Lessons Learned from Grief, How to Better Support Siblings

Talking with children who are grieving the death of a loved one can be a challenge. Join us for a discussion about healthy ways to understand and cope with grief.

[mkdutta]

Here's my story:
I was 16 when I first had a blank episode . To elaborate: I was doing my physics homework and all of a sudden (without any prior feeling) I just went blank, like I didn't exist for that particular moment, then slowly when I started to get conscious of my surroundings I was really confused like what happened...., I didn't mention it to anyone....then such epidodes kept on repeating only that I was now able to tell when is the next one going to come on because I got signs that I was about to blank out and it was such a strange deja vu kind of feeling and my surroundings seemed strange too, I would go blank then come back forgetting what I had done the entire day, but slowly slowly remembering it on trying, this used to happen 4 to 5 times a day and 2 to 3 times a week and by the end of day I would be dead of tiredness and headache..., I didn't go to doctors because 1) I didn't know how to describe that absolutely strange feeling and 2) I am scared of them
So the matter remained undiagnosed for more than 2 years and I continued to suffer trying to find answers from people and God
Then I joined college, however classes were online, the entire week I had really overworked myself eating less etc and I was feeling little anxious, irritated and restless before I went to sleep . The next morning I woke up to find my mother and sister sitting beside my bed asking if I was fine, I saw the watch and just realised it was 7:50 am in the morning, I am never that late, but I asked them what happened, so what I came to know is my sister who sleeps with me called for my mother and my mom said I was shivering violently so she asked was I feeling cold, abd my sister said it looked like a seizure(I was seizing badly enough to shake the bed which woke her up) they seemed scared but I hadn't realised exactly what was going on, I felt confused and dazed and everything seemed new and unfamiliar all the day my mother even asked what's on my tongue, I said I burned it while drinking coffee, so then I went to bathroom and got ready thinking how can I have seizure it must be something else, then checked my tongue in the mirror and saw it cut into deep lines, I was like oh..I really have bitten my tongue, my lips had gone blue too and my entire body muscles ached so much like I had done some heavy strenous physical activity and there was lactic acid accumulation all over and the entire day I felt sleepy ...Obviously my mom then took me to doctor who referred me to neurologist to go within 2 days, I had no further attacks since that one, I got nervous and started researching on net about epilepsy when I came across the types and when I read the description of complex partial seizures I was like this is it, all my symptoms match, atleast now i have words to describe to any doctor, (i didn't know those blank episodes were periods of unconsciousness) however I didn't diagnose myself I found courage and told neurologist whatever happened in whichever words i could. She immediately started me on Levera. But my mom wasn't ready to believe it, because it was just one episode of seizure and I was also later found to be covid positive that time but asymptomatic, so as Ordered MRI came back normal and EEG too was normal, but I was having issues with levera so went to another doctor so Sir gave me Sodium valproate and Breveteracitam (which I currently am on but I still have those blank episodes though with reduced frequency) but still for hearts satisfaction and proper diagnosis we went to another really reputed and trusted govt hospital, there too MRI and EEG both came normal, and now I am dying within insides with the fear I always carried people believe I am faking it or it's psychological, but I am not, I really don't make all this up and I myself don't know what's happening, what to do if no one trusts me..
If anyone has any advice I would be happy to have it.