Ren - Hi Ren (Official Music Video)

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Ren - Hi Ren (Official Music Video)

Hi Ren is out now on all streaming platforms

Creating this song wasn't easy, but I'm so proud of how it turned out.

Want to say a big thank you for everyones support over the years. During the years trapped inside with chronic health problems the main thing that kept me going was a belief that one day I would come out the other side, and be able to achieve success through music. I don’t have a label, and sometimes pushing these things as hard as I want becomes a massive challenge, and I find myself frustrated that there aren’t enough hours in the day to push it as far as I want to. I would love to ask a favour to anyone who has ever enjoyed my music over the years, and it will only take a few minutes of your day.It would mean the world to me if you shared ‘Hi Ren’ as much as you can, over social media platforms, with friends, over email. Together, and with your help I can hopefully reach people all over the world, and get one step closer to the dream I always had! Thank you so much for the support so far!

Song written, performed, directed by Ren
Cinamatographer - Samuel Perry-Falvey
First A.C. - Joshua styles
Lighting - Jacob Neller
Location - Will Rumfitt

Ren Music Videos:

[RenMakesMusic]

Hi there Ren
It's been a little while,
Did you miss me?
You thought you’d buried me, didn't you? Risky…
Because I always come back
Deep down you know that…
Deep down you know I'm always in periphery
Ren aren't you pleased to see me? it's been weeks since we spoke bro, you know you need me
You’re the sheep, I'm the shepherd
Not your place to lead me
Not your place to be biting off the hand that feeds me



Hi Ren
I’ve been taking some time to be distant
I’ve been taking some time to be still
I've been taking some time to be by myself since my therapist told me I'm ill
I've been making some progress lately, and I've learnt some new coping skills
So I haven't really needed you much man
I think we need to just step back and chill



Ren, you sound more insane than I do
You think that those doctors are really there to guide you?
Been through this a million times
Your civilian mind is so perfect at always being lied to
Okay, take another pill boy
Drown yourself in the sound of white noise
Follow this 10 step program, rejoice!
All your problems will be gone! Fucking dumb boy



Nah mate, this time it's different man trust me
I feel like things might be falling in place
And my music's been kinda doing bits too
Like I actually might do something great
And when I'm gone maybe I'll be remembered
For doing something special with myself
That's why I don't think that we should talk man
Cause when your with me it never seems to help


You think that you can amputate me?
I am you, you are me, you are I, I am we
We are one, split in two that makes one so you see
You got to kill you if you wanna kill me.
I'm not left over dinner, I’m not scraps on the side, oh your music is thriving?
Delusional guy! Where's your top ten hit? Where's your interview with Oprah?
Where are your grammes Ren?
Nowhere!


Yeah but, my music's not commercial like that
I never chased numbers, statistics or stats
I Never write hooks for the radio, they never even play me so why would Iconcernn myself with that?
But my music is really connecting,
And the people who find it respect it,
And for me that's enough ‘cause this life's been tough so it gives me a purpose I can rest in


Man you sound so pretentious !
Ren your music is so self centred,
No one wants to hear another song about how much you hate yourself… trust me
You should be so lucky having me inside you to guide you, remind you to manage expectations,
provide you perspective, that thing you neglected, I get it
You wana be a big deal… Next jimi hendrix? forget it


Man it's not like that

Man it's just like that I'm inside you you twat

Nah it's not man your wrong, when I write I belong


Let me break the fourth wall by acknowledging this song
Ren sits down,
Has a stroke of genius,
He wants to write a song that was not done previous
A battle with his subconscious…
Eminem did it


Played on guitar


Plan B did it
Man your not original you criminal, rip off artist, the pinnacle of your success is stealing other people's material
Ren mate we've heard it all before
Ohh "she sell sea shells on the sea shore"


Fuck you I don't need you, I don't need to hear this,
cause I'm fine by myself, I'm a genius!
and I will be great, and I will make waves, and ill shake up the whole world beneath us



That's right speak your truth, your fucking god complex leaks out of you
It's refreshing to actually hear you say it!
In stead of down play it…
“Oh the music Is all about the creative process and if people can find something to relate to within that the that's just a bonus”


Fuck you ima fucking kill you Ren

Well fucking kill me then
let's fucking have you Ren


I'm a do it, watch me prove it, who are you to doubt my music?
‘Cause I call the shots I choose if you die
Yeah I call the shots and so i who choose who survives
I'll tie you up in knots then I'll lock you inside


News flash…

I was created at the dawn of creation,

I am temptation

I am the snake in Eden,

I am the reason for treason

Beheading all Kings,
I am sin with no rhyme or reason,
Sun of the morning, Lucifer,
Antichrist, father of lies,
Mestophilies,
Truth in a blender,
Deceitful pretender,
The Banished avenger,
The righteous surrender
When standing in-front of my solar eclipse,
My name it is stitched to your lips so see
I won't bow to the will of a mortal, feeble and normal

You wana kill me? I'm enteral, immortal
I live in every decision that catalysed chaos
That causes division
I live inside death, the beginning of ends
I am you, you are me, I am you Ren



Hi Ren… I’ve been taking some time to be distant,
I’ve been taking some time to be still
I’ve been taking some time to be by myself and I've spent half my life ill
But just as sure as the tide start turning
Just as sure as the night has dawn
Just as sure as rain fall soon runs dry when you stand in the eye of the storm



I was made to be tested and twisted
I was made to be broken and beat
I was made by his hand, it's all part of the plan that I stand on my own two feet
And you know me my will is eternal
And you know me you've met Me before
Face to with a beast I will rise from the east and I'll settle on the ocean floor
And I go by many names also
Some people know me as hope
Some people know me as the voice that you hear when u loosen the noose on the rope
And you know how I know how I know that I'll prosper?
Because I stand here beside you today
I have stood in the flames that cremated my brain
And I didn't once flinch or shake
So cower at the man I've become
When I sing from the top of my lungs
That I won't retire I'll stand in your fire inspire the meek to be strong
And when I am gone I will rise
In the music that I left behind
Ferocious persistent, immortal like you
we’re a coin with two different sides

When I was 17 years old I shouted out into an empty room, into a blank canvas, that I would defeat the forces of evil,
and for the next 10 years of my life I suffered the consequences...
With Illness, autoimmunity and psychosis

As I got older I realised that there were no real winners or no real losers in physiological warfare
But there were victims and there were students

It wasn’t David verses Goliath, it's was a pendulum eternally swaying between the dark and the light,
and the brighter the light shone, the darker the shadow it cast

It was never a battle for me to win, it was an eternal dance,
and like a dance, the more rigid I became the harder it got
The more I cursed my clumsy footsteps the more i suffered
And so I got older and I learned to relax, and I learned to soften, and that dance got easier

It is this eternal waltz that separates human beings from angels, from demons, from gods

And I must not forget, we must not forget, that we are human beings.

[RenMakesMusic]

Up until I was 9 years old, I would intermittently hear a voice in my head that was not my own. The voice was distinctly different to mine, and always negative. It would self criticise or urge me to do things I knew to be morally wrong. The most peculiar thing about the voice was that it took no effort on my behalf to produce. My own thoughts always felt like there was a process that required effort to bring them to the forefront of my mind, this voice appeared as though it was spoken by another. The sentences felt predetermined like they had already been constructed.

I remember very vividly at 9 years old, becoming very frustrated with the voice. I stood in my back yard, internally screaming at the voice to be silent again and again, and it did. In a flash there was silence, to the point where my head felt like an empty room. I wasn't used to the quiet and that voice never returned. It almost felt lonely in my head.

When I got older I had intermittent bouts with auditory hallucinations where I would hear perfect symphonies, usually at night when drifting off to sleep. They were so clear that they sounded like they were emanating from a radio in the corner of my room. I knew they weren't there, but for some reason they never came with the feeling of fear. I also recall sitting on a bus at the age of 15, and hearing the sound of a crowded room, with about 100 voices chattering away, I was the only person apart from the driver on the bus.

These experiences were always very brief, and few and far between.

My last hallucination was during an intense bout of psychosis in 2015, and was my first visual hallucination. I was walking down a pavement after jumping out my mums car in a crossroads in a moment of frustration and distress with my condition. I was trying to run from myself. What appeared to be a homeless man with a dark complexion approached me, and asked me what was wrong. I explained that I had been sick most my life, and I wasn't sure I had the strength to continue. He looked at me, and smiled and told me 'everything is going to be okay in the end Ren.' I had not told him my name. There was something so overpoweringly sincere about this very simple message, which brought with it an overwhelming feeling of inner peace, and in a flash, he vanished.

My rational brain always linked these experiences to what the doctors have told me, that there are parts of my brain compromised by the autoimmunity in my body. That the myelin sheaths surrounding the complex electrical system that conduct my thoughts were damaged and compromised, causing these lucid experiences that I knew did not exist inside the physical world.

The part of me that edges away from logical and rational thought always attributed these thoughts to some kind of otherworldly intervention, that made my thoughts the battleground of some spiritual tug of war.

For a long time I never really acknowledged this part of myself, for with it brought the danger and stigma of sounding like a crazy person.

I decided with my latest release, to the best of my ability, to capture and express this chess match of thought.

Hi Ren comes out in just over 24 hours.

I can't wait for you all to hear it.

[RenMakesMusic]

I wanted to make this track one of the most honest and raw pieces i've made. All live stripped back with just me and a guitar, It's probably my proudest works to date, and I cant wait for you guys to see it, remember to turn on the notifications button to be reminded to join me at the premier next Thursday at 7pm GMT. See you guys there. So excited for you guys to see this

[johnmackey]

"The people who find it respect it."

Indeed.

[MrRickstopher]

“Why is modern music bad?”
It’s not, it’s just not in the commercial music industry anymore.
Truly genius stuff right here, holy crap.

[phoenixteagarden]

I am a psychiatric nurse. I actually learned about you from another psych. nurse. Your music is spreading and inspiring both patients and staff. Thank you for doing this. It makes a difference. It really does.

[trashkru]

This is no longer a song. This is no longer music. This is a soul splitting open and exploding into art.

[luisoscargonzalez]

This guy didn't write a song, he wrote a play. An epic. A glimmer of hope for the lost and lonely. A masterpiece for centuries. 💔❤️

[catscraftscrimes]

Wish id found Ren earlier, only discovered him a few weeks ago after trying to end my life after having severe auditory hallucinations, a friend suggested i should try listening to him if i wanted someone who understood what it was like to suffer with mental health struggles that i could relate to, they were so right, currently falling down the rabbit hole trying to catch up on all his stuff, he is absolutely amazing!,

[mikalan]

My little Brothers name is REN. Ren went missing and I thought he was dead. I searched the internet high and low for clues and then I came upon your video HI-REN. It was as if My brother was singing his personal Anthem. You share his name and his struggle. After 5 months I found my brother safe. I shared with him this video, we watched it together and cried from the deepest part of our souls. Your message is so needed in this chaotic world and HOPE is the light we look to. In pure gratitude for your gift…. Thank you Ren.

[Bamacoon]

I am a 52 year old grandma. I have not heard anything so profound in my life.
What comes to mind is my favorite quote. I shall leave it here. Leave it, or take it if it resonates with your soul.

"and those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who could not hear the music".-Friedrich Nietzsche

[tendencies]

These aren’t songs. They are one-man musicals. And they are masterpieces. Profound musical therapy.

[KenHong]

I was a bit late to the party having just discovered you a week ago. Having lived a half century thus far, I too know the feeling of being tested and beat down. I have survived bone cancer, three years of experimental chemo, and two heart attacks leaving me with a mere 20% heart function. I absolutely understand the feeling of despair and mental as well as physical struggle. Certainly not to the extent which you have struggled, I'm sure. I find your strength and will unbelievably admirable and inspiring. This is truly a genius piece of art. Good on you and I wish you all the success your talent deserves.

[lavasharkandboygirl]

I’ve never experienced a song making me cry before. Today is 29 days sober. Fuck the cravings, I’m making it to 29 years.
Edit: 7 and a half months and counting, I can’t express how much better my life is

[JWFowler]

Ren, Im a 38 year old U.S. Navy Corpsman who has been dealing with PTSD and i cant ever tell anyone how it feels to be at battle with your own insides but your song makes to so clear what its like and i cant thank you enough or your words they are beyond worthy of any award in the world but i hope my thanks is enough at this moment.

[dirkdombrowski]

- you did something great
- you will be remembered
- you did something special
- your music is really connected
- your music is respected
- you made waves
- you shaked the world
- you are hope

[Ghost.]

My friend, in my 25 years of being alive this is the very first comment I’ve ever made on any social media platform, your lyrics are genius and genuine, artistic and inspiring.
May the lord keep you and hold you on the light side of the pendulum ❤️🙏

[rafaelgarciamd]

Ren, as a physician I would like to thank you for this monumental exploration of the human condition. This is exactly what those of us that have suffered with psychic distress needed. Shame on CNN and their editorial and journalistic malpractice in creating the impression that your music is somehow dangerous to those having suicidal ideation. Of course, anything and anyone can be blamed for romanticizing self-harm but in my professional opinion, there is a greater therapeutic healing associated with an honest approach to this subject. CNN should be ashamed of themselves.

[riskfilledx_xsoul]

When a 9+ minute song feels likr 30 seconds you know its good

[ReggaeBoyGaming]

This is litterally one of best songs ever written, the lyrics, music, arrangement, the message, it will help so many people who can relate and use this to keep pushing forward! Big up 👏🏾👏🏾