when you're gay, but your crush isn't :) | a playlist

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as usual, none of the songs or images used are mine. enjoy!

[lolitajudith]

TIMESTAMPS:

[00:00] Dodie -She
[03:45] Jake Wesley Rogers - The Pretender
[07:17] Claud - Wish You Were Gay
[10:29] Alekxander - Tell Jackson
[13:51] Abbey Glover - I Wish You Liked Girls
[19:30] Smoothboi Ezra - A Shitty Gay Song About You
[21:42] Little Big Town - Girl Crush
[25:08] Conan Gray - Heather

[ggigigia]

in all seriousness, I don't mind if she's straight. I don't mind if she doesn't view me the way i view her. I'd just like to admire her from afar if it meant making her comfortable. i don't mind if she doesn't like me back, but i have to admit, the thought of her falling in love soon breaks my heart because i know it will never be me. the thought of her so deeply inlove finally finding her dearest, kinda hurts. of course i'll be happy for her but i'd be lying if i said I wouldn't be jealous of the boy that capture her heart, cause he's damn lucky having her, the way i couldn't even be hers.

[bicuriousdirtbikeboi]

He was the first guy I’ve ever truly loved, and he didn’t even know it until I told him. His response was “I love you like my brother, but I don’t love you like that. You deserve someone who loves you the way you need to be loved”

[Willw-tree]

She's so pretty.. She's straight, into guys only and I don't mind obviously, I've just let my feelings die down once I realized that. We have tons of shared interests and are both chaotic in a good way, share humor, etc. It'll never be more then a friendship, but I'm happy for her! She's an amazing person and deserves all the best.

[doalux]

ok youtube i’m considering this a personal attack 😭

[hikurashi]

Definitely the playlist I was looking for, because rn i'm in loved with a girl, she treated me nice, she treated me everything, she even flirts a bit, but when I think outside the box it's just me thinking it's something. She just treats me like that because i'm her friend and she's comfortable with me. I'm having a mixed feelings rn.

[al.rivera]

I've been in love with her for years now, and to be honest, i can't see myself in a relationship with her anymore. It's like, i can only love her quietly because of the years i spent being in love with her in secret. Feelings sure are incredible; i thought I've gotten over her but she always seems to know when to rekindle my feelings towards her.

[sofia_loves_fruit_snacks]

I remember listening to this playlist when I was straight and cis, sad that my crush was gay, now I’m 5 yrs older, non-binary, and as I was finding out my sexuality, my crush came out as a trans girl, and then I realized I was in love with a straight girl and now I’m like shit time to pull up this playlist again

[good]

Damn I'm crying all the time when I read all the comments and listen to these songs. It's such a awesome playlist fr

[turkintrance]

i recently came out to my friend (M) as a transgender male, and he full accepted me, but i started to catch feelings for him. i would always check up on him and ask him if he was staying hydrated. we would care for eachother, and we had a good friendship, but then, i confessed to him and he said he did kind of like me, but it was because i was feminine, despite being a boy. he didnt want me because i was a guy, and he doesnt date men. my heart got broken because later on that day he got a girlfriend, who also appears to be one of my other friends. i couldnt get over him, and i kept on coming back and he would always turn me down. i fell into a deep depression, and nothing could help. im currently still in that depression because i cant get over him, i want to but i cant, but its better, and not as worse as it was back this playlist helps me alot for when i just want to lay in bed and think about life.

i also started crying when heather played because that song really hit me in the feels 😔
sorry for the sudden vent, but i had to get it out.

this is a very nice playlist, keep up the good work!! thank you so much!! :_))

[molliel]

You turn around laughing and jokingly covering your face as she points a polaroid camera at you
She looks up at you and starts laughing
She runs toward you and squeezes your cheeks as she kisses one side
Holding the camera up to take a photo you pose scrunching your nose
You both laugh an fall to the ground on the blanket
While she looks up at the sky giggling you look down at her mesmerized
You take a deep breath ready to express your true feelings
"You know I-"
She looks at you and interrupts
-"You know I love you"
-"You're my best friend!"
-"Days like these I'm glad to have you as a friend" 
She says eating a strawberry 

"Yeah.. *friend*"
You start at her lips looking at the strawberry juice left behind 
Looking like lipgloss..
you just want to put her head in your hand and kiss her..
You lay back down and start to fall asleep
You open your eyes to find her on your chest
you look down stroking her cheek as she's smiling in her sleep
"I don't just love you."
"I'm in love with you"
Her smile turns into a frown
she opens her eyes
and looks at you
-"Wh-what?"
You shoot up nervously..
"Screw it"
You kiss your putting your thumb against her chin
She pushes you away and wipes her mouth
-"Look I knew you were gay but-"
"But what!?"
You say slapping your hands against your side
-"You can't love me that way.. I don't love you the way you do.. I will never be able to love you like that"
She says walking away
she got on her bike and went home..
You look down at the blanket
Looking at all the food you two were gonna eat
You sit back down sitting criss cross
Taking a slice of pizza and eating it.. while crying.
*I wish you were gay..*

[keeprkyd]

YOU CANNOT START WITH SHE. I’M NOT SUPPOSED TO CRY THIS EARLY INTO THE PLAYLIST

[miljanmilojevic]

I've had a crush on this guy for about 3 months now who is also my classmate at uni. I've had crushes before, but those were all so I could say that I have a crush so I wouldn't be weird. This crush is different. In the start it was full of daydreaming about our life together, writing love sonnets with butterflies in my stomach, being on cloud 9 every time I would see or even think of him. Sometimes, I would look at him during class and he would look at me. We've never talked much except saying hi in the hallway. However, as time's passing I'm beginning to feel like he doesn't even acknowledge my existence when we don't see each other. It's really starting to feel one-sided and it hurts so much. I had such dreams about us together, laughing, cuddling, even confessing to each other and our first kiss. The last few days I've been crying because of the thought that he doesn't like me like that. When will the pain stop?

[caitlingroves]

I've never felt like I've wanted to cry so much because something is so true and attacking to the heart strings of mine

[Syn_]

even after i confessed to her, she didn't push me away completely. she kept me close and cherished me as a friend. I cant help but feel a little guilty for hoping her treating me this way means im different to her. that im more special.... How can I not fall for her?

[mishamillannavarro]

I'm transgender male, and I'm in love with this girl. I've been in love with her even before I realized I was trans. When I came out to her, she was supportive and she still is.

I want to be with her. I want to be the one who makes her smile. I want to be the one who comforts her when she's sad.
I want to tell her I'm in love with her.
But... We could never be since she probably doesn't like me back.
Besides, her family's also religious.

It just sucks being in love with someone you can't be with.

I'm thinking of just telling her how I feel about her, but I doubt that she'd still want to be friends after that.
This love thing hurts.

[melvinathemagnificent]

Well I feel attacked and I don't even have a crush lol keep it up, your channel is so underrated 😊💓💜💙

[Soldiernotpoet]

Shes so pretty, and sweet. Shes everything i want and everything i want to be . She has the most adorable freckles and the sweetest brown eyes. Her hair is like waves of dark chocolate and her personality is even sweeter. I want her so bad, but she’ll never want me :(((

[fgboilg]

I fell in love with him over 8 years ago. I couldn’t and still can’t stop loving him. He said he was straight but strung me along. He took a lot from me. Used me for pleasure, kindness and love. I helped with so many favors, I never let him fall. No matter how much I loved and did for him. He became so abusive. He betrayed me and is with girls. We were never even officially together…

Why did you hold me, why did you use me for affection and love then hit me after we experienced it. we were both men, I was open about my feelings, why did you play me regardless. I held onto hope i could love the hatred away. That maybe it was repressed homophobia and we’d be together once you got comfortable. You never did. 8 years of loving you, while you used me for 8 years. I still find myself saying I miss you though. I still find myself loving you. I think I will forever.

[urmom]

I never knew how much I needed this playlist- thank you for making this <33