Alexander Stewart - if you only knew (visualizer)

Alexander Stewart - if you only knew (visualizer)

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Lyrics

i've been trying so hard to survive
sometimes I think that I wanna die
i feel so fucking guilty cuz god I'm so lucky to live my life

so I keep all the pain to myself
losing faith but nobody can tell
mom, I don't want you worried cuz that would just hurt me
so I pretend I'm fine

if you only knew
what my mind is telling me I should do
that I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight
i'm too sad to cry it's true
if you only knew

all the shit my brain is putting me through
you'd come running over straight to my room here tonight
i'm sorry but I need you
if you only knew

i wish I was somebody else
i'm constantly overwhelmed
now I'm falling again getting drunk with some friends
it's a silent cry for help
i wanna get better, want you to know
that I can't do this on my own

if you only knew
what my mind is telling me I should do
that i'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight
i'm too sad to cry it's true
if you only knew
all the shit my brain is putting me through
you'd come running over straight to my room here tonight
i'm sorry but I need you

take me out of this hell
oh, somebody help
take me out of this hell
oh, I'm not myself

i wanna tell you what my mind is telling me I should do
that I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight
i'm too sad to cry but i want to
oh, if you only knew

#alexanderstewart

[putradm]

Can someone like my comment for still alive till now

[iamnurseon]

This song opens the most depressing moment of my life. One time in the past, I tried to leave this beautiful world in a way that was against my faith. I smiled at the people around me but deep inside I was asking for help. The attempts failed and things got better because of God and of my mom. Now I am a registered nurse helping patients and trying to help those who are risks for suicide. Thank you Alexander for this wonderful song.

[mariahprovost]

Leaving this here so everything someone likes it I can be reminded to listen to it. Needed to hear this more than you know

[joshuadurham]

I covered my scar with a tattoo on my wrist but I remember that night like it was yesterday. This is for all the survivors out there who tried, or is thinking about trying, don't put your loved oned through that pain. No matter much it rains in your head it gets better, no matter what loss youre facing, our purpose is to carry the pain the others can't bear. We got this. You are loved. When you think nobody understands come here and read these comments and see how many of us do. We all do. We all hurt, but most of all we have each other

[cath]

This song explains so much about what many of us are going through but don't open up about. Thanks for making us not feel alone!

[gissel]

I have no words, this is simply... thank you Alexander for opening with us and once again showing none of us are alone❤😭

[ankitabaishya]

Thank you so much for the song. At least now I know I'm not the only one feeling the same feelings.
Every time someone likes my comment I live longer now.

[thomasmorrissette]

As an Army Veteran with 15months in Iraq between oif V and oif VII/New Dawn and who struggles with PTSD every day, this hit me like a train man! Keep it going! 😟😢

[Kimsoosan]

"Mom i don't want you worried
Cuz that would just hurt me
So i pretend i'm fine" is so relatable💔 🙃

[erinconnelly]

Depression and the struggles with suicidal thoughts are some of the most daunting. I survived my attempt years ago, and lately it’s been tough to find a way out of the rut my mind has put myself in. Thank you for such a beautiful song.

[Kamesh]

Someone like my comment so I listen again 🦋

[Blackwatersetnh]

Me and my brother haven't spoken in a few years. Out of nowhere I got a call today. It was my brother, this 6ft10 350 pound Federal Agent of 20 years was crying so hard I could feel it through the phone. He lost his son today in a tragic motorcycle accident. I didn't know what to say so I just started crying with him. I'm 51 years old I've road in a biker gang for so long I can't remember when the last time I cried about anything. But I finally broke. We didn't say but a few words to each other. But it was enough to know that we were and always will be brothers. I sent your song to his phone and told him how it's already helped me realize how precious life truly is. I hope it helps him through some of his pain like it has me. Thank you for this one of a kind masterpiece. Big fan Blackwater.

[Kstapess]

Words cant describe how excited I am. I need this song sm rn and I can’t wait to just scream along to this 😭

Edit: After listening to it abt 10 times

OH MY GOSH 😭 I knew it was gonna be good but not this freakin good! Ok not joking when I say that this is THE MOST beautiful song ever. Like the lyrics, the melody, your voice like just everything about it is perfection. Thank you Alexander, for this song because I need it sm rn and it really helps people not feel alone 🥹 I just can’t explain but OMG this song is a hundred percent my favorite song to exist and I just can’t stop listening to it. Ahhhh the whole album is a masterpiece and I could listen to his voice day 😭😭😭😭💚💚💚 I couldn’t be more grateful, we love you so much Alexander

[worshipsong]

This is not a song. It's a masterpiece.

[prestonthompson]

Jake, What a beautiful song. You have brought healing to so many people. ❤ In 2021 my son put on his angel wings and went to heaven. It was so hard for me to see my son go through so many struggles with depression and anxiety. Life in incomplete without him. He was so talented, smart and handsome.
I miss my baby everyday. He was my life, my joy, my sunshine! Remember you are loved and stay strong! ❤ God Bless

[_ruth__]

I felt exactly like this a year ago but then I entrusted myself to Jesus and He saved me. He gave me life, hope and love back. As the lyrics say "God take me away from this hell", He really did ❤

[albertmorlaibangura]

Depression is REAL.
We must always check on loved ones.
It's a very dark place mentally.
I Pray for everyone going through the inner to be strong and don't give in to suicidal thoughts. It's a phase that shall pass.
Peace and Love

[juliaelkanova]

[Verse 1]
I've been tryin' so hard to survive
Sometimes I think that I wanna die
I feel so fucking guilty 'cause god I'm so lucky to live my life
So I keep all the pain to myself
Losin' faith but nobody can tell
Mom, I don't want you worried 'cause that would just hurt me
So I pretend I'm fine

[Chorus]
If you only knew
What my mind is tellin' me I should do
That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight
I'm too sad to cry, it's true, oh
If you only knew
All the shit my brain is puttin' me through
You'd come runnin' over straight to my room here tonight
I'm sorry but I need you, oh
If you only knew

[Verse 2]
I wish I was somebody else
I'm constantly overwhelmed
Now I'm falling again gettin' drunk with some friends
It's a silent cry for help
I wanna get better, I want you to know
That I can't do this on my own

[Chorus]
If you only knew
What my mind is tellin' me I should do
That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight
I'm too sad to cry, it's true, oh
If you only knew
All the shit my brain is puttin' me through
You'd come runnin' over straight to my room here tonight
I'm sorry but I need you, oh

[Bridge]
Take me out of this hell
Oh, somebody help
Take me out of this hell
Oh, I'm not myself

[Outro]
I wanna tell you what my mind is tellin' me I should do
That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight
I'm too sad to cry but I want to
Oh, if you only knew

[jonm]

1.6 million views in just 3 weeks tells you just how powerful this song is. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve listened to this song and just cried.

[mwisenezanabil]

Leave a like here 😢, I need to come back 😊