faith and relationship with God. I feel that my last year has been a very transformative year, for my faith. I am glad to see you moving forward in your transformation and finding yourself and readjusting your relationship with the Lord.

[angelgonzalez]

I grew up pentecostal. My father was a pastor and married my wife who's dad was also a pastor. It was so hard for me to get my wife mindset out of their belief system. How did I realize their teaching was wrong! Simple I read the bible for myself. The mountains of contradiction they teach were outstanding to me.

[MrRiffMusic]

I know exactly where you are coming from, I have experienced much of what you have mentioned.

I went to a Pentecostal church for 4 years and near the end of my time there I was just not feeling it as the congregation and pastors became increasingly domineering and somewhat.. (dare I say it) ..fascist. Blatantly telling the congregation to disassociate with non-believers, homosexuals and drug users. I felt a very bad vibe from all of this and I wanted out! I found that simply just not going for a while (5 months in my case) was an easy way out.

I couldn’t really figure out how to put it to them. It wasn’t until I showed up for the first time in 5 months. They pulled into an intervention and accused me of heresy, drug use and leading several of my non-Pentecostal/non-believer friends onto the pathway to hell for simply not playing Christian/worship music. It was stretched over a course of 2 months and full on reduced me to tears. It nearly ruined my music career and they nearly ruined my relationship. I couldn’t seek much help, I couldn’t get any relief whatsoever and was nearly about to have a nervous breakdown.

They later took it all out on my partner via social media, which unbelievably enough caused us to temporarily break up. I got pretty angry and very upset later. I even stomped my feet very loudly in the service room, power walking, nudging the youth leader that caused all the shit to begin with and slammed the door on him after just telling him to “f*** off!!” Yet they still wanted me in, and a whole group of 12, they forcefully laid their hands on me and started speaking in tongues.

Ultimately, I left. As soon as I did, I cut all ties with them. They have tried contacting me several times even after not being there for 3 years. I have ultimately just blocked them all. Life has never felt so much better ever since.

[richarddube]

I felt almost the same thing as you...thank you for your honesty.

[summerdawn]

I've been semi-away from a pretty strict Pentecostal church for a little over a year now, and if my heart could speak your words would come out. I don't feel "brainwashed" but I feel I was hardwired to seek praise from doing what is expected of me according to the people of the church because the praise I received was so overwhelmingly positive. "Summer took her earrings out, Summer stopped wearing pants, Summer stopped wearing makeup!" and now I look back and almost feel a sense of disgust with myself because I was doing these things to please the people, not God. I wasn't myself and had felt like the biggest liar in my own life.
Thank you for sharing your story <3

[LovingArmywife]

Exactly how I feel! I grew up pentecostal now I am non denomination