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I have dissociative amnesia || how it started, what it is + my feelings about it
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Hey! I'm Allisun, a resilient Adult Child of an Alcoholic, a Narcissist, and overall Dysfunctional Family. In this video I admit that, due to being raised in constant stress, I have dissociative amnesia.
This is one of the weirdest phenomena in my world. I can't remember so much of my very own life.
As I mentioned in the video, I have mixed feelings about my memory loss. Though I did had many happy times and know I've been privileged and fortunate in a number of ways, I also experienced an overwhelming amount of pain. I was dependent on a family that was breaking my heart and spirit, and totally out of control of my circumstances. As a child, I couldn't process what was going on. I was living in survival mode, and memory storage wasn't a priority. Forgetting became a way to cope.
A big reason I started this Youtube channel is because I WANT TO REMEMBER. I want to remember and make sense the past, and tell YOU about it as I do, and I want to keep track of my life today. I want to clarify all of my clouded, dissociative thoughts and be able to express them out loud. I want to know how I feel and why, what I've been through, what I'm working on, and where I'm headed. I seek clarity and understanding. I strive to live a vibrant life worth remembering.
My siblings were the scapegoats of the family and remember all of the things that happened. They don't totally understand where I am coming from, but I know there is someone out there, maybe you, who does. I hope you know you're not alone. I hope you know that just because you can't fully remember, deep down you know the truth. It WAS that bad. You're not making it up, or making it into a bigger deal than it really is. I wish you strength and peace of mind and heart. If you want your memories to return, allow patience and trust that they will. If you don't think they will return, make peace with that and seek to remember your present life. Regardless, I hope you're okay and well on your way to being better than okay.
You're worthy of all the love and happiness in the world!
If you have any questions for me or would like to share your experience with dissociative amnesia or memory loss after trauma, feel free to do so in the comment section! You never know who needs to hear your story.
Happy Healing (:
Allisun
This is one of the weirdest phenomena in my world. I can't remember so much of my very own life.
As I mentioned in the video, I have mixed feelings about my memory loss. Though I did had many happy times and know I've been privileged and fortunate in a number of ways, I also experienced an overwhelming amount of pain. I was dependent on a family that was breaking my heart and spirit, and totally out of control of my circumstances. As a child, I couldn't process what was going on. I was living in survival mode, and memory storage wasn't a priority. Forgetting became a way to cope.
A big reason I started this Youtube channel is because I WANT TO REMEMBER. I want to remember and make sense the past, and tell YOU about it as I do, and I want to keep track of my life today. I want to clarify all of my clouded, dissociative thoughts and be able to express them out loud. I want to know how I feel and why, what I've been through, what I'm working on, and where I'm headed. I seek clarity and understanding. I strive to live a vibrant life worth remembering.
My siblings were the scapegoats of the family and remember all of the things that happened. They don't totally understand where I am coming from, but I know there is someone out there, maybe you, who does. I hope you know you're not alone. I hope you know that just because you can't fully remember, deep down you know the truth. It WAS that bad. You're not making it up, or making it into a bigger deal than it really is. I wish you strength and peace of mind and heart. If you want your memories to return, allow patience and trust that they will. If you don't think they will return, make peace with that and seek to remember your present life. Regardless, I hope you're okay and well on your way to being better than okay.
You're worthy of all the love and happiness in the world!
If you have any questions for me or would like to share your experience with dissociative amnesia or memory loss after trauma, feel free to do so in the comment section! You never know who needs to hear your story.
Happy Healing (:
Allisun
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