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[rycs]

It takes balls to make a video like this.... Good job Ash.

[RedMinotaur]

I can relate to your struggles brother, as I too have an addictive personality that often makes things worse. As a result, I find myself without many friends and spending most of my time at home. It's not for lack of trying, but it feels like I'm stuck in a never-ending cycle. Originally from a military background, I have served and retired before moving to the mainland, which has left me far away from my family. I yearn to get back into my passion for role-playing and war gaming, but my depression and sense of loss from leaving the military have held me back. However, watching your video on addiction has given me some solace and comfort, knowing that I am not alone in my struggles. Thank you for sharing your story and bringing awareness to this issue. Keep the videos strong ASH!

[logie]

Proud of you ash! It takes alot to talk about addiction and what comes with it. It's hard having an addictive personality when it comes to many things in life. I was a drug addict for half of my life, been clean from hard drugs for almost 7 years now. But addiction changes form, I became a food addict and gained alot of weight. Got to a point where I didn't like what I seen in the mirror, and then became addicted to intermittent fasting and jogging, which then again I took to far and got way to lean and looked unhealthy. From there it turned into alcohol and Marijuana addiction, which almost ruined my relationship with my fiance, and now raid. I was f2p for the first year of raid but I find that it's creeping up on me again, spending a few hundred here or there. I try to limit and budget my spending now because I know what I will do for dopamine. It's a blessing in some regards (as I have started working out now and feel better than ever) but it can also be a curse. Just one day at a time, some days even just one minute at a time. You got this Ash, proud of you ❤ keep being you.

[Ziji]

Ash, please know your videos make an impact beyond the game. I visit your channel for the positivity first and foremost. I legit go out of my way to think of a comment to leave on every other video as a way of supporting the channel. I don't even know what I am talking about half the time. But it's important to me to support your channel in any way I can and here's why...

I've fought literal addiction before. This video resonates with me. Long story short, I've been in two awful car wrecks in my life. Neither of which was my fault. The latest one literally ruined my life as I know it. I didn't break bones or lose a limb. The injury was actually fairly small, but in one of the worst areas of your body to experience any sort of injury - my neck. I dealt with crippling pain in both situations, but this latest one was something else. I felt that addiction the first time around with the drugs. I was terrified to take them again. When I felt as though I was done this time, I quit them cold turkey (in a safe way) and walked away. I wasn't going to let them beat me again. My pain is still there and is immense. Almost impossible to deal with some days. It was monumentally worse before surgery and I had the darkest of thoughts. I still need pain relief, but I am terrified to revisit chemical treatment. I turned my addiction fight into other wins. I made a lifestyle change and stopped the food addiction which was also related to pain. Research dopamine detoxing...New research is looking into sugar as the og gateway substance. It's how we are initially introduced to large dopamine surges. It's important to understand the source of problem before attempting a solution. Anyway... fast forward to Raid. I do spend and I play religiously. But I do it for the same reason I come to this channel: I found positivity and joy in a community. I desperately need that on days when I am struggling. I quit so much other unnecessary spending on garbage that I have some play money. I choose to use it on Raid. I do have a strict budget. Is it a new addiction? Maybe. But it doesn't feel the same way. I thought it provided zero purpose until today. One of my clan mates is going through a terrible time. I poured my heart out to them in support. Maybe it helped in a big way? If it did, all that time and money spent is worth it. If I know I impacted them or any other person for the better, it's all worth it. I came for the game and stayed for the community. I choose to support a game that brings that community together. That said, I am super worried about the "so much to do to stay relevant it's a chore" opinion I am seeing more and more. I'd hate to lose access to the community for reasons stated.

[BubbaBasher]

I guarantee this applies to a lot more than 5% of people. But only 5% of people are going to hear what you are saying. Appreciate these videos. Since I started watching you these videos have always been my favorite types of videos! I came for Raid and stayed for Ash. You are down to earth and your perspective on things is always insightful even if you are saying basic stuff like "addiction is bad/tough". You are right though, even with just talking about these things that speaks to people who want to listen. I like getting the real you. The "I am an actual person too" you. I got some of the same addictive issues personally. It was investing (in the gambling way), then it was another phone game, then it was RAID. Thankfully at this point my addictions are a lot cheaper on the pocket but this is stuff I have struggled with too. Addiction is tough and it should not take seeing a bank statement, or looking in the mirror, or whatever it takes to realize that there may be a problem, but somehow it does. For me my addictions have backed me into a corner financially and they have forced me to break them but I understand for others it may not be that easy to overcome. I play raid but I do not hardly ever spend anymore. I dropped other games that encourage spending. I stopped going on robin hood everyday. Things like that have helped my specific addictions. However, the food one still gets me a lot. I am up in weight, then I am down in weight. I think that one gets a lot of people. Whatever the addiction is, the worse feeling is when you finally feed that addiction and you sit back and you realize that the addiction won that day, or your broke, or you are up 10 pounds, etc. That feeling is the worse feeling and it leads to an overall negative mindset surrounding normal things. Spending broke me financially a few times and dug me into a hole. Eating has made me hate the man in the mirror more times than I can count. It is crazy how I can be so excited to eat but then when I actually get done eating, the disgust in myself that can come with that. All these addictions do that to someone. Talking about these things are good. I wish I could say I have an underlying message or positive take but I do not really. What I can say is ask yourself does the path you are on lead you to the man or women you want to be when you dream about where you are going? If the answer is no, you gotta find the strength to make the change. Something that could work is maybe a healthier addiction (the gym/exercise, reading, walks, painting, anything else that may actually be more meditative and habilitative than destructive). The gym has been that for me on and off. Work has been that for me forever. For someone else it could be something else. A lot of the time it is not about stopping the things you are addicted to completely it is about creating a healthier relationship with that thing you might be addicted to. You do not always have to quit all at once, just manage and regulate what is too much and what is not (create a strict budget, follow a calorie goal, limit when you can drink and how much, etc.)...
IDK I am rambling as I tend to do but I really appreciate your perspective and I think these types of videos are the best videos that you make. AGAIN, I came for the raid and I stayed for the Ash! Thank you Ash!

[jasonstewart]

Well……..I wasn’t ready for this today…thank you sir. I can’t overstate how much a video like this means to some of us out here struggling. Not everyone has a family or a support system to turn to when things are tough. Some turn to drugs & alcohol, some to gambling, some to both and all. I’ve struggled for well over 10 years with addictions to a plethora of narcotics from pills and weed to alcohol and cocaine then to raid and working. Ive done a lot to work on myself but I know I’ve got much more to do. Your motivation is more appreciated to some than you will ever know Ash. You’re a good person regardless of what mistakes you’ve made in life. We appreciate you more than you know

[jeannie]

Ash thank you for this. I was in a horrible car accident 19 years ago. I have my neck fused, my back fused, missing ribs, have 2 neuro stimulators to control muscle spasms and nerve pain. I have nerve damage down left arm and leg. I am blessed to be alive. I walk and can do everything you do, except I can't lift more then about 10 maybe 15 pounds. I am truly a walking spinal cord injury.
As a retired nurse, I refused to become addicted to pain meds. I know it would be so much easier. But I could never put my husband and kids through some of the things I saw as a nurse.
I found my pain relief in WOW doing PVP. I would play sometimes 18 Plus hours a day. I was ranked the number 10 mage on server at 1 time. I didn't realize my addiction to it untill my daughter had an event at school and I said "Sorry I can't, I have a raid" At the at minute I shut the computer off and never played it again.
I am lvl 100 in Raid, F2P and I play when I want to, it doesn't have a leash on me.
Addiction is hard to realize when you're in it, but feels so much better when you let it go

[chrismacurdy]

16 years clean from cocain, 20 months from weed, in 20 months I have had 5 drinks compared to a 6 pack or pint per night. In my early 20s I was drinking 2 5ths and 2 pints a day. I'm a much better me now days. Congratulations on your time clean. Yes it can be hard, but you got this man. Wish I had a way to connect with you better than YouTube. Just in case you needed someone to talk with. I have been watching your content since the start of raid.

[bront_catherder]

One of the best things I started doing with Raid was not forcing myself to do my dailies ASAP after reset, and occasionally letting my energy fill up. It seems small, but being able to set the game aside and do something else, be it play another game, or spend time with friends and family, being able to set Raid down or miss a daily quest has made Raid that much less stressfull. It's allowed me to open up to other interests again, reconnect with people more, and honestly I enjoy the time I do spend with Raid more as a result.

Moderation is always the key. Raid is a Game, and it should be fun to play, not a chore you feel you need to do because you've invested in it (time, money, or both). Keep it real Ash, glad you're doing OK.

[PatchesRNG]

Babe wake up new philosophy with ash just dropped

[ryanbennett]

Good on you for recognizing it Ash, it isn't easy to admit when we've got a problem.

While I'm not sure if I have an addictive personality, I sure do have a tendency to spend on games, regardless of genre (be it cosmetics, un-needed DLCs, etc). Especially as I lack any other hobbies.


Raid is my online mobile game, and gacha game I play. I do spend more than I probably should, I easily could just buy more games, or save it, and I think it is important that we recognize that when we play games like this.

There will always be people who will tell you other wise, but so long as being a CC for Raid is something you enjoy doing, then keep doing it.

[Sergio_AKA_MightyPants]

Thank you Ash, truly. Thank for taking the time to make this video and have this conversation. As others have said, they came for Raid but stayed for you. My first content creator that i watched for Raid was Hellhades, still really enjoy their content too. Then I found you shortly after. Partly your excitement in almost every video, partly the fun ideas you have for videos (nuke-off is my favorite of recent ideas!), but mostly your positivity. Even though you say it at the start of every video, I still enjoy hearing you send love and positive vibes our way, especially if we need it out here.

I know it's helped me at times when I've needed it, and I can't even imagine how many others it has also helped. We thank you for being you, Ash!

[jessegonzalez]

Ash I have followed you for a very long time. And to be honest. This has been your best video yet. I feel proud of you! Stay strong bud!

[jaythay]

It's quite rare to see someone sharing something quite personal in the public, it does take a lot of courage to be open about it.
Looking back at my life I've had some difficult times and addictions as well, mostly due to some family issues from childhood.
As I grow older I've found ways to cope and minimize those bad habits, one you suggested is finding more healthier habits.
Going out and exercise regularly does help, spending time with family also helps, watching TV/movies and gaming helps too, but one may argue it's just another form of addiction. Be that as it may, it's a milder form and more healthier compared to others.
For the majority of the people who watch your videos regularly, we all have one thing in common: we enjoy playing Raids Shadow Legends, and we also enjoy watching your videos for insights and strategies!! There's so much vibe and energy in your videos! Good job!!
You mentioned that you don't need it, but after hearing your story I still feel like giving you a pat in the back.
Take care bro!

[SpaceGhostCarerra]

You are on the right path brother everything will come together, I grew up poor, didn't have a father, from drug house to drug house, I saw a lot of drug use at a young age, started smoking cigarettes when I was 15, dropped out of school started smoking weed and drinking really heavy, until I was 21 I finally started getting into fitness, never really had the money for sports growing up, I've always had a very addictive personality because I never really had anything to call my own, like hey this is mine I'm proud of it, now I realize I can control what I'm addictive to, and I've chosen to be addicted to working out instead. I've hard many hard and dark times in my life and felt like giving up all together, but I never gave up and now I'm doing what I dreamed of when I had those sleepless nights wondering why my life was the way it was, you're not alone man we are with you, let's be the best we can be❤

[matthewbonfiglio]

you have no idea how much better this made me feel about my situation. thank you

[joelchase]

Everything you've described about yourself really resonates with me. I have experienced many of the same issues and have struggled with them even to this day. I can say though, that in the past couple years I've done a lot of work on my mental health and that has helped tremendously. As a result of my history with impulsiveness, unnecessary risk taking, hyperfixation (on Clash and now Raid) and an inability to consider consequences in the moment (among other things) I was recently diagnosed with ADHD at 35 and have begun treatment. For my whole life I just thought I was a garbage human who just couldn't do what a "normal" person could. The realization that my struggles were a result of a neurodevelopmental disorder has been liberating and has allowed me to exercise more self-compassion which resulted in an overall better quality of life. I'm not suggesting that you also have ADHD, but if you or any of your viewers are struggling as I have, I would highly recommend exploring ADHD/ASD as a possibility. Thanks for your openness Ash, and keep up the great work!

[loganwilcox]

Raid is a hell of a drug. I don't spend a lot of money on Raid, but I do spend way to much much time on this game. As a former alcoholic, I 100% know how easy it is to get consumed by my own consumption. I hope others who know they have a problem get a chance to see this video and maybe make a change, I know I will. Thank you for making this video, Ash.

[gillesh.]

Thank you so much Ash, this talks to me so much… I also binge drinked during my 20s, luckily my ex-girlfriend brought me out of it. I tend to get hardcore in everything I start until I get bored.. the issue with Gacha’s is that when I got bored, I moved to a new Gacha, and every new Gacha I start fresh and to start fresh like you said, I don’t want to spend hours and hours to start slow, I like starting with some good amount of cash, few hundred bucks in xx games and then play a while, totally addicted to it. Today I reduced it to 4 daily Gachas I need to play daily for the dailies, the bosses etc… I managed to go totally f2p in those for like 9-10 months but lost it again recently. I tend to suffer from depression and anxiety a lot…. It devours me and gachas give me that rush of dopamine to make me feel something a few seconds. Alcohol is a big temptation, but luckily I am also heavily addicted to working out and trying to be healthy so this counters the alcohol temptation most of the time and also my 2 year old son helps me tremendously. My psychiatrist will give me medication again starting next week to try to reduce the continuous mental pain. I also am what they somehow call « high potential », should mean I have a special brain and IQ and blabla which makes my mind think like roots of a tree, thinking of xx scenarios all the time creating anxiety etc. And like you described, I tend to rush into things hardcore. Like I started 3d printing, and went hard on it few months, reading all I could find on it, doing it 24/7, when I was younger it was video games, 12-16 hours a day during college. Recently it’s become piano, before that it was golf for a few months too. You’re the content creator I feel the most « real » to me. Thanks for talking, at this point I’m just rambling, don’t think anyone will be reading this whole thing. I need purpose. I started this month to invest again in stocks / ETFs every month… new obsession, last time paid quite well so we’ll see..
Best to you

[rockscapes]

Ok, first video that I actually like. I play Raid instead of going to the local casino. I've been addicted to gambling for 30 years and believe it or not, Raid helps me save money. I mostly play free to play, but I may spend $50-100 a month. I used to go to the casino 4X a week and spend $300-500 each time I went. So Raid is actually helping me build my bank acct back up. Ash, I get you on this one.