'Four' - Sleeping At Last (Lyric Video)

Song: "Four", inspired by the Enneagram Type 4, is from the Sleeping At Last project, "Atlas: Year Two" ...

[kyliesmith]

As a four we often feel we are impossible to be understood. We don’t really want to be understood. But this makes me feel safe, like I belong, like someone gets it, like I’m not alone.

[isabellarae]

He could sing a menu to me and it’d still make me weep

[ethanaverton]

COOL FACT: the first line "I'm turning out the lights, to remember how to see"... inspired him to have all the musicians memorize the music, and they recorded this song in complete darkness.

[sydneykurtyak]

“What if we already are what we’ve been dying to become.” Man this hit me hard. I think of myself as not good enough most of the time, but what if I’m already there? Fellow fours?

[layanna]

*“This blurred photograph is proof”*
Points to us feeling like we don’t have much of an identity, like we don’t quite know ourselves and we’re forever searching for our missing piece to fill a void that is easily widened by feeling like we’re not good enough and comparing ourselves to others...

[triz]

Being a four is lonely, even if I have friends, I still wish there someone out there who could truly understand me.

[saraj.]

A line that hit me deep and hard is,
“I’ve fallen in love with a ghost” to me, means this: we are imaginative, therefore dreamers; falling in love with a ghost is like creating expectations and beauty in someone that is not truly there. Or, creating the perfect companion that most definitely could not even exist. We cling to someone transparent, flickering in the shadows, too perfect to take into our possession. It’s honestly a very hard, and depressing truth for us/me to understand fully.


Fellow fours, agree? Opinions?

[sweetangellie]

“Maybe my heart needs to break to be sure” I symbolized someone giving themselves up and dying for others, I am crying

[emilymathis]

All the comments are so depressing, but this song is pointing out the strengths of type Fours. How we search for and find beauty in things, the way we find deeper layers and meanings in life; we bring a perspective to this world that it needs. The world may not always notice you but that's because you are quietly making it better in your own way. Just a little positivity :)

[firstkeepitreel]

INFP and Type 4
I feel like I’m constantly contradicting myself. Wanting attention but feeling ashamed when I get it. Living a life of achievements but feeling as though none of them matter. I want to let out my emotions but am afraid of being dramatic and over emotional. I hide my emotions until something sends them flooding out. I call myself names, say that I’m not good enough, blame everything on myself. I feel as though I have so much responsibility for my life that others mistakes are the results of my wrongdoing. It’s a daily cycle of keeping things to myself before letting them all out, then beating myself up for doing so.
It’s hard. Really hard. Song didn’t make me cry, but made me think about myself and what an unhealthy mindset I’ve had for such a long time. Maybe if I stopped comparing myself to others and hating myself for not being the best, it could stop

[baemax]

For those who dont get what the numbers are for, here's the list for each numbers info:
One means the reformer
Two means the helper
Three means the achiever
Four means the individualist
Five means the investigator
Six means the loyalist
Seven means the enthusiast
Eight means the challenger
Nine means the peacemaker
😀😀😀

[jujugogo]

As a four, i feel identificated with most of the comments here. It's like having a lot of friends that feel exactly like you. This feels like a hug that says: youre not alone

[tirucatalina]

My lovely type four,

You are the exception to all the rules and perhaps even you cannot understand what is inside of your heart. You are pasionate, sensitive, significant and overly dramatic. You are a drama queen that a few people get to understand. You are a unique soul in search of meaning and significance in your life. You are pure emotion even though sometimes it is so hard to describe yourself. You still lose yourself and your sense of identity every now and then but that is totally OK. You push people you love away in order to see if they come back. Maybe deep down in your heart you think you deserve to be alone. The thing is, there will always be someone that keeps coming back because you are so worth it. You want real things and yet you are abstraction. You are art, you are poetry, metaphors and you are definitely a song worth singing.
Sometimes you are the only reason you are in pain. You can isolate yourself from the others but deep down I know you just defend yourself behind those big walls of yours. You are so sensitive, my friend. You want someone to read you like an open book, and when you find that person you make sure that relationship is valued. You are deep and special, even loving person.
It is time you get closer to the real you. Maybe listen to yourself more often, start understanding who you are and accept yourself with compasion. Find gratitude for both the joy and sorrow, find beauty in ordinary. This fear of not being known, of not knowing your significance has to stop. You are known for who you are and you are really amazing.

Sincerely yours,
type two friend

[kyliesmith]

Falling in love with a ghost means a lot to me. It means a lot of different things but mainly for us fours I think it shows how we have the romanticized idealized version of ourselves. A perfection, a uniqueness, a beauty, a certain thing we constantly try to achieve, but it’s not real. We fall in love with these concepts that can’t give us anything. We fall in love with the idea of being something that’s unattainable. We fall in love with a version of ourselves we either want to be or even think deep down we are. A version we feel nobody else can see. But It’s hard to come to terms with reality sometimes

[kaylgp]

“I’m stuck swimming in shadows down here” for me this means: I always feel as if nobody is like me, nobody understands me or really cares to. As if I am swimming alone amongst shadows (everyone else).

[saraj.]

Are there any fours here on the enneagram?? I am. Just laying here crying, haha...

[toasty]

"I can't help but think that ordinary has swallowed the key"
"Maybe my heart needs too break to be sure"
"This blurry photograph is proof of I'm not sure but it seems like truth"
"Determined to find authenticity"
"What if we already are what we've been dying to become"

These lyrics hit hard and brought me to tears

[brokely]

*“bodies fashioned out of dirt and dust. for a moment we get to be glorious”* this one stuck. it’s like every time you think you’ve found yourself, you get a high from it. you tell yourself that you found the person you’ve been desperately searching for this whole time, but maybe you’ve built it to make yourself feel better about who you are. you can never be quite sure, because before you can analyze it, everything blows away like dust on wind. it leaves you empty until you find “yourself” again.

[lorizielambuyat]

*what if we already are, who we've been dying to become?*

What if we're already the person we needed and want the most? We're just blinded by the thoughts that loves comes from other person rather than love comes right within ourselves? That acceptance comes from us first. Belongingness starts with us first. And most importantly, happiness is us and the others are just part of the happiness but WE are the one who complete it.

[elizabethjevilsizer]

When I was a young girl I struggled with synthesia... For those that don’t know, synthesia is the association of all things even though they may not be related. For example, the number 4 to me is associated with the color of a light brown and is like the sunrise after a night storm. 4 to my mind is also the number that has felt so much pain but doesn’t let it show. No one knows that I have this, but now you all know a piece of my mind.
-a number 4