HIDING DEPRESSION (high functioning depression)

this is what high functioning depression feels like
also known as dysthymia or persistent depressive disorder, pdd

[SkyyWalkerr]

"Soon, you become so used to it, you can't even tell when it started"

Felt that one.

[lismaestrelo]

"Forever regretful of the past and always anxious about the future"

[mezzobri]

"You okay?"
"I'm okay, I'm just tired"..

[mchan]

When they need me, I’m always there to comfort them. But when I need them, they disappear.

[unpopularopinion]

"Talking to people reminds you how lonely you are" i felt that

[clouddanny]

im tired of trying to push myself to do things while i have no energy and passion to do anything

[nocturnerequiem]

“But every time depression hits, it erases pleasant memories, bit by bit.”

That broke me.

[valentiapauwels]

"Best wife, best employee, best daughter, best student, keep everyone happy ...but you."

This one really hits. I get the highest grades in school, try to be the best girlfriend, best daughter for my hardworking mom..
Anyone else?

[nuhahafiz]

"After all, your life has not completely fallen apart yet, so why would anyone believe you're struggling."

FELT THAT.

[libertyroberts]

“Keep everyone happy. Everyone but you.”
What a powerful line. This is the one I related to the most.

[parabellum]

*_Depression's hard enough; quarantine is giving it a considerable presence._*

[aimeed]

I started crying when you said "After all, your life has not completely fallen apart yet, so why would ppl believe you are struggling?" It hit me hard.

[oddeyed]

"By the time you realize something's wrong, you're neck deep"

[JohnDoe-icjv]

Sometimes sadness is my most comfortable emotion. If I just submerge myself in sadness, I feel content, at peace. Accepting that nothing is okay makes everything seem okay. Darkness can be a refuge.

[situ_dvilare]

Yeah I came here for the girl of Madrid. Mother of god

[SoupyGal]

I have a feeling my dad has been going through this for a couple years now. He’s a baby boomer so he doesn’t believe in talking things out or getting help. He just tries to stay strong for everyone. But never for himself.

[cassidyfranklin]

"But sometimes, you forget your lines and the pain trickles through the cracks." Yep today I accidentally started crying in front of my mother.

[nekonemui]

The most depressing thing is when you're asking for help but people say that you're just okay :)

[kaleuh]

i love how you use a play as a metaphor for high-functioning depression. i often think of myself as an actor when it comes to my depression, always acting. i’d go through my day feeling so heavy but i put on the best act i can, pretending i was fine and i was so shocked at how people willingly and wholly believed me. sometimes i get tired of acting and let my guard down, and people get grossed out by what they see but my anxiety builds that act up again. it’s a cycle i live through day after day.

[saike]

Depression is like constantly carrying a weighted blanket with no break. Sometimes it feels heavy, other times it feels like nothing at all..