The Nightmare Christians Crave

When deconstructing your faith, many ideas you once believed and cherished now seem preposterous or even horrific. The notion that God was always present and would never leave or forsake me was one such idea that I re-examined after de-converting and becoming an atheist. As I travel through Rio de Janeiro, the Christ the Redeemer statue is constantly overhead, but here's what life would be like if God was really always watching you.


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[mintybadger]

The best part of becoming an atheist was when I finally, completely stopped believing there was someone listening to all my thoughts. It took 40 years but I got my privacy back.

[vanissaberg]

For me as a kid being told God, angels, and even demons were always watching me and listening to my thoughts (even implanting thoughts into my head) and being taught I was a "wicked sinner" deserving the worst torture unimaginable, I'm pretty sure gave me serious religious PTSD. I was afraid of my own brain, my thoughts, and my body (being a girl and leading boys to sinful thoughts). I had nightmares every night and anxiety attacks that developed into sleep paralysis (also terrifying) due to sleep deprivation because I was told Demons would destroy me in my sleep! Talk about psychological torture. I'm so glad the only person inside my head is me and only me. Letting go of the belief in the boogie man and an even more terrifying God was truly my saving grace.

[grapeshot]

One of the many reasons why I became an atheist is because I could no longer tolerate the BS when it comes down to religion. Also having served in the military and having served overseas I got a different perspective on how the world is. Therefore I am very happy that I got off the religious plantation and I have absolutely no regrets.

[Annie_Annie__]

When I was about 13 and all through my teens, my dad would say that a good way to “avoid temptation” is to remember that God sees all. So if kissing your boyfriend “goes too far”, God is right there watching you, and he’s disappointed in you.

My reaction was usually first, repulsion at the idea, and then to mention, disgusted, “yeah, but that means if you’re married and having sex, He’s still watching you then too.”

My dad always said that in that case it’s “holy” and God approves, so it’s fine, but I never understood that perspective.
The idea of someone I didn’t consent to watching me and my partner during a private moment is just vile to me.

It also was weird to me that a piece of paper and a quick ceremony was the difference between sex being something that deserves torture for eternity or is considered holy in my dad’s eyes.
That’s just bizarre. Seeing sex as holy at all is bizarre to me.

[Marc]

WHen people ask me if I regret becoming an atheist, I say I regret not doing it sooner.

[Zaft_K]

This is a refreshing examination of a core - but terrifying - Christian belief. Realizing that there was no benevolent God always with me was the beginning of my deconversion. But the "god" totting up the times I lied or lusted in my heart, while simultaneously watching children being horrifically abused and doing nothing, is a monster - if such a god existed.

[SeekingTruth]

👍 Serious topic, presented very nicely. I even had to giggle sometimes.
I have been a Christian for 35 years, and left Religion this year. Only now I see the toxicity of it. Your videos are very helpful, and your humor makes it easier to approach serious topics. Thank you!!
Greetings from Germany 🇩🇪

[kennypowers]

I’m glad I left Christianity 6 months ago at the age of 24. I got tired of all the “end times” that never came and hateful bull shit they kept spreading.

[panqueque]

5:30
God operates like the mafia.
"Pay me tribute every month and I'll protect your shop"
"Protect my shop from what?"
"From what I'm going to do to you if you don't pay me"

[wanderinggypsy]

The thing that has always bothered me is the saying
‘I am a god fearing Christian’. Even as kid. I always thought why do we fear someone who loves us

[devroombagchus]

As a child, living in family of non-believers raised by non-believers, I never realized how privileged I was. Religion was just something some others had, not to taken very seriously. It could range from Ganesh, Jesus, Moses to Mohamed. But during adolescence, I began to find out that some peers might have serious pain and trouble with the superstitions they were raised with.
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[everrgreen]

I remember believing as a child that when there were flashes of lighting, it was god taking photos of me🫠. It’s kind of funny now, but back then it was terrifying. My mom actually taught us that not only god was constantly looking at us, but every single person in heaven. So if we sinned, billions of people, including god were upstairs shaking their heads in disgust. So for me as a kid, it made sense that everyone in heaven was taking pictures of me sleeping etc when there was lighting. I’m so glad I’m free from all that nonsense and constantly feeling judged.

[tonybrantley]

The first time I went to Sunday school I was taught about Adam and Eve.
And the first thing that popped in my head was how the hell did a entire civilization come from only two people .
I mean I was a little kid and I knew it couldn't happen without incest !!!!

[VictoriaMarch]

What sealed my decision to become an atheist was when I went through a very deep and dark depression. I was so broken and extremely suicidal. I remember multiple times crying so hard that I could hardly breathe and literally begging out loud for help from "something". Anything. I was basically begging for "god" to please help save me from myself and to show me that there is more to life than what I was feeling. If there was anyone/anything out there to please just help me. And when absolutely nothing happened I knew without a doubt there is no God. There is just us and we can only depend on ourselves. I have thankfully overcome that part of my life and it was only by the grace of MYSELF and reaching out to professionals that I was able to do so. Thank you for all you do for this community Thomas! It is very much appreciated!

[thomaslong]

I had to go to an evangelical church 3x a week growing up. Even as a child I thought it was bizarre but couldn’t express that. Even when god was killing babies the adults would say amen. Freaked me out. I remember thinking that when I grow up I would understand. I grew up and now I understand. But not in the way I expected.

[dustinfehmel]

Growing up in a narcissistic "Christian family" led me to attempt suicide by firearm. I luckily survived, and now the thought of going back to church makes me literally sick.

My friend tried to drag me to church and I literally had a sweaty panic attack and my wound channel started burning.
That's the gospel 🙏.

[MicrowaveGenieMan]

Your video on contradictions in the bible helped start the chain reaction that got me to stop believing in the mormon church.
This channel never fails to help when I start having doubts about my decision.
The longer I have stopped believing, the more creepy all these concepts and delusions feel to me.

[imapack]

This video hits the nail on the head. I was that young man agonizing over his lust and tormenting himself over his inconsequential "sins". Words can't describe the freedom I feel without feeling like there's a divine psychopath watching every move I make

[rusher]

If god is always watching, that makes him a sadistic exhibitionist who watches children SA'd for years, men & women being SA'd, or even people who are trapped or stranded in the middle of no where... watching them suffer a slow and agonizing death. All while he watches on silence. I guess God has his own personal Red Room like on the dark web.

[foppishdilletaunt]

Having been raised by two devout Atheist parents, I’ve had a lifelong morbid fascination with religion and mythology (a very blurry line). Even after having fairly intense and deep conversations with friends, acquaintances and relative strangers, I am impressed by the bravery, honesty and thoughtfulness of people for whom religion was once a deeply held foundation of their epistemology. I understand the caricature of the Angry Atheist. If I felt that people important in my life and thinking had lied to me or deceived me I would be Very Angry indeed.
It must be a great relief to lay down a burden of bullshit. I applaud all of you who have made that difficult & fraught passage.