Struggling Again/ED RECOVERY

Eating disorder recovery coaching website:

[georgiazak]

this is what I've been working on recently!! over the past few month, I had been getting so much praise from my family and therapist for being "fully recovered" and "figuring it out" at such a young age (17). but the truth is, is for 3 months now I haven't felt fully recovered anymore. fear of weight gain/weight loss thoughts have been coming in again, so my mindset shifted from "I can eat whatever I want whenever I want" to "I can eat whatever I want whenever I want AS LONG AS I don't eat too much". I found myself always trying to put myself in a slight caloric deficit and because of this, my hunger has increased, and I felt myself using willpower trying to control my appetite. once I realized that this was not recovery, I allowed myself to really eat again and not let myself be so scared of weight gain. It's been about a week since I put this into practice, and of course, I have been eating more than I would and I've been feeling bloated again. It's been hard, as I am at pretty much the same weight I was when I was "fully recovered" and coincidentally, this was also the weight I was at pre ED. buuuut this is the perfect opportunity to really challenge that fear of weight gain and show myself that there is nothing wrong with gaining beyond my pre ED weight if that's what my body needs! wishing anyone luck who is in a similar situation❤

[AshleyBitton]

Yes, act immediately and don't ignore that voice inside of you, it's there for a reason!! Great video as always Becky. And I love your nails! 🤩🤩🤩xoxo ❤💕💕💕

[MabelRD]

My current situation right now. Wow.
You've described it perfectly.

[hellohellox]

but, i became obese 1, 5 months in…and i started out underweight…. :)) i dont know how to keep going… i dont want to see anyone anymore and i cant walk or shower without it hurting cause my body gained sooo fast it cant keep up:… i kinda wish i never started….

[paulawhittaker]

I am struggling
I'm not in denial & I know what's happening. I'm not liking the increased weight gain & I feel so uncomfortable & feel so upset by the way I look.
I also feel embarrassed and ashamed by how much weight I've gained in the five and half months trying to recover. It feels like none of it ever happened.

[emmarichardson]

Were you very "underweight" when you started your last try at recovery? I do not look underweight, I feel like I am overweight, but I am always weak, tired, sore, sick etc because I am restricting and overexercising. I feel lightheaded and have a headache most of the time and my heart rate rises VERY quickly. I have extreme mental and physical hunger 24/7. I know I just need to listen to my body and eat everything it is telling me but I am just so scared because I am not "underweight".