What You Don't Know About Ashly

This video deals with sensitive content relating to a mental disorder and body-focused repetitive behavior. Viewer discretion is advised.

Resources to learn more about trichotillomania, find support, and find help:
National Alliance on Mental Illness:

Counseling:

Talk Space
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Training Clinics

YMCA
YMCAs may offer low-cost or sliding-scale counseling services

Community Mental Health Centers
Community mental health centers often provide free or low-cost therapy options, which are also covered by Medicaid insurance.
For more specific information, check out your state’s government website.

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Ashly Perez
@itsashlyperez

[maddieherbster]

As soon as Ashly said trichotillomania I started crying. NO ONE in the media talks about trich. I've always felt trich 'doesn't count' as a mental illness. It's so incredibly isolating and to find out that Ashly has it too is... I cant even describe it. THANK YOU FOR TALKING ABOUT THIS

[issafraud]

If you remember Ashdrew you’re qualified for a veterans discount

[reghiejosefclementeii]

Make this a series for mental health awareness. This is what YouTube needs right now not just goofy content but something to learn from.

EDIT: OH WOW ALMOST 900 LIKES. LOOKS LIKE THE PEOPLE AGREE TO MAKE THIS A SERIES.

[navyasanthosh]

"It's crazy to say to anyone who has a mental illness- don't be depressed, don't have anxiety, don't pick your head, because if it was that easy, then I would have done it."


This sentence she said is so true and so strong. Everyone needs to get this sentence WIRED INTO THEIR HEADS.


It just hit me in the feels so hard because of how true and relatable this sentence is.

[katherinegallo]

I’m tearing up. Trich has been such an, unfortunately, big part of my life, and I feel like I’ve never seen it represented like this. Thank you SO much. This means the world.

[marjoreee]

Ashly no matter what happens

You will always be loved❤️❤️❤️

[madelinefeller]

I feel like nowadays people often glorify mental health like depression and anxiety, but people with bfrbs and similar mental health issues/disorders are not known and extremely hated. I can’t even tell how many people have been mean to me about my trich. as a popular content creater thank you for speaking out like this. me and all the other people who struggle with similar issues feel so alone and finding out that someone I really like and kinda look up to struggles with the same things as me means so much.

[sunfire]

I’m almost crying tears of joy. I can’t believe I found a person who I thought was perfect, has a disorder like me.

[rosyposey]

the minute you said “hair pulling” i literally got goosebumps, i have this and *no one* talks about it, because it feels really shameful and weird. you’re someone that i really look up to, and hearing you say that you have this too makes me feel so much more seen. thank you 💕

[erical]

Thanks Ashly, you've inspired me to seek help for my suspected OCD before it gets worse in the future <3

[lifeisconfuzzilifying]

Who put the suspenseful music over top of this? She's being so vulnerable and y'all are making it sound like a goddamn horror film

[izzymacri]

I FINALLY FOUND SOMEONE WHO ACTUALLY HAS IT TOO IM CRYING

[ilikefries]

I've had trichotillomania for about 5years now. I'd look up to all these gorgeous people with gorgeous hair and I'd beat myself up for wanting to stop but it's hard. It gets really bad in exam season. I just want to keep on pulling and pulling. I can't believe that so many people in the comments are talking about this. This makes me feel accepted. I told my family about it and they just said me to stop doing it. It's hard to stop. There hasn't been a single trichotillomania free day. I have bald patches on my head now. I just want it to stop. I've considered going bald but it would make the bald patches more affluent. I just want it to stop. Thank you for sharing this video. Thank you so much.

[thehopeofeden]

I'm loving this series. It makes people feel like they're not alone. I'd love more episodes.

[rachelmarks]

Ashly, my bff has this disorder, and she’s almost 40 and is just coming to terms with it. She’s letting her eyelashes grow out and she gets so excited to wear mascara! She still has a lot of self-work to do; she still picks her eyebrows and will pick stray hairs all day if you let her. I’ll be sending this vid to her for sure. Good luck, Ashly, in your trichotillomania-free future ♥️

[meilanie.hernandez]

I am a 13 year old struggling with trich. Ive been doing it since I was 9 years old. I remember very specifically a moment where all my eyelashes had grown back. I ran in my mom's room and was so proud of myself. I went back into my room to go to sleep and I started pulling the minute I layed down. All the months I spent trying my best to fight the urge off all of my progress disappeared. As I get older I'm more open about it. Although I am afraid of looking people straight in the eye fearful that they will say something about it. Im still very much struggling with it now. Going through these changes that come with age arent a huge help either. When I pressed on this video I felt everything come back into play. I started remembering the first time I ever pulled, the first night I looked it up To see what was bothering me. This video actually gave me hope tonight. I know I stopped before and I know I can stop again.

[cezza]

I hate when people say "just stop being depressed" or something. It makes me so annoyed. Thanks for releasing this video.

[Just_Jayy]

This video is going to help so so many people. Thank you Ashly for being so brave 💕

[PixxiBug]

I have trichotillomania too!! You're not alone Ashly!! <3

[makeupbyemely]

The moment she said “Trichotillomania”, I busted into tears. I have struggled with this compulsive disorder for 7 years now, and recently I’ve been struggling with so much more. This video made me feel a little less alone, and it gave me enough comfort to believe that things won’t feel nor be this way forever. Thank you for this video.