**I'M PISSED OFF** (Bipolar Anger) - Polar Warriors

FROM THE VIDEO:
"I've never worked on a video script when I'm crawling out of my skin... totally and completely – pissed off at the world. And we'll get to that...

Here's how my brand of bipolar disorder works... I get hypomanic, accomplish a bunch of things... Then, something starts to change. First I feel a little overwhelmed by all the things I'm committed to. It's like “too much of a good thing.” My body is on it's last tank of endorphins. Some people call this their “second wind.” Soon my brain can't keep up biochemically with my racing-mind and busy-body. I get overstimulated, agitated, and extremely pessimistic. I'm probably the least desirable to be around at this point. If I feed it, or if a trigger pushes me over the edge, that's when I cause the most damage in my life.

Then... The crash comes. It's usually proportionate to how high I went. The crash is also compounded by all the stupid s*** I did while I was manic. Now I have the perfect reasons to be depressed, until the whole cycle starts over again.

Sounds familiar right?"

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-Our channel is completely dedicated to helping individuals, families, and friends who struggle with, or know someone living with Bipolar Disorder. Our goal is to provide actual tools, tips, and discuss topics that can potentially help “Polar Warriors” grow to live a more balanced, peaceful, and fulfilling life.

-Rob Whittaker, Polar Warriors: Bipolar Support

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HELPFUL LINKS & ADDITIONAL CONTENT:

[jonsmith]

That Bipolar rage is something else. Jekyll and Hyde in real life.

[Angel-ymop]

Ruined every relationship with my anger/ madness. Very difficult to control

[newsing]

I understand perfectly. I'm so tired of the rollercoaster ride. It's never going to end. Up and down, up and down, it's like hell on Earth. 😢

[JesseAbair]

“Feel it. Don’t feed it.” Man what a simple statement yet profound concept. Thinking back on so many fights and tripped triggers and metric tons of resentment and hurt fueling so much of it… if my partner (at the time) and I could have focused on that concept instead of demonizing each other, we could have saved a lot of suffering.

[markbennett]

My dad suffered from this. He wasn’t so bad in the manic phase, but it was still a little strange. Anything could set him off. He could appear to be as happy as can be, and then switch in a moment to pure anger. The slightest criticism would trigger It. For example, my mom might say to him, “honey, you’re driving too slow. As a teenager in high school, I couldn’t stand being around him, and mocked his strange behavior. He was eventually diagnosed, and started taking anti depression medication. He didn’t want to take it at first because he hated to admit that he needed help. My mom insisted that he take the medication to save the marriage. It made a huge difference. He was much easier to be around when he was on it. You could tell when he stopped taking it. The symptoms would return.

[dejaliloquy]

being pissed off is the worst because it feeds itself, its like an existential trap. Not saying all anger is bad, but that pure negative rage, just god awful, a miserable evil

[roxannafernandez]

this brought tears to my eyes... knowing I am not alone...this feeling is so real and never could I put into words. Thank you for doing the work you do

[MissOrange]

“Sometimes you have to lose your mind to come to your senses.” Loved that!

[urltima]

I appreciate your videos as a female so much, but I can't imagine how much comfort you've brought men over the years. The whole "men can't feel" crap that has polluted yalls minds for too long, I hope your videos have brought men relief, comfort, and familiarity. Men feel HUGE emotions too. They feel just as much as women, we all just experience it differently, but just as painful. We all deserve to feel big emotions.

[luckystar]

You perfectly articulated the hell I go thru. Even tho it sucks, it’s “nice” to know other people feel like I do. My brain is constantly showing me horrible outcomes to pretty much any scenario all the time, and it’s exhausting. I just found you, so I’m going to follow and see what other insights you have. What you said was very helpful to me, thank you.

[SingleMalt]

My uncontrolled anger is what landed me with a bipolar diagnosis. I did not like being diagnosed with a mental disorder. Due to my pride, I felt ashamed and "less than". I have had very conflicted feelings about it and have wondered if I should have sought a second opinion. On the other hand, as I reflect on my life, I think I do see a trend of behaviors which seem indicative of my having bipolar disorder. Anyway, glad my channel surfing today landed me here.

[Logikbombmusik]

POLAR WARRIORS & Dr. Tracy Marks, these 2 channels saved my life the past 2 years.

[mollywhitman]

Everything and everyone is pissing me off today. I feel like I’m gonna explode. Miserable, angry and worthless. Yesterday day I was happy go lucky. I want off this roller coaster of hell that is my life.

[JensDIYhigh]

“Garbage tunnel” lol I love that! And yes it is so true..”sometimes you have to lose your mind to come to your senses” ❤️ I need out of this bipolar matrix Morpheus!! lol love your vids!! The struggle is

[ventilator]

I know a guy who is exactly like this. He's a sick man, and I feel so bad for him, because of what he's been through in his life. I literally spend hours worrying about him, because He may be very ill, but I know he can't help it, and It makes me feel sick to know what he goes through. A lot of times he blames me for all of his problems. I don't think he can help it. He's very very sick, and I honestly hurt to see him like this, because he didn't deserve to have this happen to him.

[mandyluna]

I've been working on myself for about 15 years now. It's a never ending beautiful journey. I love seeing how far I've come and can't wait to continue to keep improving.😊

[valanasha]

My daughter has bipolar and it can be very difficult for her to explain what she is feeling. It is also difficult for us to understand. I hate it and not sure how to help her sometimes. She was very angry last night and we had an argument because she was being rude and snappy. Long story of her journey and it effects the whole family. She is an adult and was only diagnosed 1 year ago and explains her behaviour, getting into debt, lying etc. 😭😢

[autumnskyes]

I've been feeling a lot of anger and resentment since my divorce. Just when I feel I'm managing or even over a lot of it, something happens that triggers it. Instead of it coming out though, I seethe. Hearing you explain what's going on in your life made me feel close to "normal" as normal can be being bi-polar. We aren't alone. Thanks for this.

[rehlorocco]

I have learned so much from you! I was diagnosed at 17 years old but not given any meds until my GP guess I was bipolar and put me on medicine 35 years old. I don’t know how I survived the whole of these years without lithium. Please don’t stop making these videos! I am very broke but when I have a few extra dollars I definitely will become a Patreon. God bless you and your work!

[shakia]

I had a meltdown a couple of weeks ago. The anger was getting so bad and I was taking it out on my boss. Then I went and kicked a hole in my bedroom door. I felt better but then later felt stupid for having damaged a door. I find the bipolar anger harder and harder to manage but am also going through other health issues which are taking a long time to diagnose. I just get so frustrated and angry. It’s not a nice feeling and I know it’s not really me but I feel like I can’t control it.