Mad Tsai - mad's world (Performance Video)

hi...

i'm back from the dead with another music video for you guys (sorry if the thumbnail scared you guys)! mad's world is one of my favorite songs that I've written, since I wrote it at a really dark point in my life. I've always seen this song as the bridge between my more fantastical songs (like stacy's brother and killer queen) and the songs I've written about my real emotions and struggles (like in my head and teenage nightmare). when my next EP comes out you'll piece together the full story.

(by the way, there's another music video coming.)

love you,

- mad
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director: Ana Peralta Chong
treatment/concept: Mad Tsai
production company: Sworn Friend Studios & Dice TV presents
producer: Giovanna Trujillo and Caro Knapp
creative director: Christopher Aguirre
editor: Justin La Turno
dp: Dylan Budineski
1st ac: Sonali Chugani
steadicam: Krisel Magaña
production design: Caro Knapp
color: Nick Lindell Wright
art assistant: Gabby Alas, Meg Darbourne, Natalie Serratos
gaffer: A.J. Rizer
key grip: Lina Kraftsoff
grip: Arian Romero, Brian Law, Edwin Medina
logo designer: Sofia Chang
hair/makeup: Faye Aguilar
stylist: Isa Spies
stylist assistant: Chancee Phensuk
bts: Emma Valles
production assistant: Austin Cummmings, Lance Redeker, JT Clemente
keyboard: Maggie Pan
guitarist: Rafa Rodriguez
drummer: Josue Arellano

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i wish i didn’t feel this way
i’ve lived and made some bad mistakes
if i could escape the thoughts in my brain
i would travel far so fucking far away

ain’t it fun
growing up wishing you were never made

my head is fucked
don’t know what,
what is real is and what is fake

the boy’s a gun
an atom bomb that’s bound to crash and break

it’s a mad mad mad mad world
and i’m insane

my mom and dad both seem to say
oh mad’s a future gone to waste
if i had a normal coming of age
i would be the son they dreamed of every day

ain’t it dumb
growing up and the world wants you to break

god it sucks
knowing what, what is causing all my pain

i hate my guts,
i’m so done, being everyone’s mistake

it’s a mad mad mad mad world
and i’m insane

(crazy 50s apocalyptic orchestral breakdown)

someday i’ll be gone without a trace
if i hate myself i’ll just change in every way
crazy psychopathic and deranged

it’s a mad mad mad mad world
and i’m the king

[thesecondone]

This dude is genuinely so underrated. He's only known for like, 2 of his songs, and yet everything else goes unnoticed. He better get popular one day I swear

[kingfalls]

"I hate my guts, I'm so done, being everyone mistake" is a line I relate to so much

[MisterPerfect-pj]

"if i had a normal coming of age, i would be the son they dreamed of every day", this hits different

[IzzyIsIsi]

"If i could escape the thoughts in my brain"
I WOULD BE LIVING MY BEST LIFE 🌞🛸🫠

[iamamiraclearmy]

I listened to this song a lot in the past few months so seing Mad giving us a MV for og just makes me happy. Truly a sad boy anthem. Hope he will finally get the fame he deserves!

[StarGrimmchild]

This is no doubt one of my favorite Mad Tsai songs. I’ve been listening to it for a while and I really resonate with it. It gives me an explanation to how I feel a lot of the time, especially the “I’m so done being everyone’s mistake” line. Absolutely love it!

[cryyuni]

“I would be the son they dreamed of every day”
THIS SONG HITS SO DANG WELL, mad you are absolutely amazing! That guitar solo and the lyrics (I also really love your acoustic covers, you voice sounds so nice and comforting ^^)

[sabinapiontek]

Slaying as always. Such an underestimated artist

[CJinSFCA]

LOVE The "It's A Mad Mad Mad Mad World" movie reference!

[Alan_]

So excited for these new songs, they have a whole new vibe to them

[AnonymousShark]

All of your songs are so amazing and this one gives me goosebumps, OMG ur so underrated!!!!

[Elychouette]

Can't wait to see the video with this amazing song!! Mad's world is definitely one of my favorite, it's so good!! <33

[IMDBreview]

I would love to just live in a country with no homophobia because this world is crazy, i have to put up with homophobia everywhere to the point that at my job which is a "manly🙄" job i have to hide who i am and what i am, just because some people cant accept anything and now for the first time because of this song i wore a skirt outside and put on makeup, thank you Mad Tsai you have helped me get my courage enough to tell my dad that im non binary and he said he will love me and all of my pronouns, happy tears 😢

[mjohnson]

I would say the people who matter the most in your life are right here and we all think you are beautiful and a success. We are your true friends and your true family. Nice song as always.

[Cal-Amity]

THE SPIDER WEB SWEATER IS SO COOL ❤ love this song!!

[Nyx]

This song is very relatable and just a complete masterpiece. You are so underrated. I’ve only been listening to u for 4 months, but I’m a fan. Keep it up!! I believe in you. :)

[Candynlcs]

FINALLY THIS MUSIC VIDEO CAME OUT! I've been waiting forever!

[SUPER_STAR_FROM_SPACE]

I LOVE ALL YOUR GOD DAMN SONGS YOUR AWSOME!! I LOVE THE FACT THEY ARE ALL RELATABLE !!!!

[masonjordan-rlcm]

mad is the literal definition of perfect and amazing💚💜

[cryyuni]

trans FTM reading of this song?

“if I could escape the thoughts in my brain, I would fly so far away” and “He’s a future gone to waste”
if dysphoria was not crippling, I could have gotten myself out of an unaccepting family. I could have also done so much more in pursuing my passions if it did not hinder me in so many daily activities.

“If I hate myself, I’ll just change in every way”
So many things feel wrong you don’t even know what to do anymore so you just try to please everyone around you and fit in however you can, but it just breaks you further.

“wishing you were never made”
questioning why you were made this way and why you have to go through this when seemingly no one else struggles with their gender

“If I had a normal coming of age, I would be son they dreamed of everyday”
if I was a cis boy and got it live out my childhood and be the eldest son, I would have made the my family proud since Asian families want sons. But because I’m trans, they still don’t accept me and wished I was just a girl.

“The boys an atom bomb that’s meant to crash and break”
I feel as if society is scrutinizing trans people, watching their every move, waiting until they can jump in and say the downfall we’ve reached is because of our identity. I also feel like the people who do support me are just doing it to seem nice and their superficial kindness is just there so they can see “how I turn out” my family thinks I’m just going to one day give up and revert back to “my old self”.

“I’m insane”
people think I’m crazy because they don’t understand me and think I’m doing something crazy but I’m literally just trying to live comfortably and not feel like I hate myself every single moment of my life.

“i know exactly what is causing all my pain… I hate my guts”
I know what I need and know where my dysphoria is coming from, but I cannot stop it or change the minds of other people and it hurts so much. also “I hate my guts” (dysphoria fr)

“it’s a mad mad mad mad world, and I’m the king”
truly, the world is messed up and I’m a mess too but sometimes you just have to own it in order to survive. And since everyone is out here demonizing trans people might as well say you have the power :’)