Anna Clendening - To My Parents (lyrics)

Title: To My Parents
Artist: Anna Clendening

♬Lyrics♬

I'm sorry mom and dad
I know I messed up bad
I should've, should've done
Should've done better
I'm sorry mom and dad
For all the time I had
To get my life, to get my life together
But I didn't

[Verse 1]
1993 you gave birth to me
Sweet little baby girl, had the world at my feet
Before I could even stand
Cradled me in your right and your left hand
A precious bundle of unmade plans
Hopes and dreams of bigger things
A bright future or so it seemed
Oh but that light grew a little less bright
As I grew up and we began to fight
When I was 13, I was so damn mean
Running away, had nothing more to say than "I hate you"
But that's not true, now
I just don't, I just don't
I just don't know how to say
[Chorus]
I'm sorry mom and dad
I know I messed up bad
I should've, should've done
Should've done better
I'm sorry mom and dad
For all the time I had
To get my life, to get my life together
But I didn't

[Verse 2]
You never talk about me to your friends
Because you must be so embarrassed
I dropped out of college without any plans, moved back home
I couldn't even pay rent, I was living on your couch
Trying to figure it out cutting myself up
And tearing myself down

[Chorus]
I'm sorry mom and dad
I know I messed up bad
I should've, should've done
Should've done better
I'm sorry mom and dad
For all the time I had
To get my life, to get my life together
But I didn't

[Bridge]
I'm sorry that I couldn't buy you that house upon the hill
Or take care of all your medical bills
I know I didn't make you proud
I should've been someone by now
But I never figured out how
I'm sorry that I couldn't buy you that house upon the hill
Or take care of all your medical bills
I know I didn't make you proud
I should've been someone by now
But I never figured out how

[Chorus]
I'm sorry mom and dad
I know I messed up bad
I should've, should've done
Should've done better
I'm sorry mom and dad
For all the time I had
To get my life, to get my life together

[Outro]
I'm sorry mom and dad
I know I messed up bad
I should've, should've done
Should've done better
I'm sorry mom and dad
For all the time I had
To get my life, to get my life together
But I didn't
Sincerely, your daughter

I do not own anything. All credits go to the right owners. No copyright intended.

#AnnaClendening #ToMyParents

[clouds]

I will say now and always will say that “All children deserve parents, but not all parents deserve children”

[Audrey-ddpt]

I tried. I failed. I gave everything to do my best and it still wasnt to there standards. I'll do better mum and dad, I'll get it togther and make you proud. All I have ever wanted is to make you proud of your daughter. I havent been the best that you asked for but I am fighting everyday to get these pieces for a life. I did it all myself. You gave me no help. I've been me because of me and I still want to make you proud. I need to feel accomplished for you. I want you to just be proud of me for once. You guys are amazing but I've never been to your standards. I have tried everything i know but its lost me and I cant put this away now. It's missing and I'm sorry. I'm sorry mum and dad. I love you. You are everything to me. Hopefully some day you can be proud of me. - sincerely your daughter

[alizaaa]

I'm sorry mom and dad....
I really want to feel that feeling at least once in my life when you say I'm proud of you my daughter....

[acem]

"I should've done better." 💔

[darisagovender]

I think the most fucked up thing is when you try so hard to make your parents proud and they just end up ignoring all your efforts and they go straight to your failures. Keep picking on your child's failure and you will make them hate you. I simply hate it when I do something good and then my parents show me off but behind close doors, it's otherwise. Parents are supposed to be their children's anchor, if you keep weighing them down, then they don't owe you an apology for anything. Being a teenager, word of advise for our Don't make us feel worthless because we could go ahead and be rebels and put your names down but we choose not to and we try to make url proud. Don't let those efforts go unnoticed.

[jasminejuada]

IT SUCKS, DOESN'T IT?,
FEELING LIKE YOU'RE NOT GOOD ENOUGH, NO MATTER HOW HARD YOU TRY?

[glendagomez]

I'm the oldest in my family and I will always try my best to make my parents proud, I got into the student of the months in school, I got into the honor rolls in school, I will clean the house, but my parents will only go to my failures at home. I ended up not feeling loved by them, and this songs just makes me feel better since I can relate to it.

[abigail-gssw]

to the people listening to this. at the age 13, i was the most depressed i have ever been in my short life. it gets better, my world did not end in middle school and now i am going to college. you will be okay, it will be hard, and i know that’s not what you need to hear, but you are the author of your own story, embrace yourself, and don’t end your story when it isn’t finished….youre not alone, mental heath is something you cannot control, there’s nothing wrong with you.

[BrookieCookie]

To the person who read this,
It’s been hard for you, I know, and it makes me sad that you don’t see yourself in the way I see you. Sometimes they are things in life that cause us to loose ourselves, and the way you have is so unimaginable painful. I miss your smile, the way your eyes light up the whole room just by the sound of your laughter. I miss the way you accepted the way you look in the mirror without cursing yourself out about how ugly you look. I miss the way you didn’t think of yourself as a failure because everyone makes mistakes, we all have flaws and we all aren’t perfect. It’s painful to see that no one around you seems to see the pain trough your eyes, but, stranger, I do, I see how heavy your heart is and how comforting the sadness for you might be, how afraid your heart is of happiness because it disappears in the end, right? You don’t know how much impact you have in this world and it’s sad to see that your demons fight against you and want to take over you. Because you do make change, it’s something so simple and little that brightens up someone’s whole world, it can be a small smile from your lips, the way you look at things you’re passionate about, the way you make yourself eat even though it’s been hard for you lately, the way you zoom out and go in your own world, you brighten up my world by reading this, it means a lot to me that you’re here, existing, but I don’t want you to just exist, you deserve to feel alive. You deserve to get up in the morning and feel good about yourself. You deserve to feel something- to feel every damn second alive in this lifetime. It’s heartbreaking that you think you’re not capable of being loved, because you are, I love you trough all my words and I hope you let it happen in your heart. Love is scary, I know, maybe you heart had been broken once and since then you wanted to be rather numb than feel ever again, it hurts me how you punish yourself, does it not deserve love? Because YOU DO deserve love, please forgive yourself, it’s not your fault that the demons want to take over your beautiful heart. You’re not a bad person for distancing yourself from others, but you deserve someone to talk to, you deserve someone to listen. I am listening, you can tell me what’s wrong. It’s everything, isn’t it? There’s something pulling your heartstrings on the ground and no one seems to understand how misunderstood you feel, it’s heartbreaking to know that I am behind the screen and can’t give you a hug, that’s why I will give you a big warm virtual hug and send you lots of love :). You matter. You are worthy. You are loved. You deserve good things. You deserve someone to listen. You deserve to eat and drink. You deserve to feel good and alive. You deserve to smile. You deserve a hug. You deserve to be all the things you want to be, because you deserve to have and feel good things happening to you and have a fulfilled life. I know I might not know you personally but I care about you so much, I write this because I want you to stay here with me, I want you to hold on a little longer because you matter so much to me, because I will not let you give up on yourself. I want you to see that you should not give up on yourself because you DESERVE GOOD THINGS. I want you to look back on the time when you were a kid, you didn’t give up when you tried to swim for the first time, you didn’t give up when you tired to walk for the first time and fell, you never gave up on yourself, you always kept on pushing forwards, so why can’t you now? I know it’s tiring, your mentally tired, but don't your younger self deserve good things? look back at your eyes that used to be full of hope, look back on those dreams. Don’t let yourself fall, you deserve better. We will both fight, I will fight for you. I won’t let those demons get to you. You can hold on to me, I won’t let you down :). Whenever you feel lonely, then look at the sky, I always look at it and think about you. Yes, you, because it makes me happy that there’s someone looking right back, maybe we can’t see each other but I can feel your presence here with me and that’s enough for me, because I am glad your heart is beating and you’re still fighting. You’re so much stronger thank you think, you didn’t leave your spot on this earth even if you wanted to, you belong here, even though it doesn’t feel like it, when you don’t feel like belonging than build your own home here, put all your love in it and dreams. Think of you as a star when you feel alone, you shine because your heart is good, no matter what mistake you made, no matter about the past you had, you’re one of the stars that shine bright in the universe because you’re heart is beautiful, that’s why the demons in your mind wants to have it. As one of the stars you see others stars, maybe they have felt the same way as you do at some point in there life, but they lighten up the universe with each other’s presence. You’re a star for me, maybe you don’t see it yourself but I can see it, you’re beautiful from inside and out, your body is beautiful the way it is. You make me happy by reading this, you make me feel something by your presence and when you can make me feel that way than you also make other people feel that way about you too. I hope you stay for yourself and don’t let your story get written by others but by yourself, it’s your story not theirs. As you can see, I say a lot of “I hope” because I have hope for you even if you don’t have it for yourself, I see hope in you even though you might want to give up. That’s why I hope you won’t see the world in darkness and will see it colorful again, I hope I will give you a glimpse of hope and make the world you see a bit colorful for today. My favorite color is yellow, and I hope the next time you see the color yellow you will think about my words. If someone left you than don’t blame yourself, don’t think you weren’t enough, don’t lower yourself for someone who couldn’t see the awesomeness in you. If you lost someone I am so sorry for your loss, they want you happy, I hope you don’t feel guilty or regret because you were there, you spend enough time with them, they want you to be happy. They are in a good and safe place now. If someone broke your heart than I am so sorry that they couldn’t see the way you look so beautiful because of the heart you have. Anyone who gets to be with you, doesn’t know how freaking lucky he/ she/ they is :). If you aren’t accepted at home or in general than I am so sorry that you have to deal with someone/ something you shouldn’t be ashamed of, I accept you and support you, I accept you as a human being no matter what race, religion, nationality, skin color, or sexuality you have. You’re safe here with me :). You’re not useless, you’re not a burden to anyone. You’re not a problem, you’re human and your feelings are valid. You’re not being dramatic. Please don’t starve yourself, you deserve food and to drink, I know it’s hard. It hurts to see that you’re in so much pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you. I am sorry no one is noticing, I wish /hope I could take your pain away for today or even for a moment while you’re reading this. If no one told you, I am so proud of you, you’re reading this and it’s enough for me to be proud of you because you’re here and that’s all that matters to me. If it’s night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you. If it’s day for you, don’t start it by such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water everyday in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits. If it’s evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed.
And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re so strong for breathing despite the pain, I know you will make it :) I believe in you. All I want for you is to stay here, I really mean all my words, even if there is a lot of unsaid things I want to tell u and my text is getting longer and longer, I want you here.
I hope one day your smile will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore, because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every freaking cent in this world.
In case no one told you and you’re unsure yourself, you’re a good person and I am so happy you’re here.
I hope this is enough to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. Enough with beating yourself up for today, okay?
Life for those who couldn’t, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug like its your last one.
If you read all of it, until tomorrow my friend :)
have a good day and great years.
I love you so much and am so proud of you, I hope you will remember my words- brookie, the stranger that cares more about you than anything :)

[vinodhini]

Sometimes I think that my parents deserve a better child 😭😭

[gaurisharma]

I'm 13 and I'm so mad at myself I know myself I did wrong I try to say sorry but it never works out I know she is wasting her money on me I'm so so sorry mom I should take care of you but I can't I am so sorry for being so immature I'm so sorry I make you feel ashamed I'm so sorry I was born to you
Sincerely you daughter.

[sandrabuist]

This song helps me right now... I'm going to rehab in a few weeks... struggling so hard... and now i begged for help... i can finally go to the clinic but i am so afraid

[oviam]

To my parents: I'm sorry you deserve a better daughter
To my sister: I'm sorry you deserve a better elder

[gwendymaeescultura]

I'm here reading the comments and listening to this song and cried

[layered]

my relationship is very different from everyone else. What makes me relate to this song so much is that i know my parents love me so much, and that i mean the world to them. i was just so selfish when i was younger that ive done so much damage to my relationship with my parents. ive always disappointed them, yet they always chose to put me first. which is why one day i hope i can show this song to them, because this song describes me so well. i just wish i was able to do well in school so they can stress less about me. i love my parents so so much and i just want to say, sorry mom and dad, i really loved you, i just wish you guys knew. i hope its not too late by the time i am able to prove my worth to you guys. i hope i can prove that all your effort was worth it and you can finally rest easy. i hope one day i will be enough for you, and i will be able to fulfill your hopes and dreams. i hope that one day i will be able to take care of you guys just as well as you guys do for me. once again im so grateful for you guys and i honestly cant imagine life without you guys.

[ciko]

This song is literally the whole life story. Such a good deep meaning.

[zoe_]

As a young teenager I never felt happiness as I was suffering with depression I heard this song and it reminded me of those moments where they would do so much for me and I was always so fussy and picky with everything I brought them I would never remember to say thank you or sorry straight away and I didn’t seem to love them.I knew I had depression but they didn’t I never had the courage to tell them so they thought I was an ungrateful spoiled daughter

[aussie.system]

The worst thing a parent could hear is…`I hate you, I wish you were never my parents!`

But the worst thing a child could possibly hear is `I wish you were never born, I was better then I am now.`
I’ve heard those words before..

[meganconrad]

I’m 33 and I’m an now just working through my pain around the fact that no matter how successful I am that I will never make my parents proud. To those who read this who think being successful will fix things, it won’t, don’t waste the years thinking you can love yourself when they love you because if they don’t love and accept you now, they never will. Love you now and don’t waste time not loving you because you deserve love simple because you exist ❤

[ephilia]

As a teen doing lots of big exams - parents put academic stress on me and my sibling too much they bug me to do better but don’t recognise the efforts I put in please just recognise my work
-sincerely your daughter