From Holy To Heretic | Why I Left Christianity

In my first YouTube video, I share my journey from being a devout Christian to becoming an agnostic atheist. Raised in a Southern Baptist church, I spent years deeply involved in my faith, only to face questions that shook my beliefs to the core. From exploring Calvinism to questioning the nature of God, I eventually realized that I could no longer believe. I share the emotional and intellectual struggles I faced, including feeling lost, outcast, and having to redefine my purpose after leaving Christianity. My hope is that by sharing my story, I can offer encouragement to those who are questioning and seeking their own path. We’re in this together—you’re not alone.

*Please keep in mind that what I share in these videos is my subjective opinion and my goal is to deconstruct fundamentalist/evangelical/conservative Christian ideologies from an ex christian perspective for those who are questioning or deconstructing their beliefs.*

*Outro Music* | "Pixels" by Jeff Kaale

[languagelearningexperience]

Yup. Very relatable. When a Christian says "you probably weren't a real Christian" they have no idea how hard I tried to get it "right" because I loved god/Jesus so much. As soon as you look into things, because you want to understand it better, it all falls apart.

[LyleFrancisDelp]

Glad you came to YT. I don’t do TikTok. I really appreciate your views and your insight.

[StrollingwithStella]

Thank you for sharing your journey to us, I found your channel some weeks ago and I am hooked.
I was born and raised as a jehovah's witness, was a devout believer until the age of 42. I was so depressed after leaving not knowing what to do afterwards. It took me a long time to build up my confidence and learn to trust and love myself. Growth is painful but it's worth it, funny I finally grew up in my 40s. I have finally learned how to be responsible and what being accountable means and started made decisions of what I truly want and be my authentic self. I love my life after leaving.

[DavidWalden-qbyt]

Thank you so much for your videos. I am 87 years old and I have spent much of my life ridding myself of Christian nonsense. It helps me greatly to hear you give voice to struggles I have had for decades.

[jamesknakiewicz]

This exactly how I transitioned from being raised catholic to being free from religious beliefs. Leaving all of that behind made feel so free!

[connorpace]

I grew up Mormon in a small Alabama town. Your vids have more logic than they ever taught! Perfect first video💕

[richardwayne]

Brave honesty. Well spoken "testimony"

[Balintawak]

You have no idea how much your videos mean to me. I am currently struggling greatly with this and have found very little in the way of support. You are a breath of fresh air, what’s encouraging is you are able to provide this lifeline of encouragement without religion bashing. Thank you very much, please keep up the great work ❤️

[gabrielesemeraro]

I absolutely adore you and your content. I want you to know that what you’re doing here is tremendously significant to a bunch of people who are going through the same experience as yours. Please, never stop!! Sending you so much love and support from Italy❤️❤️❤️❤️

[toddrickman]

I am so thankful that I discovered your channel. You have finally given me the right words to explain my feelings.

[joshuabell]

Thank you for sharing this. I used to be a non-denominational Christian but stopped believing after I realised just how messed up it all is and how there is no way to guarantee that any of it is real. It was hard, I had to give up a lot and I couldn't tell my parents for over a year that I stopped until my mother kept pestering me to give tithe when it made me uncomfortable. I have yet to engage with a debate with them as to why it happened (and honestly, I'm scared to) but I do have a list of points as to why I left which include the various ethical and philosophical concerns of Christianity and why I can't take an extraordinary claim at some book's word for it.

[jusugow]

Kristi, your journey resonates with me. I could go on explaining similar experiences, but you've already summarized it. Thank you so much for sharing.

[tanvigawde]

Oh my goodness, I went through exactly what you went through. I’m still rebuilding my identity. It’s a journey. Thank you for sharing!! It means a lot!

[aawschannel]

This really touched my heart. And I feel so sad you had to go through that experience! I’m glad you have found your own path and way of life. ❤️

[ashleytheseeker]

Former muslim woman here. I have the same sentiments. I wish I left islam/religion a lot sooner.

[Eric-nevg]

Really appreciate you sharing your story Kristi! I’m going through my own “deconversion” after years of wrestling with things in the Bible and within the Christian faith/belief system. You are not alone… I am not alone… Other’s are not alone in the questioning, being skeptical of and doubting the validity of the tradition of religion. Thank you again for sharing your thoughts, opinions, perspectives, and experiences.

[FtdThinks]

Thanks for sharing your story. I am a former Christian too and really know what it's like to feel trapped inside of Christianity and burdened by all the ideas of God that exist. I see so many similarities in your journey with mine. Glad you made the right decision for yourself. Keep sharing your story. So many people need to hear it!

[mackymintle]

Great to hear your story. I’m a big fan of people spending the time to find integrity…snd then teach themselves how to communicate their thoughts clearly!
Instant subscriber. ❤

[awakeenlighten]

Loved this video Kristi! Stay strong!

“Sometimes people don't want to hear the truth, because they don't want their illusions destroyed.” ― Friedrich Nietzsche

[rachaelwilliams-weston]

Christie. Ty. I’ve recently left my faith and am distraught and feel I have no purpose anymore. You are really helping me