I had to LOSE IT ALL to find PEACE!

Today i feel like i am reaching a new level of stillness and peace within the present moment. Have i finally reached enlightenment? Or is my external material world just so unbearable now that im forced to sit with myself in nature and the present moment. could it be that the best spiritual practice is despair? If i hadn't of lost my businesses, got sent to jail abroad and being deported back to the UK from my expat life would i be able to be this still? Did it take having everything taken from me for me to finally surrender to the present moment, myself and my emotion? After years of spiritual shadow self work i ask myself if the best spiritual practice is to lose all purpose and connection to the external world so one can finally let go enough to have a true spiritual awakening or awakening to the present moment which for me is the the deepest experience of life iv experienced. Sat with self, with all ones emotion and trauma and just being, feeling in the present moment.
In a world of noise and technology addiction how does one get sober? How do we break from the zombie like nature of society. How many people have authentic friendships? it seems to me most friendships are false and built more on a need to have friends than the friendship itself. Can we really be honest and fully ourselves with our friends? Does it take isolation and solitude to find ones self and God?
I have failed at life in terms of societal views. I was a successful businessman in my 20's amassing good wealth. i was super materialistic, impatient and very stressed. Addicted to many thing and avoiding myself and my emotion completely. Living a material external existence. It was only when this started to fall apart i started to ask questions about the meaning of life and where we come from. Id tried everything i could materially and nothing brought satisfaction. After years on the spiritual journey i aquired much knowledge and healing. However i still could not meditate or be in the moment. It is only through more recent despair and problems in life that i have finally let go to the moment and presence. Finding myself craving stillness and silence more than ever before. Im developing an ability to sit with myself and just be. No longer trying to find the next stimulation or distraction from self.

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[glennk]

100% get you, nearly everyone I know my age (early 50's) have the same viewpoint ..what's the point? ..I'm not suicidal but...if I was told I'd not wake up the next time I go to sleep....I'd have an early night!
Take care pal.

[nicho]

I can relate so how much to what your saying and feel it in my core. Ive made the same mistakes. Im alone on this journey im on, ive give up on family ive give up on friends. If people dont value me from now on they are stranger's to me. Now im on the back end of 40s i am actually thankfull im over half way to the next place. Im tired and drained the only thing now that brings me a gram of joy is peace quiet and my own company. Im done with trying to fit in, im done with trying to be successful, but im happy. Sort of lol. New sub from london thamks for sharing

[BurtsStruggles]

Pretty much the only solution to block out the noise is to get out into nature, the wind in the trees and birds singing is so relaxing ☺️

[Immortal-Reflection]

Life is like a man standing in a fast-flowing river, trying to stop the flow. It's time to let go and go with the flow! and see where it takes you

[SonOfTheOne]

You sure found a beautiful spot to hide out— nature is healing! Glad you survived the winter. Enjoy the spring.

[Sunrise-vb]

I’m enjoying two bird nests in my roof constant back, forth to feed them & hearing the chirping it’s constant but a little joyful .

[jimsmith-dl]

ive spent most of my life alone, and i love it. i am not a loner i know people but spend most of my time alone, most people carnt stand the silnce and being alone.

[paulboyes]

Stay Strong...Christian Britain needs you. ✝️ 🙏

[Willywonkagolden]

Lovely location. I feel your despair brother. Try to Keep busy. Hang in there. There is still some good in this mad world worth hanging on to. X

[lucyelkins]

There's so many people saying the same thing it's so hard to get the energy together to prepare yourself to spend time with anyone Its so draining, even just hearing a message on my phone im like ahhh FFS i just can't be arsed leave me alone 😢, its mad, there is definitely something that's causing it

[Riptide]

I can relate to your mood and mind frame, I feel like a dont fit in anywhere stuck in the mud cant get out no matter what i do, plus life makes no sense at all.

[vxkuvkw]

I'm also living with my parents at the moment, and the t.v. is always on. Before being here, I hadn't had TV in well over a decade. It, and all the other societal noise, effect me intensely. I try to explain this to people and no one gets it. Yet, some guy across the ocean just perfectly explained it. I'm a 45 year old woman in Texas, and am glad there is at least one person on this sphere that gets it 🤣

[juliemaddern]

Heaven where you are there and with those birds singing, loved it Tom x

[laurencewainwright]

The irony of this video is that in your 'peace', you had to talk to a camera. That said, very relatable.

[ishthargates]

Take up fishing pal.
Tranquillity and nature, peace and quiet.

[gryphc]

Magnolia❤ and she is a beautiful medicinal plant. Her flowers can be made into jam and syrups, and they have a gingery flavour 😊
Maybe discovering peace in Nature is a sign that she is calling you to form a deeper relationship with her and getting to know how she can be a part your life beyond your walks. Foraging and herbalism might spark your fire again ✨️🤗

[reatreatseclusion]

I've felt this way since my late teens, any one I've had a relationship with has always called me weird. So I haven't bothered for at least 15years. I'm happy be alone. Peace is so hard to find. I never had tv because I can't stand the noise. Unfortunately living in a flat I have the noise all around me. But I am lucky enough to live by a quiet wild beach. 😀 thanks for sharing

[LastPinster]

"If life seems jolly rotten
There's something you've forgotten
And that's to laugh and smile and dance and sing"🎶😉👍

[AnthonyC-kxzx]

A wise philosopher once sang...

I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

[Wiccanways-L]

To move forward stop looking back. Big hugs Tom 🤗🧚‍♂️