My Mom Died of Brain Cancer, And It Was Awful

This is my long, long update on what happened between my last video and today. Thank you for listening to my story.

I forgot to edit any pictures in the video itself, which is fine. But I want everyone to see my mom, and how cool she is, so here are a few links to some pictures.

[elizabethk]

I am so very sorry. I lost my mother 30 years ago to pancreatic cancer. It was 5 weeks from diagnosis to death. Losing a mother is a very profound loss. May your grief be short and bearable, and may your memories bring you joy. Blessed Be. ❤

[TheSaltySiren]

I’m so sorry for your loss. The place your mother was at, sounds like my worst nightmare. I had worked in a nursing home, as part of my Psychiatric Technician training. After 3 months of working in this place, I vowed to never leave a family member in a place like this. I watched in horror as all the Nurses struggled with their patient loads. I understand that not everyone is built for nursing care, and it is so expensive to have care for our parents. It just breaks my heart at your poor Momma waiting an hour just to be toileted. I’m so glad you discharged her. What a disaster!

[robinmaynard]

I am in this process with pancreatic cancer. I watched this to see what my kids will go through. I cannot express how very truly grateful I am that you were willing to be so open and vulnerable. This has helped me so much.

[lcgswolf]

I’m truly sorry for your loss, I also lost my mom 5 years ago, Leuchemia, it sucks, the impotence, the pain, but eventually you learn how to live with it

[sudobase]

Sorry for your loss. I have to admit not many weeks after watching this vid. I went through the experience of watching my Dad die over 24 days. The anticipatory grief and the stress of that is brutal. It has been one month and I feel like the shock is slowly starting to fade. But what I'd like to say is Thank you for sharing your experience. Trying to find those few silver linings was something to focus on and made some parts of an awful experience at least meaningful and special.

[AlexanderLeister]

My mom died about 3 weeks ago from lung cancer at the age of 66. Dying is one thing, but dying from cancer is cruel. From diagnosis to her death she only had 2 and a half months left. The last day when she was conscious, I couldn't even have a coherent conversation with her because she was so confused. It's devastating.
All that said, I feel for you and hope you are okay. A lot of your descriptions are similar to what I experienced.
Cancer is shit and we should put everything we can into science and progress to beat it.

[balorprice]

I'm so sorry for your loss. Thank you for being brave enough to get in front of a camera and let us know. You're a lovely person. Take all the time you need, we'll be here when you're ready <3

[DanielPersson]

I'm sorry for your loss. I've been through something similar or been close to it. My whole family is left, and my wife has none of her family except for extended family. Last was her father who had lymphoma, and it was a multiple-month process. My wife is a specialist nurse so she knows way too much about what could or will happen. I spent multiple months taking care of the family and not speaking with my wife because she was so exhausted from talking with the extended family and explaining and handling their fears and feelings so she had no energy to talk to me.

Sometimes, people need you to do stuff without asking or talking because handling others could be a burden.

[lucygonzalez]

Sorry for your loss❤ I lost my 34 year old son to cancer. It was extremely painful, we did have some special moments and a spiritual moment that was extremely special. I too was diagnosed with breast cancer 8 months after he passed. Cancer sucks!! Thank you for sharing your story I can truly relate.

[STT]

How incredibly special that those were her last words to you❤ So sorry for your loss.

[abigailh]

You're such a lovely human just like your mom. She lives on within you forever ❤

[mykelhedge]

I'm so sorry for your loss. My Gran had skin cancer earlier this year, though she underwent operations unfortunately it seems they were not enough as we recently found out it has spread to her brain. There is nothing to be done, but hopefully make her happy for the time she has left, in much the same way that you seem to have done with your mum.

[noiddiaspora]

Sincere condolences. I lost my mother earlier this month to cancer that spread to her spine. She had been in and out of the hospital for a few weeks and just kept getting worse. I saw it coming a mile away but it doesn't help. It feels so weird just looking back to September and remembering her being ambulatory and energetic, to October when she was bedridden and barely coherent. I remember her telling me she was ready to go when I was visiting one night, and she was gone three days later. This stuff happens way faster than you can possibly imagine.
I'm sorry you also had to go through all this agony. I'm fortunate enough to have a lot of good people looking out for me, and they've made it so much more bearable. I hope I can provide some small comfort by sending good vibes over the internet.

[melindamartin]

Thank you so much for your thoughts precious...my little sister has now entered her final hours (glioblastoma), just lost my Mumma 6 weeks ago (brain aneurysm from Warfarin), your soothing words and beautiful calming voice have been so soothing for me 💕
Blessed be 💜💕💜🙏

[SirAU]

I didn't know that you had reappeared on the platform. When I did, I was presented with this news. I am sorry for your loss. May your mother rest in peace.

[joa]

I can understand what you are going through because my mother was diagnosed in April with anaplastic thyroid cancer and has a short time to live. It's been a horrible few months.

Lots of encouragement, and a big hug.

[Spark_es]

10 years ago yesterday, I also lost my mother because leuchemia. She was 51 years old. Be strong and happy in your life, I'm sure that your mother would have wanted it that way.

[bobbieanncraigie]

My heart goes out to you and your family 💙 I’m so sorry for your loss; try to stay strong and try not to forget how she would want you to live a happy life. I’m 29 and my mother passed away when I was 23 after a 7 year battle with b-cell lymphoma brain cancer, she had gone into remission for some time before having a second growth and had passed soon after. My mom was my best friend; she loved animals and was always trying to be there for others. I try to do these things for others and other things in my life to keep her alive even though she is gone. No one deserves this and I’m sorry you’ve had to witness and endure such a tragedy. 💛⭐️💪

[ajwaddanwarr]

I am sorry for your loss, but as someone going through something similar, thank you for sharing. It really made me feel less alone in my ordeal. Thank you.

[winterlite]

⚡️Dear sweet lady. This video is the first of yours I have seen. I am very sorry for the loss of your mother. My youngest sibling has cancer and so does my brother-in-law. Sadly, illness and death come to us all - to some of us sooner than others. I am touched to my core and grateful to you beyond words for being so brave in the midst of your pain. Listening to you share the details of your experience will help everyone who is fortunate enough to watch this. Please know that you were an incredible daughter! (I am daughter and a mother of two grown men). There is no doubt in my mind that your mom’s transition was blessed as you said your blessings for her in you heart! I believe her soul felt fully free to cross over at that exact moment. May your higher power give you all the strength and courage you need in your journey ahead. God bless you and thank you ✨🙏🏽💖