Is It Sinful to Want to Die?

Ask Pastor John
Episode: 1342

[SavedSis]

I look forward to the day where I can’t cry anymore and I’m in a place where there is no evil. I just want to be at peace with Jesus.

[tokkiiiiiiiiiiiiii]

I want to die. Badly. Simply because I’m a walking disgrace and my life is a nightmare.
I’m tired of myself and my thoughts. I’m tired of this world and it’s responsibilities. Im tired of being weak. I’m tired of evil. I’m tired of having to worry about everyone and everything. I’m tired of breathing.
Despite all of this I still fear God. I fear what will happen to my soul if I kill myself. Shit, I’m even scared to kill myself because I don’t wanna feel pain.
I’m trapped. I can’t live and I can’t die.

[RevanJJ]

I’m in pain 24/7 physically and with many mental issues. I ask God to let me die every night. I suppose that’s wrong, but I can’t stand when I finally fall asleep, waking up. Thanks for this video.

[priyaroy]

I just want to sleep and never wake up 😞😭

[yellow.marisa]

I'm the person who asked the question. Thank you pastor John and team for this very encouraging reply. Yes, I was definitely walking more by sight than by faith. Now I am amazed to see that my faith has grown since I asked this about 5 months ago- I hadn't realized it until now that I hear this. Also, although in the same situation, it has improved in that some relationships are in a (difficult) path of healing and God has blessed me with a circle of Christian people that are becoming good friends. What I am most amazed at is to see how my faith has gotten a bit stronger in less than half a year- even though it has been (and still is) horrendously painful! I long to go Home, but taking "my" life is just not an option (and it wasn't when I asked this because I understood then I'm not my own but was afraid that longing to die would be sinful since life is a gift from God).
Pastor John, your answer helps me a lot and those promises are beautiful and they comfort me. I take them serious and I am very thankful that you share them with me. Also, I didn't expect that so many people would find this question & answer helpful for them too, I thought I was the only one struggling with this 🙈 Never thought I would be saying this, but, there is hope! God bless everyone.

[MichaellaSapphire]

In my sorrows sometimes I prayed for God to just take my life while I sleep, if He sees fit, if He sees that I'm too broken for His work. But then the morning comes, through my swollen eyelids I can see the morning light. Again and again I was reminded that He still has a purpose for me, despite my shortcomings. I am now determined to cling to the Lord as Jacob did. The harder I fall, the more useless I felt, the more I clung to Him. It's hard. Every time, it felt like I was fighting with myself. I wanted to draw myself away, because of my feeling of filth and incompetence, but I remembered the story of Jacob and why he was named Israel. He wrestled with God and was blessed. Whoever is reading this, I hope you too will remember about that the next time you feel like distancing yourself from God after a fall.

[Ytmetzc]

Oh how timely this question is for me... thank you lord...

[keepsmiling]

The bravest thing I ever did was continuing my life when I wanted to die.

[autumninabq]

For Marissa, I was in your shoes after I got saved. Trust God with all your heart. He restores lives. You will be amazed what He can do! He completely restored my life ten fold! Give it a little time. We all want to go home and we will when He calls us. We are here for refining. Much love & Praise God🔥💖🔥!

[kalanime]

I just want to feel unconditional love for the very first time. At 50, I think I’ve waited long enough. I just want to be with one that really, truly loves me

[morganmclaughlin]

I just want the pain I feel day in and day out to stop. I can’t tell people I want to die because they get scared and want to send me to the hospital. I don’t trust anyone in my life and I want to curl up and not leave my bed. I don’t want people in my life and I am tired of chasing people and feeling like a burden. I am trying so hard for God to be enough for me but I don’t know what I am doing wrong. I don’t have plans to do it and I know I won’t do it but I want to die so bad. I don’t want to be here anymore. I can’t seem to be a good disciple and have faith in God. I want to go home 🏡.

[bigstronkgorl]

I’m just so tired of being judged by everyone on earth. I’m genuinely so tired. I wish I could just go to heaven and sit by my family’s side and be okay.

[willkershaw]

I can’t wait for that day when I can walk by his side. Sometimes life is full of agonizing pain. To think there will be a day when sin and suffering abruptly comes to an end is incredible. I can only imagine.

[Angeloflight]

I don't feel loved or supported. I'm constantly in a lot of emotional pain that I just wanna b free from. The pain comes from ppl always using and abusing me and I can't take it anymore. I just want eternal rest that's all

[jamesonm.]

I did search for this. This is me in my life right now; it's been my state of being for some time now. I won't give up...I won't give in. Please God, even if I am alone the rest of my life, help me to endure consistency in giving to You,

[revokdaryl]

I don't think it's sinful at all. Life gets to a point for some people where it's completely uninteresting and mundane. Work, pay your bills, keep up appearances, and deal with the loss of family and friends as everyone ages. Doesn't really sound like much fun, does it? I would say that life is maybe 95% suffering while the remaining 5% is somewhere between ecstasy and boredom. Even Schopenhauer said "Life is a pendulum that swings between pain and boredom." I definitely don't see a flaw in that statement. It seems very accurate to me.

[jmyname]

A man can only take so much. Rejection from countless people especially women can break you even when there is no progress or help. So yeah, I'd like to die and be with God.

[tbublz]

I've wanted to die alot lately even thought about jumping out of my car while it's moving. Due to increasing health issues after fighting get better, loosing multiple family members too young, divorce loosing a child in custody battle he grew up without me 4 states away courts did nothing to help me while I payed thousands for her child I adopted when he was 9. Went to school graduated top of college class only to become disabled 2 years later. My life sucks. I've had probably 35-40 surgerys. Kept my faith through it all.

[suxbuday]

This is so perfect right now. Something I’ve been asking for church brothers help with prayer over last week. I am often tempted by this sin, but God gives me the strength to overcome the temptation to give into the act of... what I cannot undo once it is followed through with.

I attempted it when I was 20 years old. Now I am turning 35 this month. I pray I never attempt it again and thank God for his grace in that he is faithful and he he will not let me be tempted beyond what I can bear. Praise God! If you are reading this and are struggling with the temptation to give up, reach out for love and support. Pray. Stay connected to God.

[paulcordova]

I'm tired of working and never getting a break. I'm tired of the suffering my elders. Is there no mercy in this world take me now