YOU CAN ALWAYS START OVER...

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I Noah Thomas, the creator of this channel, have been diagnosed hypogonadism by a medical doctor and legally prescribed the medically indicated treatment of Testosterone Replacement Therapy.

My Story

My name is Noah and on May 18 2011, I had a rare reaction to a medication called VIVITROL and consequently, spiraled into a suicidal depression with depersonalization and anxiety. I lost 25 lbs in 4 weeks and was in full panic or near panic for 8 weeks straight mixed with the darkest most painful depression I cold have ever imagined. I immediately could not work and had to move in with my parents who, along with many siblings and friends, had to watch me 24/7 as I was a danger to myself. Eventually I was hospitalized in the Psych Ward for a week. Getting through each day seemed truly unbearable and I knew I would surely die. I have been put on many many different doctor prescribed SSRI's SNRI's Tricyclics, mood stabilizers, anti-psychotics, holistic meds, acupuncture and even a form of shock therapy called RTMS. I barely saw any improvement in my condition for a full year. It was decided I had treatment resistant depression and I spent nearly every moment in tears. Weeks after starting my newest round of medications (Seroquel & Nortryptaline) as a last ditch effort, I had my blood drawn for possible hormone imbalances and my Testosterone levels came back 200 ng/Dl and 150 ng/Dl. The average 25 year old male has 750 ng/Dl. With this discovery I had an explanation as to why I was not getting better and why I might be so so sick. The symptoms of Low T are very similar to those of major depression. I started legally prescribed testosterone replacement therapy soon after and have been checking in with the world and documenting my experience with treatment as well as giving my insight and perspective on various topics of mental health. I am blessed to say that I have slowly, over the last 6 years, been improving and becoming more stable which I never thought to be possible. My low T manifested itself in the form of Major depression, anxiety, and depersonalization/ derealization for over a year. Treating my low testosterone has been 1 HUGE part of the puzzle but I have had to continue to work hard to hold on to my mental stability with many set backs. Gaining some mental stability back is nothing short of a miracle as I was near death for what felt like forever. I do not consider myself to be totally healed yet but I am closer now then ever before and aim to use what I have been through to help or at least offer support to others in need I was able to successfully come off my Seroquel and Pamelor.

I work out all the time as a part of my mental health recovery!!! Weight training and all kinds of cardio rule much of my free time and I also share this on my channel.

Noah Thomas (bignoknow) is an affiliate of LetsGetChecked

[bignoknow]

Most of us know in our heart we can start over and but end befuddled by the lies our brain conjures up as truth. Trust your heart, trust the process, and stay brave.

[thepeterpink]

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«Overcoming the perception of life through the reality of my pain»

[jtjorden]

Great video, Noah. You've got a bunch of loyal subs here, if we'll sit and watch you shave. LOL.

Seriously, you never know what surprises life may have in store. Here I am, forty seven years old, bipolar, having started over so many times that I can't even begin to count, and finally just beat down by the whole process. So, I wound up not having to start over anymore by accepting a half-life on enough psych meds to sedate a bull elephant. For almost ten years.

Then, out of nowhere, and without warning, along comes this young guy, on fire for mental health recovery and fighting with every tool he can find to make a real life, and not only succeeding, but triumphing to such an extent that others are willingly following his example. Now, I'm back in the fight, with diet, supplementation, therapy, exercise, and feeling like life might be more than survival for the first time in a decade.

Lesson learned for me. Never cut yourself off from God's blessings. You never know where they're going to come from. Even YouTube.

Thanks, Noah, as always.

Pax Christi.

[babyboylovesmusic]

You nailed it with this message. If we have another moment and another day, there is a chance to do something differently. Great perspective.

[joshuabelcher]

Great message brother. I've faced alot of obstacles over the years (cancer, etc....) I just started TRT this past week and while looking for injection methods I stumbled across your videos. To know that we aren't all as crazy as we think and we aren't alone truly lends strength.
You are an inspiration! Keep up the great vids. Hopefully I can make at least a little of the emotional and physical progress you shown.

There is hope!?!

[Braskypants]

That's a great message man. It's something I have to remind myself all of the time, but hearing it from someone else just has more impact on a person's psyche.

[michaeltyree]

This helps a lot Noah I fucked up a lot over these last 4 months to the point where I want to run away and hide because I'm to scared to face my problems head on. I'm not sure how I'm gonna do it but hopefully I find the courage to before I loose my family and my mind. I hope I can beat this like you did!

[davTvab]

Thank you bignoknow. You have played a pivotal role in my journey to improved mental health

[Benjaqu]

Started watching this channel wanting to learn about TRT, got way more out of it. Keep it up big dude!

[FelixLaManna]

God bless you my friend, you have no idea how many people you have helped just with these words. You are a true man.

[hunterpdx]

Hi Noah!I've been watching your channel with interest for a long while.  Your alignment of physical and mental health is great education and viewing.  Entertaining, sometimes moving, sometimes inspirational, sometimes left field.  It's all good.  I've gotten back into fitness in 2015 and work as a mental health professional in Portland.  My first degree, way back in the 80s, was in media production.  So there's always a kind of homey familiarity to your posts.  Thanks for putting yourself out there.

[JZCRAZY]

I recently put up a video about being Depressed. Somehow I smile my way though the horrible feeling. Fake it until you make it. I like your idea about one day just starting over. It's true. You can make any day a new beginning. Stay Cool!

[paigemweller]

Welp, looks like I just watched my new favorite video on YouTube. Thanks Noah, appreciate you.

[markriley]

Love your videos mate, from across the pond in England.
You have a great understanding of anxiety and depression and convey it well to others. I've had a rough month like yourself after being 'okay' for over a year. Managing to get through it with the skills I have, things are starting to even out. 'This too shall pass'.

[naruyyh]

I love this video so much! it was fun and meaningful - classic Noah. But I'd also like to say that it was very well put together. bravo, sir :)

[LucaBakiMMA]

Hey boss! still watching you whenever I can, im getting out of here in december!

[Blizzardk]

Lol so clean. Awesome video, very inspirational.

[kilosomoto]

New sub as of yesterday! Thank you for putting yourself out there it's nice to see a person around my age who has going through something similar to my ongoing situation. It really helps ✌🏽️

[joetito]

Love it! You should put your 'one day, one hour, one minute at a time' quote on tshirts :)

[josephsswag]

I feel like I've said this in a prior post, but sometimes, what we encounter and go through is solely for the purpose to help others who may encounter similar experiences. You're a blessing to many.. Keep pushing!!