Why and how you lose yourself in a toxic relationship with a #narcissistic person

Why and how you lose yourself in a toxic relationship with a narcissistic person

Welcome my channel! If this is your first time seeing my face or hearing my voice, my name is Lee and I am a self aware narcissist. I have narcissistic personality disorder ( NPD ) and I've been in therapy for my personality disorder since 2017 and it has definitely changed my life because without it, I would have lost everything.

The point of these videos is to help bring awareness from the other side of the narcissistic *buse spectrum. All my videos give perspective on why many narcissists do what they do and the possible different reasons behind them. The victims and survivors get validation and the Narcissists (those that are willing) get to see that you can get help and that you are not alone.

Thank you so much

[iKIDFrezh]

You have been the most help this year purely off sharing your own understanding. Thank you.

[t.quinonez]

"You can't fully heal in the place that broke you." So true!!!! That's where I keep messing up. I keep going back to the same people and same places that were so toxic to me. Then I find myself falling into the same deep hole again. Depressed and feeling stuck. 😣

[passionprincess]

Lee, you are 100% correct! After staying with my husband (he's an ex now, I divorced) over 30+ years, I did lose myself. One of the worst feelings was walking on egg shells. I truly wish I knew then what I know now. Sad but true, you cannot get those years back. Again thank you Lee, and keep spreading the word.

[inkystarz]

When this happens, you unconsciously adopt their narcissistic defenses, which you bring into your next relationship and that abuse cycle happens all over again.
This is why self knowledge and self reflection and discernment and taking responsibility for your responses and healing are so important.

[nicholeballard]

My eyes are open now !!! I have a job and my own, Thank you God!!!!

[DaughterOfGod]

I left him back in august, like really moved to Germany from Australia to start over. Got my own apartment, started the paperwork for residency permit and needed up going back to him. And now I’m afraid that I’m pregnant and trapped. Had 1mth of lovebombing and back to abuse. The fact that he is still doing this while I’m maybe pregnant is what it took to open my eyes.

Now I feel pure disgust, please if you’re going to leave sever the trauma bond and go no contact. I had a good thing going and gave it up again for this. This is the second time I’ve done this.

[cherrybacon]

There were times I didn't know who I was. I knew who I was when I stood up for myself though. 🍒

[empathiccalm]

No your not wrong your actually 100% correct! In order to be the best parent and give good energy to your children you yourself have to be healthy and happy that is so true ❤

[michelebrown]

I would have walked through flames for my son's father. After being with him for four years I hope he goes straight to hell with gasoline drawls.

[bean]

I don’t recognize anything about me. For the longest I thought it was my health issues but after I put it all together it was like a slap in the face.

[amandakropen]

You are 100% correct about these toxic people. Currenly NC wih a "friend" of 15 years that does nothing to do but try to run my life. When someone screams so much that it opens up G.E.R.D. hole in you stomach it is time to get away from them. I will never understand how these people claim to care about you while they are screamng at you.

[luluhen]

U SAVING FOLKS U SAVING FOLKS...really love what u said at the end...WATCH ME LOSE, WOW‼️What the devil meant to destroy you....GOD IS GETTING THE VICTORY in the wonderful work ur doing.❤️❤️❤️❤️

[suzanne]

After 8+ years with him, I became a different person.
My empathy is nearly gone. I'm a much more suspicious, wary and have huge walls built around me.
Not open or joyful anymore.
And I didn't like how/ what I was becoming.
So I ended it, Brutally, last night. ..
Because I had to for self-protection.
And no, I didn't love him anymore. I've known for 2 years that it was just a very toxic " attachment;" due to the day 2 years ago when he went into a narcissistic rage and hit me. Punched my head, and forced brutal, aggressive sex on me.( yes, rape)
It changed me. Seeing his capacity for violence. Only took me 2 years to finally go.

[shellyspiropulos]

You are spot on right about everything Lee especially the children I have felt guilty because of that exact situation 🙁 I needed to hear all this you gave me validation. Thank you! 💕

[luluhen]

I WISH U NOTHING BUT CONTINUED PROSPERITY & SUCCESS....I'm in full recovery of a narq...His mother gave him up at 9 months & gave him to her mom...she treats him like s### at 55 right today & then he treats me like NOTHING‼️ In this nightmare I GAINED 45 pounds, crying every other day, drained, bills behind, been in out of the Drs office (Head Aches, Grinding my teeth when I slept, Pains & Aching)...just was functioning in a fog for 20 months. BUT I CAN'T FIX HIM....SADLY I TRIED....so I'll save me‼️‼️Love u saying ur wife packed her s### left.... GOOD FOR U THAT U OWNED UP TO IT‼️‼️

[ERnarcfree]

25 years of a marriage- yet I couldn’t see it until someone told me - maybe he is a narcissist.

[nicholeballard]

Mama's Boy are the worst !!! And he is 52, what a shame!!!!

[christinaFaith]

I feel like I'm dying inside. My husband passed away and I thought I was so lucky to meet the next guy. He turned into a living hell. We have a son together but he's a drug addict (wasn't using when we met) and the last time I tried my hardest, he got mad at me because I found his stash. And I'm not talking about pot. He can't stop calling and texting and even said "answer, slut" because I didn't answer his text while I was sleeping at 6 am. And not to slut shame, but I haven't been with anyone but him since we met. He's gotten so bad he is threatening me every single day. Including saying our son is better off in CPS custody and claiming he will call and report me. I have a couple of years worth of his toxic texts but I need money to print them out in case we do end up in court. Not a single SANE person could read the last years worth of texts and say he's the innocent one. I could use a lot of prayer. I'm emotionally drained from all of this.

[t.quinonez]

My biggest fear is being alone. I just don't like being alone. I don't want to leave then be alone for only God knows how long.

[JoyLady-]

This is what happened to me…let me know if you understand ❤