POV: you hate yourself {slowed sad playlist}

Non of theese songs in the video are mines and I’m giving credit to the owners of the songs in this video

[silvrpws_]

Timestamps >:)❁ཻུ۪۪⸙͎


(START)

˖⸙̭❛◌*̥ 00:01 - 03:08 // The Perfect Girl - Mareux
˖⸙̭❛◌*̥ 03:09 - 06:20 // Nobody - Mitski
˖⸙̭❛◌*̥ 06:21 - 10:53 // Fourth of July - Sufijan Stevens
˖⸙̭❛◌*̥ 10:54 - 14:15 // Leni - Crystal Castles
˖⸙̭❛◌*̥ 14:16 - 17:32 // Not Allowed - TV Girl
˖⸙̭❛◌*̥ 17:33 - 20:51 // Can't Handle Change - Roar

(END)

Btw this is my 2nd time doing this so if I got anything wrong tell me, I'll edit it.❁
Hope it helps ^^ <3

[JasmineP-qkob]

I just can’t love myself. It’s so hard. I find imperfections everywhere. Even on the days that I don’t feel like garbage, there’s always a voice in my head telling me that I’m worthless and undeserving of love.

[athom]

I can't do this anymore. I hate myself so much and start to cry about it every night, because I try so fucking hard to be a better person but still I just can't and everything goes wrong and it repeats in a loop. I keep telling everyone that everything is fine but the truth is that I've never been so fucking miserable in all my entire life. My anxiety is so annoying, I hate my mind, my body and everything about me. I think everyone would be better if I just disappeared, and that's why I just keep getting distance of the ones I love, because I don't think I deserve anything good. I'll just treat them bad unintentionally because I can't handle myself, and I feel like no one will ever understand me because even at my therapist I feel so hopeless about my future.

No, I don't want to die. But I don't want to live either. I just want to don't be myself anymore. I'm so sick of myself, so sick of my voice, my smile, my body, my humor, my jokes, my problems, everything. I just feel happy when I'm with my friend (that is also my crush), for a moment I forgot everything bad and just allow myself to have some distractions and happy moments. Maybe I love her, idk.

Going to school is good just because of her. The only reason why I like to go there. Besides, I hate being home, because my mom always yell at me and says she's going to punch me if I raise my voice to her.

Idk if someone will ever read this, but stay safe and take care.

[TheArchonOfHugs]

Sometimes i wonder, if i just disappeared, would anyone miss me? Being told by others on the internet that you're perfect in your own ways feels nice because a random person actually thinks you're good enough. But if you think about it, those people dont even know how you act or look like. Would they act differently if they met you in real life? It begs the question, whether or not im good enough

[sofyyaxx]

I wish I could have a person who really cares and loves me, or do I just think everybody hates me, do they really? or it’s just me the only person who hates myself the most? well I can’t answer any of these, just don’t understand why I always care about every little thing about every person I don’t have to feel this for, so confusing

[ashtonthatshortboy]

It's not your fault
Your not a problem
You are perfect
You aren't fat
You aren't skinny
You aren't the problem
You aren't a bad person
You are wonderful
You aren't a crybaby
Your don't deserve them
You love yourself
You are clean
You are kind
Your are the person that everyone wants

Your skin isn't a paper... don't cut it
Your face isn't a mask... don't hide it
Your heart isn't a door... don't lock it
Your size isn't a book... don't judge it
Your life isn't a movie... don't end it
Your neck isn't a rope... don't hang it
Your body isn't for sale... don't sell it
Your brain isn't a stone... don't crush it
Your life is an inspiration...be proud of it

Love yourself.. you are perfect no matter what you do.
The past of you suffering will end
Your suffering will end
Don't c^t your body your hair
Don't kill your self yet.
If you have a pet it will make your problem go away

They get mad at you for being soo perfect
They blame you because you are so pretty/handsome/stunning
You are brighting the world.. you are a true star
Keep going.. it will past.
We love you don't stop being kind to everyone
The kindness will speard and the kidness will also pay you back.
They love you they just don't wanna show the loveness for you
You are so perfect that everyone gets mad and jealous
Give everyone a second chance not too many tho
your eyes is perfect
your nose is perfect
your height is perfect
your skin is perfect
your mouth is perfect
your hair is perfect
your face is perfect
your body is perfect
your hands is perfect
your fingers is perfect
your teeth is perfect
your waist is perfect
Your torso is perfect
your legs are perfect
your thighs are perfect
your tounge and everything is perfect
YOU are perfect love your body and everything
You are so greatful for what you have.
Ignore the bad people you dont want them to get attached to you
And leave your fake friends
You deserve better.

Don't give up
Cheer up aswell Pretty/handsome/stunning person.
We are proud to see you alive.
We are so proud
We love your smile
We love your laugh
We love your personality

So don't give up
We love you.
We love you so much
Don't end it too fast.
Don't commit
Don't get controled
Don't make them control you like a puppet
Do your own way
Do everthing you like
Ignore the rude people
Ignore the hate
Ignore getting yelled

There's people by your side and always be.


We love you no matter what you do to yourself.
They don't know what your been through
They ain't been in your shoes
Don't belive them they are liars
Love youself.
We are proud of you existing here
We love you so much..

NEVER GIVE UP
You're precious
You made it this far.
And it's so amazing that you are still here <3
Don't let them Hate you
Fight back
It's alright
Alot of people or your animals that are alive or dead
Doesn't want you to die
So don't give up alright
Hang on there
You will be better soon
Don't look at the ones that left you backstabbed you broke up with you moved on without you
You deserve better and you better know that...
Look at the brightside not the darkside.
You need to love yourself more... like i do or we.
Never give up
You are lucky you are still alive
You are the most luckiest person.
i love you on the days you feel motivated
i love you on the days you feel depressed
i love you on the days you feel stresses
i love you on the days you feel crazy
i love you on the days you feel hopeful
i love you on the days you feel cuddly
i love you on the days you feel clingy
i love you on the days you feel amazing
i love you on the days you feel beautiful
i love you on the days you feel like a failure
i love you on the days you feel angry
i love you on the days you feel aggressive
i love you on the days you feel horrible
i love you on the days you feel safe
i love you on the days you feel unsafe
i love you on the days you feel vulnerable
i love you on the days you feel weird
i love you on the days you feel ok
i love you when you're healthy
i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music)
i love your taste in music
i love your taste in movies
i love your taste in tv shows
i love the way you move
i love the way you act
i love you when you cry
i love you when you're kind
i love you when you're mean
i love you when you're alone
i love you when you can't feel
i love you when you feel too much
i love you when you can't take life anymore
i love you when you feel like it's too much
i love you when you're asleep
i love you when you have nightmares
i love you when you have dreams
i love how you believe
i love you when you believe in yourself
i love you when you don't believe in yourself
i love you when you hate yourself
I/we love you.
and never forget that life is a test so if u feel like life is hard its just because ur more advanced than the others

-Not mine but pass it around <3

[littatertot]

you know you have good music taste when you know all the songs in the playlist >:)

[ihopeyoudoingwell]

The fact that when I was 10 I was already getting so much pressure on myself, I wanted everything to be great, each time I got the answer wrong I felt like everyone will judge me for being dumb. I always called myself dumb or a pig but the most common word I used to describe myself was dumb and ugly. People were always saying I was the favorite student since I was the one who behaved well, so with other students. I did have friends just that I felt like I didn't deserve them. I always locked myself inside the restroom when I felt like crying. I really wanted to go back to preschool where everything was fun, when I didn't care what people thought about me. I couldn't believe, I changed from a happy person, to a sad person that pretends that they are feeling happy. I wanted everything to be almost perfect each time I did a wrong thing on it I would think negative stuff about my self. I thought if I tell my friends this, they will leave me and that they will bully me for it. I had so many trust issues that time later then my childhood dog died, it made stuff even worse I cried more than I did last year. I always told myself that stuff will get better but it just got worse, sometimes I cried myself to sleep. I always felt like everyone hated me including my sisters. I really wanted to be happy I wanted to smile, like back then. I'm really sorry that I had to go through that at a young age. Stuff got better now since I'm older, but I really feel bad for my younger self who had to go through all that pain by myself.

[amandageringer]

Too every person reading my comment:
Some of u just wanna listen too sad audios and some of u just need music too cry ur eyes out bc ur going through a lot....But don't let this world break u ... ur special in every way... even if ur the person who's breaking others... ur going through a lot as well. Be strong, love urself, love others. This world may break u, but the world also has good plans for u, u can make a diffrence too this world in many ways. U can fix this world with goodness... Ur beautiful.. not broken . Many people love u. And I'll be praying for all of u.
Believe in urself <3

[вероника_]

"hmm... what is that playlist? ok, I'll give it a try!"
*"The Perfect Girl" started playing, as soon as I turned on the video*
"YOOOO, SLAY!!!! I'M STAYING HERE FOR 10 HOURS"

[fernleafking]

I feel like I deserve all the pain I'm in. I sure do LOVE myself. Don't I! 🥰

[fandombonnie]

Have you ever become so invested in a show or video game where you relate to the characters and their world just seems so much better then reality that you start to forget what’s real and what’s not…

[Maxoungaming]

to the person reading this,

It’s been hard for you, I know, and it makes me sad that you don’t see yourself in the way I see you. Sometimes they are things in life that cause us to lose ourselves, and the way you have is so unimaginable painful. I miss your smile, the way your eyes light up the whole room just by the sound of your laughter. I miss the way you accepted the way you look in the mirror without cursing yourself out about how ugly you look. I miss the way you didn’t think of yourself as a failure because everyone makes mistakes, we all have flaws and we all aren’t perfect. It’s painful to see that no one around you seems to see the pain through your eyes, but, stranger, I do, I see how heavy your heart is and how comforting the sadness for you might be, how afraid your heart is of happiness because it disappears in the end, right? You don’t know how much impact you have in this world and it’s sad to see that your demons fight against you and want to take over you. Because you do make a change, it’s something so simple and little that brightens up someone’s whole world, it can be a small smile from your lips, the way you look at things you’re passionate about, the way you make yourself eat even though it’s been hard for you lately, the way you zoom out and go in your own world, you brighten up my world by reading this, it means a lot to me that you’re here, existing, but I don’t want you to just exist, you deserve to feel alive. You deserve to get up in the morning and feel good about yourself. You deserve to feel something- to feel every damn second alive in this lifetime. It’s heartbreaking that you think you’re not capable of being loved because you are, I love you through all my words and I hope you let it happen in your heart. Love is scary, I know, maybe your heart had been broken once and since then you wanted to be rather numb than feel ever again, it hurts me how you punish yourself, does it not deserve love? Because YOU DO deserve love, please forgive yourself, it’s not your fault that the demons want to take over your beautiful heart. You’re not a bad person for distancing yourself from others, but you deserve someone to talk to, you deserve someone to listen. I am listening, you can tell me what’s wrong. It’s everything, isn’t it? There’s something pulling your heartstrings on the ground and no one seems to understand how misunderstood you feel, it’s heartbreaking to know that I am behind the screen and can’t give you a hug, that’s why I will give you a big warm virtual hug and send you lots of love :). You matter. You are worthy. You are loved. You deserve good things. You deserve someone to listen. You deserve to eat and drink. You deserve to feel good and alive. You deserve to smile. You deserve a hug. You deserve to be all the things you want to be because you deserve to have and feel good things happening to you and have a fulfilled life. I know I might not know you personally but I care about you so much, I write this because I want you to stay here with me, I want you to hold on a little longer because you matter so much to me, because I will not let you give up on yourself. I want you to see that you should not give up on yourself because you DESERVE GOOD THINGS. I want you to look back on the time when you were a kid, you didn’t give up when you tried to swim for the first time, you didn’t give up when you tried to walk for the first time and fell, you never gave up on yourself, you always kept on pushing forwards, so why can’t you now? I know it’s tiring, your mentally tired, but don't your younger self deserve good things? look back at your eyes that used to be full of hope, look back on those dreams. Don’t let yourself fall, you deserve better. We will both fight, I will fight for you. I won’t let those demons get to you. You can hold on to me, I won’t let you down :). Whenever you feel lonely, then look at the sky, I always look at it and think about you. Yes, you, because it makes me happy that there’s someone looking right back, maybe we can’t see each other but I can feel your presence here with me and that’s enough for me because I am glad your heart is beating and you’re still fighting. You’re so much stronger thank you think, you didn’t leave your spot on this earth even if you wanted to, you belong here, even though it doesn’t feel like it when you don’t feel like belonging then build your own home here, put all your love in it and dreams. Think of you as a star when you feel alone, you shine because your heart is good, no matter what mistake you made, no matter about the past you had, you’re one of the stars that shine bright in the universe because you’re heart is beautiful, that’s why the demons in your mind want to have it. As one of the stars you see other stars, maybe they have felt the same way as you do at some point in their life, but they lighten up the universe with each other’s presence. You’re a star for me, maybe you don’t see it yourself but I can see it, you’re beautiful from inside and out, your body is beautiful the way it is. You make me happy by reading this, you make me feel something by your presence, and when you can make me feel that way then you also make other people feel that way about you too. I hope you stay for yourself and don’t let your story get written by others but by yourself, it’s your story, not theirs. As you can see, I say a lot of “I hope” because I have hope for you even if you don’t have it for yourself, I see hope in you even though you might want to give up. That’s why I hope you won’t see the world in darkness and will see it colorful again, I hope I will give you a glimpse of hope and make the world you see a bit colorful for today. My favorite color is yellow, and I hope the next time you see the color yellow you will think about my words. If someone left you then don’t blame yourself, don’t think you weren’t enough, don’t lower yourself for someone who couldn’t see the awesomeness in you. If you lost someone I am so sorry for your loss, they want you happy, I hope you don’t feel guilty or regret because you were there, you spend enough time with them, they want you to be happy. They are in a good and safe place now. If someone broke your heart then I am so sorry that they couldn’t see the way you look so beautiful because of the heart you have. Anyone who gets to be with you doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they are :). If you aren’t accepted at home or in general then I am so sorry that you have to deal with someone/ something you shouldn’t be ashamed of, I accept you and support you, I accept you as a human being no matter what race, religion, nationality, skin color, or sexuality you have. You’re safe here with me :). You’re not useless, you’re not a burden to anyone. You’re not a problem, you’re human and your feelings are valid. You’re not being dramatic. Please don’t starve yourself, you deserve food and to drink, I know it’s hard. It hurts to see that you’re in so much pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you. I am sorry no one is noticing, I wish /hope I could take your pain away for today or even for a moment while you’re reading this. If no one told you, I am so proud of you, you’re reading this and it’s enough for me to be proud of you because you’re here and that’s all that matters to me. If it’s the night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you. If it’s the day for you, don’t start it with such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such a mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water every day in the morning, and so on. You will start building little healthy habits. If it’s the evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course, you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self-care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed.
And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re so strong for breathing despite the pain, I know you will make it :) I believe in you. All I want for you is to stay here, I really mean all my words, even if there is a lot of unsaid things I want to tell u and my text is getting longer and longer, I want you here.

I hope one day your smile will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world.

You can let go for today, I got you, you can cry your heart out as much as you want, but don’t let it tear you down and let your emotions control you by giving up. Crying is not a weakness. If you still feel alone I dedicate you to a song as your friend.
“Dusk till Dawn- Zayn feat. Sia (I prefer the slow version)” I hope you can think of me and will remind yourself of my words, I will for sure think of you.

In case no one told you and you’re unsure yourself, you’re a good person and I am so happy you’re here.

I hope this is enough to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. Enough with beating yourself up for today, okay?

Life for those who couldn’t smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug-like it's your last one.

If you read all of it, until tomorrow my friend :)
have a good day and a great year.

[your_local_crakhead]

Hey there.



What are you doing here so late?



Can't sleep?









Ah. Coming to cry in the middle of the night.



I get that.



It feels nice to do that, so I understand.



Take all the time you need.











You know, I just happened to find you stumble upon the video where I'm taking a break.



Wanna sit down for a while?



Tell me about what's bothering you?





Oh, don't worry about me. I don't find you annoying.



I wanna be here for you.



I'll try to help as best as I can.



I won't judge you. Everyone has their own story.















Ah, that sucks.



I can't begin to imagine how you must feel.



You're so tough for getting through all of that.



I'm so proud of you for not giving up.





Of course I understand.



One broken soul to another.









I just want to remind you.



No matter how hard it gets, please stay strong.



Take care of yourself.



You can't go into a battle already wounded.



You can't wave the white flag without trying your hardest.



This will all be over soon.







And hey.



If you ever need to take another break, I'm always here.



Helping people is my specialty.



They always find their way, one way or another.



You can come sit down with me any time.



I'll try to lend some advice, or just an ear to listen.







And if this is your last time visiting me, I'm proud of you.



My job is done.



Go take on life with all your energy, and remember that you have one soul always cheering you on.



You'll always have my support.



I can't wait to see the great things you'll achieve.







Before you go...







I love you. <3

(Fast edit: pls comment on this whenever. Even if it is a late comment. It's ok and I can respond most of the time)
(Another edit: For the other people that I didn't respond to, I'm soo sorry but I hardly get notification from youtube about comments but I hope you get help from someone that can respond to your problems. Thank you sm for commenting about crying about my comment and that it helped you, stay safe out there <33)

[-CNT-D-T]

Everyone says to me “why are you so depressed?” “Goofy ahh emo kid” and I’m like “why do you have asthma? There’s so much air in the world…”

[Crescent-moon-]

I've hated myself for so long and tried to change. 4 years passed, nothing changed no matter how intense I tried all these years :(

[dokumishiko]

Dear person whoever reads this,
Hey, you, yes, I am talking right to you. I hope you will see yourself with the eyes I see you one day, because I can tell you have some awesome music taste :) You’re such a beautiful human being and worth and enough. I hope you know that you do only need yourself to be happy, I know society build up the standard that whenever you’re alone you’re not living a happy live. But in fact that is not true, if you start to realize that you actually deserve all the good things happening to you, you will treat yourself a lot nicer. I hope you let yourself rest, don’t beat yourself up over past mistakes, over regret, and over everything your mind wants to destroy you. I wish I could remove all those demons inside of your head because you deserve to feel happy. If you ever feel lonely then watch the sky, because you know, someone, at the same time is watching the sky too, maybe feeling the same way..I am glad you exist and I hope you won’t ever remove your own spot in this world, maybe you don’t feel like you belong here but, Angel, then build your home here. I don’t want you to leave this world unhappy. I want you to live every little second, I want you to feel alive, I don’t want you to see yourself just existing. You deserve it. Whatever happened, it’s not your fault, the demons in your head recognize that you have a beautiful heart, they want to take it because they have never seen such beautiful heart as yours, so why let them win over you? . You’re not selfish for isolating yourself, but you deserve to talk to someone. If you’re reading this than please never forget to breath and smile.

Don’t live up to other standards! It’s your story and not theirs.


Life for those who couldn’t, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug like its your last one.

I love you and send you hugs.
You’re so strong, you’re still here, and I am proud of you.


YOU ARE NOT USELESS. READ THAT AGAIN.
YOU ARE WORTH IT. READ THAT AGAIN.
YOU ARE LOVED. READ THAT AGAIN.
I AM GLAD YOU EXIST. READ THAT AGAIN.
YOU ARE NOT A PROBLEM. YOU ARE HUMAN AND YOUR FEELINGS ARE VALID. READ THAT AGAIN.
YOU ARE NOT BEING DRAMATIC.

You’re not a burden to anyone, don’t be afraid to talk, to use your voice.

You’re beautiful inside out. Your body is beautiful the way it is.

Please don’t starve yourself. Please eat, I know it’s hard but you deserve food. You deserve to eat and drink.

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. READ THAT AGAIN.

I WISH I COULD HUGH YOU RIGHT NOW, SO A VIRTUAL HUG WILL DO.


It hurts me to see you’re in pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you.

I love u I love u I love u I love u I love u please don’t go.


I am sorry that no one is hearing you, I am sorry no one is noticing that you have lost yourself. I wish I could take your pain away, it hurts me to see the pain in your eyes. I love you trough my words and I mean it. I just want you to stay, hold on a little longer okay? Please? For me.??

I hope you have an awesome day/ morning/ evening/ night.

If it’s night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you.

If it’s day for you, don’t start it by such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits.

If it’s evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed.
And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re stronger than you think, I know you will make it :)

Now wipe those tears away and smile for me, you really don’t know much a smile can brighten someone’s day, do you? I hope one day yours will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore, because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world.

Remember crying is not weakness, let it out as much as you can but don’t let the emotion control you by giving up. It’s okay, you’re here, you’re safe, you can let it out.

Did anyone asked you, how you are feeling today? If not, how are you really? I don’t think you’re doing good, but you will feel good at one point. Don’t give yourself up.

I am sorry you feel misunderstood.

But anyone who gets to be with you, doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they is :).

Enough with beating up yourself for today, okay?!

- The stranger that cares about you more than anything.

I hope this is enough for you to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. I hope you can stay.

This is your sign to stay and treat yourself with love, you deserve it.

And in case no one told you today, again, I am so proud of you.


I hope you will remember my words :)

Until tomorrow, my friend :)

- Mila Martinees (not by me that’s the user of who wrote it just spreading awareness :))

[ivanamarkov]

to all the pepole that been saying like "you are perfect" "I think you are amazing" if they if they thought the same for themselves they wouldn't be here

[KARASVOICES]

An artist,
An artist, but never planned to paint on her skin,
An artist who paints with crimson color dripping down,
Her wrist, painted
Dripping, on the floor,
Dripping, on a pillowcase,
The only colour she knew, all she knows
An artist,
Who feels safe in pain,
An artist,
But never planned to feel the art of such heartache,
Such aching heart,
None could fix,
An artist, but
Never planned having a soul of such empty colors,
An artist,
But never had the imagination to picture such loneliness,
An artist,
But never brave enough to color her canvas, so that one day she could adore her painting without a damaged paper,
So that one day,
She could see colors again.

-a weird kid:)

[cornwlia]

I don’t hate myself. This playlist makes me calm down, when I’m calm I can understand who I am, therefore being to love myself. you should too.