Ren - Troubles

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[RenMakesMusic]

There's a really good chance we could chart with tthis one! This would be the first time in history a song about M.E and lyme disease would make the top 40 which would be huge for awareness. Moments like this are pinch me moments and make me feel good about keeping the promise to my younger self. That's because of all you guys so thankyou so much!!

If you wana help secure that spot you can download Troubles on all platforms by following the link below
Let's go!!!

First official release of the year!


Heres the lyrics for anyone who wants them

I don't reach into the past very much for these shards of shattered glass and harsh paper cuts,
leave me stuck when I reach in, memories are seaped in hydrochloric acid, I go to war and get passive and freeze up,
But music helped the ice to thaw,
put a chizzel in the middle swing the hammer of Thor
pull it out of the impossible,
Excalibur sword
etching note pads full of reasons why my feelings are sore
The first day that I got sick ejected from cock pit of living
Ninteen, young teen, waking up Bitten
posters up, man hunt, Ren went missing
Hard to have faith when the gods don't listen
The first year maybe was the hardest
Waking in a body that was buried like a carcass
Brain in the lions den
Body in a sharkpit
Waking up in pain again
Aching broken hearted
Persistent little bugger I was bouncing from a doctor to a doctor to a doctor like a table tennis game that has no end
So be the fate of Ren
Every single question asnwered with a question on the end
The second year I came to terms with giving up my dreams mind severed from the means that helped me write these rhyme schemes
brain was inflamed
The fatigue was Crushing
Hard to remain sane with your brain combusting
And the third year was murder
Living in a purga-tory full of worry wouldn't live to be thirty
Life style style hurt me
Always in my bed tomb
Re-arrange the alphabet and all the letters spell doom
Light hurt my eyes
Popping pills to survive
When you're 23 and mentally you steadily decline
24 I was poor disability benefits
What's the benefit of disability it's irrelevant
25 and the scars that were etched...
they cracked
Elastic bands only stretch so far and then snap
Deep in phsycosis
hallucinations, troubled vision
Visits from the underworld were conjuring my Superstition
25, living back at home with my mum
But not because I'm a bum
Alone and physically done
So thin, so frail, so week I'd become
And my skin so pale, never kissed by the sun
One time I carved a whole in my chest, just to feel
I wish that was a metaphor, the struggle was real
When you're living in a holocaust you buckle and kneel
There's relief in the teeth of the kiss of cold steel
Facts
26 im highly medicated and the pain sophisticated while im laying broke and naked on my back
I brought my microphone into my Coffin, started droppin raw thoughts with the grim reaper knocking on the track
Then man, lo and behold
I heard an angel beckon on this treacherous road
Was a stem cell doctor with a generous glow
And a cell transplant brought Me out of the Cold
And my body got stronger
And my skin got younger
And my stomach felt hunger for a door that was closed
And my soul heard music for the first time
Beauty was a word I'd use for this gift of gold
Oh lord I forgive you
Lord I forgive you
Lord I forgive you
Make me whole
This music I give you
Pain that I live through
Everything I been through
Is yours to hold

[martinrossiter]

About a month ago I met a woman in her 50’s with Lyme disease. She’s from Brighton (REN’s hometown) and is part of a support group for other sufferers. I mentioned that I’d learned more about the disease through a musician called Ren. Her face immediately lit up, she described all the work he’s done to support her group - called him their hero. All of this done quietly, without fuss and without seeking any credit. He’s a good man. ❤

[umbra]

Tears streaming down my face. I've never met you, I will never meet you, yet the happiness I feel is immeasurable. I'm a doctor and the way you compare your doctor with an angel, is the highest honor ever.... May you never have health problems ever again.... modern-day Shakespeare...

[roobs]

My wife (GF at the time) fell ill suddenly at age 24. She spent 15 years unable to feed herself and sometimes slipping into a coma. Finally we found a clinic that could and wanted to help her. Now at 46 she has the energy of a 60-y.o. woman. Which doesn't sound all that great -- but it is amazing progress for someone who sometimes could not even speak, focus her eyes, or recognise her husband. At this very moment she's outside in the drizzle, planting seedlings in the garden. There is always hope.

[RenMakesMusic]

May is Millions missing month, or M.E. awareness month.

When I was first diagnosed with M.E. the amount of support and understanding of this illness was very low. I was left to suffer with no real explanation as to why. I wasn’t told at the time that this can be a by product of conditions like Lyme, POTS, MCAS, reactivating viruses. I had to figure that out by myself and it took years of trial and error, and treatments that often left me worse off until I was a functional human again. Over a decade later and the landscape still looks very much the same. Sufferers all over the world re left with debilitating, confusing symptoms and are left to drop off the face of the earth, unnoticed, because of the limited energy people have to advocate for themselves.
People go from living fully active lives to trapped in bed, sometimes for decades, with no reasons why.


M.E. a debilitating and cruel condition receives less than 6 times the amount of annual funding than Male Pattern Baldness.


Nancy Kilmas, a proffesor of microbiology and immunology once stated: ‘My H.I.V. patients for the most part are hale and hearty thanks to three decades of intense and excellent research and billions of dollars invested. Many of my ME/CFS patients, on the other hand, are terribly ill and unable to work or participate in the care of their families. I split my clinical time between the two illnesses, and I can tell you if I had to choose between the two illnesses (in 2009) I would rather have H.I.V.’


I first hand experienced the crushing defeat of having a condition that there is little to no support for, and it breaks my heart to know that every day people are dropping off the face of the earth, and in many instances will be left to suffer for years with no full explanation or support.


I am one of the fortunate ones who managed to manage symptoms enough to resume a mostly functional life. I therefore see it as a duty to speak on behalf of people who find themselves in a position where it’s difficult to speak for themselves. I wish I’d had more stories of hope at the time.


Now I’m in a position where I could actively make a dent, even if a small one. Ive spent the last month putting together a detailed account of my story in hopes that it helps the people suffering feel less alone, gives them hope, and also hopefully raises awareness and rattles enough cages to highlight the severity of this illness to the point where more is done for it.


The first instalment will debut on my YouTube and twitch channels tomorrow at 6:15 PM UK time, and will continue every day until the release of my next track ’Troubles’ on the 9th of may.


I hope for the sake of all of us still actively fighting their hardest to participate in life, that this offers some kind of help, because I know what it’s like to feel hopeless.


I love you


Ren

[MattLocke]

I never comment, but I will for you Ren. YouTube gods please throw this on the recommended of everyone out there! <3

[clairederozier]

THANK YOU, brother! Fibromyalgia has changed my life. Took years to be diagnosed and still no actual treatment. You are such a a gift!

[ianclark]

My wife has been suffering with chronic pain, chronic fatigue and fibromyalgia for the last 7 years.we are not even sure the meds work anymore. I just introduced her to your music and she has really connected with it. Just wanna say thank you .

[lilygal]

I just played this for my daughter who has a Connective Tissue disorder, POTSsnd heart condition. It made us both cry, because we felt heard. Thank you Ren. Keep pushing bro, but remember to stop, breathe and just be as well. Luv ya ❤❤

[tjh]

To all you artists, performers, writers, poets, etc…. Ren has demonstrated a template to create meaning, solace, compassion, and empathy. I for one, had lost a considerable amount of my passion for music appreciation and my own creative potential. Though it may sound like hyperbole, the art Ren has created has markedly improved my life in several ways. I see REN’s influence in other aspiring independent artists who have written more creatively and made videos pushing their previous practices and methods.

[ashwolf]

Wopila tanka or many thanks in Lakota for sharing your story and your truth with all of us my brother. You are so beautiful and your soul shines my brother. Bless you for being a voice and light in the darkness for all of us born sick. May the great spirit continue to watch over and guide you on your beautiful path. 🙏🤟🫶🪽💛🔥

[louisdifabio]

When I got diagnosed with ME last year the whole process and ignorance in the medical community is so incredibly shocking. Thanks so much for bringing public awareness to these horrible illnesses

[terezahasnikova]

This isn't entertainment, this is real life. This is HOPE for so many people. Thank you! ❤

[jamesmacphee]

I live in the Highlands, tick central, I know a few folk with Lymes, yer music has raised awareness in bairns everywhere to the dangers of Lymes, my hat is doffed...

[ruthjohnson]

I have ME/CFS and yes, it’s painful. Really painful. I also have two autoimmune diseases so it was ridiculous getting a diagnosis. But here I am. Thankfully I haven’t had a total breakdown. I can’t even imagine how difficult this is for such a young man. REN is such a great communicator and talent, that we’ve been the beneficiaries of his great music.

[shelleybelly]

Oh Ren. Thank you for mentioning POTS. My beautiful daughter has been living with this for 5 years - came on at 19, like you... a good chunk of youth robbed away. I just sent this to her... I think it will give her HOPE. So much love to you, sweet Ren.

[TonnieGenXLeigh]

As a mother of 3, I feel proud of you as if you were one of my kids. I can only imagine how your mom felt throughout this whole process and see you come out shining brighter than ever. She raised a remarkably strong and determined person. I imagine she must be just as remarkable. ❤

[anitagoodwin]

As a mom of a 30yo with health issues. I want to acknowledge his mom who was there for him.❤

[rhiannonsilvacunningham]

I remember your first go fund me campaign to get treatment, I was so moved by your music I donated from The States (Humboldt County), and now look at F Yes!!! Rock your Anthem Ren!! You’ve earned this!!!💪🏼❤️‍🔥🎶😎

[sinjaja]

Only just discovered this genius. Mesmerized by the music and beauty of the message. As a survivor of decades of depression: I can see the light now and you will, too.