Letter to my parents – Day 94

What are you afraid of?

Losing my parents.

What's the challenge?

To face the fact that they will not be around forever and write them the kind of letter that most people write when it's already too late.

How was the experience?

Ever since I was a little girl, I was too afraid to lose my parents and be left out alone in this planet. I would stay awake for hours, waiting for them to come back at night, until they were back home safe again whenever they had a dinner party or an event. And even today, living in different parts of the world, I check on them every night before going to sleep. I was always too afraid to be the independent person many expected me to be. After some time in therapy, I discovered that in my subconscious mind, being dependent meant keeping those who take care of me alive forever. This project made me realize, without a doubt, that I can be an independent woman living in NYC without any issue, which scares the heck out of me just to acknowledge that! I feel I'm letting go of the fearful dependent girl that arrived to this scary city a year ago, and that's pretty hard to accept. But, if there's one fear I needed to face before the end of the project it had to be this one, the biggest fear of them all.

Writing a letter to my parents imagining what life would be like without them, was a complete reality check. It made me aware of the amazing life they gave me and the importance of their lessons. It gave me peace and discomfort at the same time. It made me appreciate them even more. Most importantly, it gave me the opportunity to let them know how I feel and what I want from them while they're still around. And it gave me the courage to share this experience with all of you, so you can do the same.

I decided to face this fear today, about to celebrate Rosh Hashanah (Jewish new year's), because we must make the most out of this gift G-d gives us, a new year full of blessings ahead. So, we must choose life with every decision we make and spend every day in the best way possible. Shana Tova to all my friends and family.

[beapo]

Es un orgullo tenerte c hija, le agradezco a D-OS q me haya dado una hija c tu Yo tambien tenia ese miedo cuando era chiquita, es universal. Tener hijos ayuda a superarlo. Y entender q así es la vida y q si lo entiendes puedes disfrutarla y disfrutarnos Lo importante es saber q. Nos llevas por dentro. Y q algo bien hicimos. Tu mami.

[WhyNotJanice]

40 seconds into watching this and im in tears

[Maybada]

This made me cry so hard, because i couldn't agree more. My biggest fear is to lose the ones closest to me, and especially my parents.

I keep thinking that i'm not telling them enough how much i love them and how proud they make me every day and how they have made me into the person i am.

Thank you for sharing this video Michelle, it made me think a lot.

[vkjxmlq]

It's made me cry, please never stop making videos. You and your videos help me. I can't believe that is already 94 day. Love from Poland :)

[xlouuxx]

The best day from your project! Cried so much.

[ldinnal]

Okay, I cried the entire video.But it was a good kind of crying.The video is so beautiful! The second I saw the title I was thinking about exactly what I am planning for a long time now..and that is to write my parents a letter.Same as you, and I feel like I can relate to this.
Having both parents it's such a blessing and I couldn't be more happier to know that they are always there for me.The most precious thing every person can ever have is their family.
They will love you like no one else, they will do sacrifices if needed, and they will always be there for their kids.
I am so happy for overcoming your fears! You inspire me to do the same!
I am looking foward to the 100th day!!! Lots of love! xx

[jigglejaggle]

This is my biggest fear too, I cried during this because I'm so scared something bad will happen to my parents, I have no idea how I could live without them. I love them so much😊😢

[Rosshauptner]

It almost made me cry even though I'm not that most emotional person being, but this really inspires me and makes me value my mother much more. I'm currently 17 y/o and I'm yelling at her like always she enters my room and I really wanna make a change since she's also having a hard time healthwise and I should be thankful for her caring that much.

[itsrebeccaox]

Well, I just bawled like a baby! Beautiful letter <3

[richlaue]

I've lost a sister, and my parents ate more in their 90's and I'm just beginning to realize how much my parents love me.

[maguiron]

You made me cry. I feel like i must write a letter to my parents too, and i'm gonna do it in these days. Thanks for share this video with us, it's very inspirational

[TheTugay]

That was amazing, made me think about my past to future and you are an amazing writer

[belenantidin]

me encanto el video! es un miedo de todos! ellos son eternos para nosotros...

[MrDiabeticHero]

Me hizo llorar. Me hizo darme cuenta que tengo el mismo miedo, que pienso de una forma muy parecida, y que quiero decirselo a mis padres. Gracias por hacerme dar cuenta de esto. Espero poder afrontarlo y escribir una carta, tan emocionante y especial como la tuya hacia ellos.
Por otro lado, me deja muy contenta ver que estas llegando al fin de tu proyecto de una manera muy satisfactoria, y que seguramente muchos proyectos nuevos vendrán, y vas a poder pasarlos y disfrutarlos al mismo tiempo.
Saludos desde Uruguay, y suerte con estos últimos días!

[bellafroggy]

Beautiful message! Shana tova to you and your family!!

[evelynrivas]

Llooooreeee con tu carta y si es uno de mis miedos tambien decirle a mis papas lo importantes q son para mi aun cuando ya tengo hijos y he crecido... orgullosos tus padres de tener una hija como tu

[AlejandraPerezaleps]

This was beautiful Michelle :'), It's hard to write a honest letter to your parents, it's been one of my biggest fears...
I was already crying in the 25% of the video, and when I hear/read this phrase: "I dream of the day when we live in the same country again, I promise to do my best to make it happen", that broke my heart as a Venezuelan, which almost all their family it's outside their country :'(, unable to share festivities with them like we used to do...

[alodelore]

This was so beautiful. So. Beautiful. You're so amazing. I love writing texts to people that I really, really appreciate. Just to let them know there's always someone that loves you. Love is the most beautiful thing in the world. Doesn't matter if it's friendship love, family love, or relationship love. Keep it up, I'm so proud of you!

[classic]

Wow. This moved me so much, I cried with you and I felt inspired to tell the people I love I how feel about them. I believe that your parents appreciate this gesture so much and they feel very lucky to have you as a daughter.

P.S.: I am sooo intrigued about the last videos to come

Real fan of your project!

[igylan]

This is awesome and you are beautiful.