the need to be the best before the need to rest.

[sharkjane]

hi guys… I have some poems if you want to read them? It’s when I was experiencing this type of thing.

throwback

im just a throwback to you
aren’t I?
that’s what it says on your Spotify
the song you and I belted out
together
now in a playlist
with a photo of you
and those two
who aren’t throwbacks to you
im not sure if you knew I’d see it
maybe you made it just for me
you stalked my Spotify, you know
I stalk yours a lot too
so is it true
that im just an “og” to you
I’ve tried letting go of the past
and it seems to me
that throwbacks never ever slip through.


playlists

if you knew me you knew playlists are how i cope
if you knew me then you know that cruel summer as a song describes you
so why do you think i made that playlist about you?
“friends are shit” is a valid name
it’s how i feel about her and now you too
but how desperate must you be
to find something against me
to stalk my Spotify?
i changed the name, but screaming out these lyrics doesn’t satisfy the same
now maybe I’ll call it people pleasing
because i can’t stop listening to you.

favorites

you used to be my favorite person and i used to be yours too
and one day we were playing truth or dare and you said that summer was your favorite month because i was there and soon it became my favorite too

and now the snow has fallen and ice covers the ground but now our friendship is frozen over too

for a while now i didn’t understand why you were mad at me and i constantly blamed it on you but then i realized i was wrong too but by then we were through

you won’t be able to understand just how much I’ve missed you and i keep trying to say im sorry but i know it isn’t enough because sorry is just one small word

and each time you say we’re fine i get too paranoid and i think that nothing has changed and everything is back to the way it was in December

i wish we could talk and i wish we were close again but we haven’t been since December and i miss you more than anyone in my life

i know that you are going through something hard in your life too and instead of focusing on me i should have helped you and maybe then this never would’ve happened

well now the weather is grey and summer is no longer my favorite month, in fact i hate summer deeply.

however, i don’t hate you. you are still my favorite person in this whole world, no matter how much you hate me.

so now I don’t have a favorite month because all of them were spent without you but you will always be my favorite person even if your favorite is someone new.

[Kinslee]

I hate talking about it though yk? It makes me feel selfish and like I’m seeking to much attention. It sucks.

[night.drivess]

vent:























he was the only person who cared abt me and made me feel safe. and i ruined it

[AbigailGaleano-op]

yall so i wrote some and wanted to see what yall think
ill take criticism too!
(also itll sound better if you kinda rap it as you read it yk, or just read it normally)

One day you're telling me you love me
And Next thing i know you're breaking up with me
I didn’t get it i couldn’t understand
What did i do wrong, how can i fix it

Telling me you just don't feel the same way
But i know there’s more to what you say
You tell me you aint doing good
And You tell me i deserve better

So My dumb self offered you help and love
But all you doing is rejecting my offers
I still dont understand but i try to respect your wishes

I question my value and existence
Why i couldn’t be enough for you
Why you chose to leave me like i meant nothing to you
But little did i know, the reason you left
Was cuz you had another girl, whom you were giving your best

(I bet she's prettier,
And i hope she’s giving you what you wanted)

And you telling all your friends
Like its a fucking flex
If playing with people's feelings is a flex
Then damn go get a fucking mental test

Honestly dude i really loved and cared for you
But you just played me in end
Now you make me wonder if any of it was real
The i love yous, the late night texts
The hugs, the kisses
Damn it bro was any of it fucking real?

Thought id never say this but
If i knew how things would end up
Then i wish i never met you……..maybe

[Itsoktobesad]

I don’t think anyone actually likes me anymore

[Chicken_Fam.]

Vent

So my ex bff *A* just sent me texts and I don’t know what she’s trying to say but this is what she sent:
#1 “ im doing bc I’m done either way you sorry”
#2 “I’m sorry for what I said”
#3 “and I’m sorry for if I hurt you”
#4 “ and if you don’t want to talk to me don’t but I want you to know that I’m sorry but I’m not sure if I want to be friends again”
#5 “ ok I’m done talking to you sorry bye bye and I’m so bored omg I’m going crazy”
I didn’t know what she was saying or talking about but I was to scared to ask so I just told her “I’m sorry for what it is I did and I’m sorry if I hurt you” and she didn’t read them so I guess I’ll know what happens when school starts

If you know what’s she’s saying please tell me

[Life.is.lonely]

Hiii idk if u remember me but it’s been a while. It’s Mattie btw. Anyways hru???