Sleeping At Last - 'Nine' (Official Lyric Video)

"Nine" - inspired by Enneagram Type Nine is from the "Atlas: II" song series by Sleeping At Last.
Produced by Wonderkind Studios (Huge thanks to Brian MacDonald!)
Handwriting by Ryan O'Neal

[elux]

"To know and love ourselves and others well is the most difficult and meaningful work we'll ever do."

[ThatMillennialDad]

"How do I forgive myself for losing so much time?" THAT HIT HARD

[cluo]

the line “I have been sleepwalking since I was 14” hits hard. I’ve been suicidal for the entirety of my teenage years, and now that I’m about to graduate and move onto the next big thing, I realize that I never actually planned on making it this far. But no matter what, I’ve got to keep going, after all, how else am I going to fall in love “again and again and again?”

[xMeltedCandyx]

To all my fellow 9s going through a tough time just know, "there's so much worth fighting for. You'll see"

[mpccurrent]

I've never felt like a nine until i heard this song. the part about losing time really hits hard. I'm so afraid of growing up and losing opportunities, but i'm I'm also too afraid to do anything about it.

[azumi]

the nines,
broken dreamers,
hopeless beautiful and strong people,
we can do this,
i´m proud of you all,
hugs

[zey]

I don’t know who I am.

Sometimes, I feel like I’m just trying so hard to make others happy. Yes, it succeeded. Almost everyone likes me, my personality, my emotions.
And until that one time, one of my childhood friend asks me, ” Have you forgot who you were already?”

Right.
Who am I?
After primary school I changed a lot. I stopped to be selfish, but selfless. I’ve learnt to smile every time. I’ve learnt to make myself more outgoing even I’m just a fucking introvert.

I got friends. A lot of friends. From my own class to social network, and it turns out I’m lost in the abyss.

Who am I? Am I just another clown? Probably.

I’ve lost my feelings, I can’t feel much pain or sadness or even happiness. I know to survive, I must stay positive and happy and always laugh. But the original side of mine had lost. I’ve forgot who I am.

The only thing I remember is my dream of being a doctor. It’s fucking hard. I procrastinate I’m lazy and I’m trying so hard to change. My mother always said I used to be so hardworking, and now I’m just stuck. I listened to motivational songs or TED talks but I just can’t find my booster.

I guess I’ll just keep on going. With a soulless mind and a fragile dream.

It was hard for me to stay focus on something for more than 3hrs, but I guess I’ll have to keep on going and become a doctor just to find myself back.

Wish me luck.

[willow]

This made me cry, as a nine, I’ve never actually felt like myself. Most of my life is just me trying to prove others that I’m worthy and pleasing them. I don’t really know who I even am.

[toricastroalves]

I think the most meaningful part for me was "I've been less than half myself for more than half my life." My depression makes it difficult for me to really be there in the moment. I'm just existing, not really feeling.
But recently.... I'm getting better. Very slowly, but better. And I'm falling in love again and again and again. I'm relearning to love the blue sky, the colorful flowers, and even myself. I feel like the black and white is fading away, revealing a million colors I've never known.

[trizhajovellerendiza]

To the person who's reading this,

You are loved,
You are worthy...
And greater things await you.

I am rooting for you. You will overcome. I love you.

Talk. Communicate. Reach out.
You are not alone. We are with you.

[smallsavage]

“wage war on gravity” felt like a reference to pluto, “the heaviness in my heart belongs to gravity, ” which fits because it’s the ninth planet.

[caitlinmccormack]

My good friend, who is a 2, had me take an enneagram test and listen to the song that corresponded immediately. We were in a rather public place and I started to cry halfway through this song. She was on her phone and I didn't want to draw any attention to myself or bother her so I just stayed silent until she looked over at me and wrapped an arm around my shoulders. I don't think anything better describes a 2 and 9 relationship quite like that and I'll forever be grateful for her <3

[karissastephenson]

the number nine was the first tattoo i got. this song helped me stop being suicidal. I made it a whole nine months without cutting when I got it. Ten months going strong. :)
Edit: thank you so much for the love and support. Now 19 months going strong :)

[sylo]

"Wake up. Roll up your sleeves. Stand up. Fall in love again. Wage war on gravity. There's so much worth fighting for." I cling and hold on to these words. Your songs just break me down to my core.

[kathynguyen]

Lyrics:

who am i
to say what any of this means-
i have been sleepwalking
since i was fourteen.

now as i write my song,
i retrace my steps.
honestly, it’s easier
to let myself forget.

still, i check my vital signs.
choked up, i realize
i’ve been less than half myself
for more than half my life.

wake up.
fall in love again,
wage war on gravity.
there’s so much
worth fighting for.
you’ll see.

another domino falls
either way.

it looks like empathy,
to understand all sides,
but i’m just trying to find myself
through someone else’s eyes.

so please show me what to do
to restart this heart of mine.
how do i forgive myself
for losing so much time?

wake up.
roll up your sleeves.
there’s a chain reaction
in your heart,
muscle memory
remembering who you are.

stand up.
fall in love again and again and again.
wage war on gravity.
there’s so much
worth fighting for,
you’ll see.

another domino falls
and another domino falls

a little at a time,
i feel more alive.
i let the scale tip and feel all of it,
it’s uncomfortable but right.

we were born to try,
to see each other through.
to know and love ourselves and others well
is the most difficult and meaningful
work we’ll ever do.

I hope everyone finds their comfort today, even just for a little while. You are beautiful and loved exactly as you are.

[youraveragemusicperson]

They always make me cry.
Especially with
"It looks like empathy to understand all sides, I'm just trying to find myself through someone else's eyes"
I remember when this song first came out, I stayed up so late to listen to it when it was released. I'm a 945.

[Jennifer-drmd]

To my nines out there... we’ll be okay ♥️

[brodiegirl]

“Another Domino falls either way...”
I love that line. I’m learning about myself and figuring out what that means. I’ve found myself saying “life will go on no matter what I do, so I might as well take a chance”, and I feel like that line is so profoundly simple. We can fight to know and love ourselves and those around us, or we can stay asleep. Life goes on either way. Why not try?

[hasuramapa]

I swear these nine songs have the best comment sections of all time. People realising they are being felt and understood and not alone by themselves ❤ so wholesome and beautiful :')

[laihat]

The "it looks like empathy[...] But I'm just trying to find myself through someone else's eyes"
Hits hard