Stillborn 6 year ago, am I loving you 'loud' enough? #stillbirth

oh, my sweet Brannan boy! it's been 6 years since you came into our lives, and I was incredibly quiet on sharing much about you for a time. you were too special for everyone else, and I was processing so much sadness and heartache. we started the podcast Still A Part of Us: Stories of Stillbirth and Infant Loss for you one year after we lost you. it's your legacy! but even then, I didn't share too much. my heart was still broken, and I missed you, and I wanted to protect you and shield you as much as I could from the world.

recently, a mom (Kayla) wrote to me, asking to share her story on the podcast of her baby daughter Camie who died less than 2 months after she was born. it had been a few years since she passed away, and she was feeling like she needed to reach out to tell her story, because she felt like she wasn't loving her daughter "loud" enough. when I read this email, I realized I had been feeling this way about my Brannan boy.

he has made such a significant impact on who I am now, but now I'm feeling a little more ready to share about our experience with our son, who is still very much a part of our family.

be gentle on me and be respectful to one another here. and most of all, be kind to my son. I'm still quite protective of him. ❤️

#stillbirthawareness #iwillalwaysloveyou #podcast #stillbirth #infantloss #infantlossawareness

[harbor]

He's beautiful. I'm so sorry for your loss. No one should ever have to go through this.

[kimberleyannedemong]

A beautiful baby boy. I am so sorry for your loss. I cannot begin to imagine your pain & grief.

[sameoldsonganddance]

Of course you are still loving him loud enough. He’s your angel ❤

[reneebarnhart]

What a beautiful boy! Thank you for sharing him with us. 🥹💙

[darlenewillbrandt]

No matter how many years go by. The baby is always in our hearts
I think of my twin girls stillborn so long ago. They are still a loss I can bearly hold together. I am old now so when St Peter let's me thur the gate .
I hope to see my babies again

😢

[dianahall]

Awwww so very sorry for your loss of your beautiful baby boy 😢

[Luluisraging.]

Willow, he will always be a part of you, and Lee, and your beautiful daughter!! He IS and always will be a part of you! Thank you for sharing him with us ❤
Kathy

[marciaterry]

He is a beautiful baby, i am so sorry for your loss

[kathleenwalker]

I'm so sorry May The Lord bless you and keep you Amen 💜💜💜

[Shannonrenee]

I’ve been in your place 33 years ago. My Benjamin was born by C-section. He was a big baby boy. He weighed 8lbs 12oz and looked like a solid little linebacker. He crashed shortly after birth and was placed on ECMO (heart/lung bypass machine. At 8 days old I sat with my son during his final brain scan. I knew it wasn’t good and he was waiting on me to say my goodbyes. I held my son until his heart stopped beating. My Benjamin passed away due to effects of Group B Strep also called Beta strep. Keeping you and family in my prayers! 🙏🏼❤️🙏🏼

[judyhoffman]

Bless you and your family in this time of sorrow! I pray the Lord lifts you up and gives you strength! Amen

[MelissaKountz]

Hes absolutly beautiful💔🥹🌻
Mommys little 🍊
So very sry for your loss now until you meet your beautiful Lil man again.

[debbieA]

God be with you till you meet again. So sorry for your pain. You’re a member of a club non of us wanted to join. Hugs

[suehelendiana]

Hello prince what a handsome baby boy x

[kathrinw]

Did they find out the reason why he Was stillborn? Is really too sad😢 He look so sweet. I lost two babies very early there was sadly nothing to say goodbye to. Was too small to

[pudelfan-pn]

die Engel im Himmel freuen sich auf den neuen Stern er wird es gut haben ich zünde eine Kerze 🕯️ an R.I.P.

[horselady]

So sorry.how awefulyou will meet in paradie read Bible it helps❤❤