𝟮𝗮𝗺.

Tracklist:
0:00 undercurrent. - rain on my window

1:44 boone - cold nights

3:39 anębu, Late Night Tones - index of us (slowed + reverb)

5:15 entris, Blut Own - solace

7:25 slewy - stay calm

9:11 c152 - will find you

10:58 widx., Soothing Spore - ash (slowed + reverb)

13:16 deneb, widx. - until you’ve warmed my heart

15:07 Rōōh, anębu - a moment we will never see (slowed + reverb)

17:07 Mineve, crybaby - you and the ocean (slowed + reverb)

19:24 c152, trème - nightingale

21:34 🔁

#ambientmusic #snowfall #darkambient #sleepmusic

[supremeleaderoofpoof]

i love staying up. i know how draining it can be, but sometimes i just love the feeling of being the only one awake in my house while everyone else is asleep. just me and my earbuds, alone in my room. perhaps it's the solitude, the one moment where i can truly exist, untouched and unbothered by anyone else. a moment in the dark, the lovely night, no blaring lights or loud conversations, just me and my music. a respite. a reset. a reprieve. and i am once again revived, then i sleep.

[ursonicexe]

"One day after my suicide"

The day after my suicide, I loved my mother even more, when I saw her crying on the floor of my room, hugging my clothes with my photos scattered around her, I saw so much love past the tears in her eyes.

The day after my suicide, I felt how much my father loved me, no matter how hard it was, in the midst of so much sadness, he spoke to me with tears in his eyes about how proud he was of me and how much he loved me.

The day after my suicide, I saw my dog was more incredible than I could imagine. Everytime someone came home, he would run to the door excited to see me, and seeing that it was not me, would lay down in front of the door and continue waiting for me.

The day after my suicide, I felt the love of my sister when I saw her sitting in her room with eyes full of tears. She remembered the times we played, talked and argued together in our beautiful childhood. Treasured moments.

The day after my suicide, I felt how important I was to my best friends. They were looking at all our pictures together...remembering the laughs we shared.

The day after my suicide, I felt the sorrow in my teachers. They blamed themselves for not noticing.

At night I went to the morgue to look for myself and said: "So many dreams we had", "So many loved ones", "So many people to meet", "You had so many people that loved you, yet you threw it all away?", "You have to have a lot of courage to take your life. Why didn't you use that courage to win?"

Thank goodness that was just a vision.

Remember: You are still here and can change your life forever. You are better than you think you are. Prettier, smarter and stronger.

[HungNguyen-oflo]

Whoever is reading this comment, I wish you success, health, love and happiness

[Voiwixxxs]

This is the hardest summer for me...I feel detached and unnecessary...I want to be meaningful, but why are people moving away from me? I haven't been able to sort myself out for the last few months, I don't understand how I feel. I can't bring myself to do anything, because I am tormented by thoughts, different thoughts, about the past, about the present and what will happen in the future...It's building up in my head...I can't keep it to myself anymore. I wanted to learn a lot this summer, but these thoughts make it difficult for me to focus on something. I think that this condition will pass soon and I will figure myself out...thanks to the author for this playlist, it helps me calm down to some extent ...)

[joyvisions]

Came for some cozy ambience, ended up reading through the comments and just crying. What a strange experience that I stumbled on to this video on today of all days. I have been dealing with the sudden, oppressive question of how I ended up where I am today. I have job security, a roof, food, but feel so alone. My romantic relationship is failing, my friendships feel empty, and I am becoming so distant physically and emotionally from my family. I miss my childhood days so much. It's like life happened too fast for me to process and now here I am whether I like it or not. I hope everyone can find peace tonight. Thank you for all the words.

[uberuberuber-oj]

If you’re reading this, it might be night time or day time, or maybe you’re studying for an upcoming test. Or you’re doing nothing in particular and just want to listen to some calming songs. No matter why you’re here, I want you to know that everything is okay. Take a deep breath, pause whatever you’re doing, and look outside. If possible, step outside for a minute. Breathe in the fresh, cool air. Take a moment to appreciate the beauty of this world we live in. It might be imperfect, but it’s still incredibly beautiful.

Just like the world, you are unique and wonderful. I hope you dream big, find yourself, and do what makes you truly happy. Surround yourself with the people you love and who love you. Do what you can to find joy and contentment. Even if you feel alone right now, remember that you are loved by many, even if it doesn’t always feel that way.

Things will get better. You will find love, make amazing friends, and achieve your dreams. I hope you live your life to the fullest, becoming the happiest version of yourself and finding joy in every step of your journey. You matter, and you deserve all the happiness that life has to offer.

[Recoil]

My mom was just diagnosed with lung cancer. She has surgery soon to try and get ahead of it. I am beside myself with grief about it. Lost my job taking care of her while recovering from a surgery of my own to rebuild my destroyed ankle. And now her surgery is one year to the day after I had mine. It feels ominous.

I stay awake all night anymore most nights worrying. Worrying about my mom, about money, about everything really. I hope none of you are going through anything like this.

*UPDATE:*

The surgery was successful, and after the biopsy, it turned out to be a false positive! She is cancer free, and recovering. It turned out to be a serious infection that had become necrotic in one of her lobes. But, she is doing well now.

Thank you all for your support, for your prayers, etc.. I appreciate it, and so does she!

[-devil-]

The song and the comments unnecessarily go so hard, makes you feel a connection that exist between us, as humans.

[balaji]

Guys, I'm just 15. But in my 15 years of experience living on this planet, I learnt one thing very well. I learnt that, “Judging someone is easy, but understanding them is very difficult”. Try to understand others, people. After all, we are all one species.

[rosemaryazelton]

I've been reading all the comments, people sharing their struggles, and sharing encouragement. But mostly sharing the same experience of a sleepless night. It makes me feel a type of connection that I can't quite explain. Because in some ways, every single human being has felt something akin to what I have felt, and I likewise have felt similarly to them. There are some universal experiences that we all understand to a degree, and I think that's so beautiful.

[wrightclarksonmd]

I'm a new doctor in a city 3000 miles from my home. Tonight, my patients are getting better, slowly. This music is holding us.

[PhillipXJ]

I see a lot of people are hurting here too… I’m sad we’re all experiencing hard moments, but grateful theres a place for me when i’m feeling so alone. I’ll sit in this little quiet moment, i’ve yearned for comfort all day.

I hope for better times for us all.. Sweet dreams

[Beidouispixels]

If you listen to this songs and come across this comment I just want to let you know that everything will work out for you if not then keep on hoping, who knows how many failures you will have to overcome, and achieve success. You are strong and will always be strong, believe on that and never give up, think of the positives and focus not on the negatives, tehe~ ya got this!!

[REii_Sya]

Every time I hear these songs, I always look at the sky at night in my yard and think about my life, missing my past when I was with my parents and now just living my life alone ✨🥺

[elvinabac]

I feel like the only person that is the most harshest on me is myself. Sometimes I have the toxic tendency to have a very low opinion on myself. May that be physically, by personality, intelligence or even by being myself. Sometimes I wish I could see past my mistakes. What is helping me recently to gain a little perspective on what my life should be about is to count my blessings no matter how little they might be. I have hundreds of reasons to be grateful; my family, my home, my ability to see, smell, hear, talk. I have every reason to live. You have every reason to live because the only thing that should keep you moving forward is yourself. You are worth of a good life. Make what you can with what you have with the intention to grow a better person. Honor the people that have the time to love you by who you are, be kind to people. Everybody has a different journey, so don't go comparing yourself to others. You are you, you don't need another persons success to determine yours, everybody has a different path, different struggles.

[beefluous]

I feel like I’m not lovable by anyone. That everyone is gonna leave me one day because I’m not interesting or entertaining enough. I don’t know why I feel so low of myself. To everyone feeling the same, just know that your worth isn’t defined by anyone else. You are brave, strong, beautiful inside and outside and unique. Well done for your work, you deserve everything you have accomplished. You are perfect as you are, you have or/and you’ll meet people that will see it. I’m writing this to any person that needs to read it, and also to myself, so maybe one day I’ll truly believe it.

[SoothingStorm]

It gets better.

Close your eyes, take a deep breath through your nose for 3 sec., exhale through your mouth for 8 sec. as you relax your jaw and visualize a gust of wind in the grass. Give yourself a hug. Self-compassion is important & through all adversity, you will always be there for yourself. Love comes from within. You don't need someone to validate you. You're good enough as the person you are, with all your flaws and experiences. Feelings are meant to be felt... They teach us something.

You are not alone. We are all searching for a purpose in life. What matters is that we strive to develop ourselves. It's not about where we are, who we are, what we've done... It's all about empathy. You are good enough & you are loved. Take one step at a time. It gets better. <3

[maanaviyadav]

It is so wholesome to see people from around the world expressing how they feel and what they're going through.. and I'm really sorry for what is happening with ya'll hope that you all get better and well, stay strong you got this! STAY POSITIVE.. GOD IS WITH US ❤

[Mossleaf-qq]

I used to dream.
I used to feel.
I used to trust.
But then it was me who was used.
Hurt, violated, and abused.
My trust was taken.
My spirit broken.
And now I sit alone.
Trying to salvage what’s left.

Trying to convince my self that I didn’t deserve it, it was theft.
But I’m struggling.
So every night, when I lay awake, I come on here, pick a sad song, and write a poem.
And with each poem, with each vent, it may slowly begin to dent, my near eternal sadness.
-a poem by me, for you to interpret.
Stay safe❤

[ChillCatCafe]

Listening while I get ready for bed. Life has really hit me in the last year. I’m getting older, everyone around me is getting older. My childhood is gone and I’ll never get it back. I don’t live at home anymore. My mom is an empty nester. I’m realizing just how fast time goes and how everything in life is truly a blessing. I’ve struggled with change my entire life; for some reason, when I was a little girl, I never pictured myself being where I am today; growing and experiencing life through my own eyes. I always thought I would stay little forever. Sadly, my younger self had to grow, she had to flourish into who she is today, but that just means time doesn’t stop for anyone or anything. I don’t have many people to talk to about this, so I tend to let it sit inside. But, growing up has been incredibly difficult, some days I just cry because I don’t even feel as though I’m in reality. I wish so badly that I could go back, not because I regret anything, but because my life growing up was picture perfect, out of a movie. I’m so grateful to have been given the childhood I was blessed with. My parents are everything and more to me. They are the reason I am the way I am today. I just wish they knew how hard it was for me to grow up, I need them now more than ever.